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  • I confess I sat on my a$$ all day feeling sorry for myself, and only went out once to buy a bottle of wine.

    I also confess I watched Marley & Me so I could bawl my eyes out, guilt-free.

    I also confess I owe DH birthday sex (bday on the 31st) and I feel bad about not delivering yet.

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  • Well, I'm drinking a margarita out of a salt rimmed glass and it tastes great and I made it in my new Ninja.  Ok, here's the confession though...I'm pissed at the fact that I'm actually "allowed" to drink it. Sad  I should be pregnant instead.

    Lilypie - (dLe1)

     

          ***BFP 1-22-13, baby boy dx with Trisomy 13 at 15 weeks.

           We let him go to Heaven on 4-27-13 at 17 weeks 1 day***

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    Well, I'm drinking a margarita out of a salt rimmed glass and it tastes great and I made it in my new Ninja.  Ok, here's the confession though...I'm pissed at the fact that I'm actually "allowed" to drink it. Sad  I should be pregnant instead.

    (hugs) I wonder if I'll ever be able to enjoy a glass of wine again without thinking, "I'd rather be pregnant." :(

    Where in Ohio are you, QuigleyCat?

    It was a rough road, but Arlo Daniel was born April 1, 2013—and our second rainbow is due October 12, 2014.
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    I confess I sat on my a$$ all day feeling sorry for myself, and only went out once to buy a bottle of wine.

    I also confess I watched Marley & Me so I could bawl my eyes out, guilt-free.

    I also confess I owe DH birthday sex (bday on the 31st) and I feel bad about not delivering yet.

    ((Hugs)) to you hon, I'm sorry you are feeling blue today. 

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    Well, I'm drinking a margarita out of a salt rimmed glass and it tastes great and I made it in my new Ninja.  Ok, here's the confession though...I'm pissed at the fact that I'm actually "allowed" to drink it. Sad  I should be pregnant instead.

    (hugs) I wonder if I'll ever be able to enjoy a glass of wine again without thinking, "I'd rather be pregnant." :(

    Where in Ohio are you, QuigleyCat?

    Roughly an hour east of Cleveland, and about 5 minutes south of Lake Erie.  You?

    Lilypie - (dLe1)

     

          ***BFP 1-22-13, baby boy dx with Trisomy 13 at 15 weeks.

           We let him go to Heaven on 4-27-13 at 17 weeks 1 day***

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  • DH is working this weekend. I loaded up on junk food because I'm getting close to O (hopefully) and plan to get diet in check (starting tomorrow) with the possibility of a BFP in the next few weeks.

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    Well, I'm drinking a margarita out of a salt rimmed glass and it tastes great and I made it in my new Ninja.  Ok, here's the confession though...I'm pissed at the fact that I'm actually "allowed" to drink it. Sad  I should be pregnant instead.

    (hugs) I wonder if I'll ever be able to enjoy a glass of wine again without thinking, "I'd rather be pregnant." :(

    Where in Ohio are you, QuigleyCat?

    Roughly an hour east of Cleveland, and about 5 minutes south of Lake Erie.  You?

    Cleveland! :) 

    It was a rough road, but Arlo Daniel was born April 1, 2013—and our second rainbow is due October 12, 2014.
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    Well, I'm drinking a margarita out of a salt rimmed glass and it tastes great and I made it in my new Ninja.  Ok, here's the confession though...I'm pissed at the fact that I'm actually "allowed" to drink it. Sad  I should be pregnant instead.

    (hugs) I wonder if I'll ever be able to enjoy a glass of wine again without thinking, "I'd rather be pregnant." :(

    Where in Ohio are you, QuigleyCat?

    Roughly an hour east of Cleveland, and about 5 minutes south of Lake Erie.  You?

    Cleveland! :) 

    Cool!  I'm in a little town called Geneva...highly known for it's wineries in Ohio! 

    Lilypie - (dLe1)

     

          ***BFP 1-22-13, baby boy dx with Trisomy 13 at 15 weeks.

           We let him go to Heaven on 4-27-13 at 17 weeks 1 day***

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    I confess I sat on my a$$ all day feeling sorry for myself, and only went out once to buy a bottle of wine.

    I also confess I watched Marley & Me so I could bawl my eyes out, guilt-free.

    I also confess I owe DH birthday sex (bday on the 31st) and I feel bad about not delivering yet.

     I'm sorry you had a bad day.

    My confession is last year I lost 30lbs. Gained 10 back after a cruise in Aug then got KU in Sept and gained the other 20 back. I'm miserable and know I need to start watching my weight. I get really mad at myself but now... I just made yummy oatmeal cookies. Why is this diet thing so hard?

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  • I hate today. I got into a fight with DH over something incredibly stupid, then felt horrible for things I said to him, skipped the park with my cousin because I was having a pity party, went to a birthday party and it was horrible I left early, and now I am sitting at home alone because dh is at work and I want to just continue feeling sorry for myself and pretend today didn't happen.
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    Well, I'm drinking a margarita out of a salt rimmed glass and it tastes great and I made it in my new Ninja.  Ok, here's the confession though...I'm pissed at the fact that I'm actually "allowed" to drink it. Sad  I should be pregnant instead.

    (hugs) I wonder if I'll ever be able to enjoy a glass of wine again without thinking, "I'd rather be pregnant." :(

    Where in Ohio are you, QuigleyCat?

    Roughly an hour east of Cleveland, and about 5 minutes south of Lake Erie.  You?

    Cleveland! :) 

    Cool!  I'm in a little town called Geneva...highly known for it's wineries in Ohio! 

    Small world. DH and I love to ride his motorcycle to Geneva on the Lake during the summer. :) 

    It was a rough road, but Arlo Daniel was born April 1, 2013—and our second rainbow is due October 12, 2014.
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    Well, I'm drinking a margarita out of a salt rimmed glass and it tastes great and I made it in my new Ninja.  Ok, here's the confession though...I'm pissed at the fact that I'm actually "allowed" to drink it. Sad  I should be pregnant instead.

    (hugs) I wonder if I'll ever be able to enjoy a glass of wine again without thinking, "I'd rather be pregnant." :(

    Where in Ohio are you, QuigleyCat?

    Roughly an hour east of Cleveland, and about 5 minutes south of Lake Erie.  You?

    Cleveland! :) 

    Cool!  I'm in a little town called Geneva...highly known for it's wineries in Ohio! 

    Small world. DH and I love to ride his motorcycle to Geneva on the Lake during the summer. :) 

    Ahhhh, The Strip!  Eddie's Grill for a hot dog, fries and rootbeer!  We live about 5 minutes from there.  Next time you go, try Madsen's creamsticks...they're the best!

    Lilypie - (dLe1)

     

          ***BFP 1-22-13, baby boy dx with Trisomy 13 at 15 weeks.

           We let him go to Heaven on 4-27-13 at 17 weeks 1 day***

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    Well, I'm drinking a margarita out of a salt rimmed glass and it tastes great and I made it in my new Ninja.  Ok, here's the confession though...I'm pissed at the fact that I'm actually "allowed" to drink it. Sad  I should be pregnant instead.

    (hugs) I wonder if I'll ever be able to enjoy a glass of wine again without thinking, "I'd rather be pregnant." :(

    Where in Ohio are you, QuigleyCat?

    Roughly an hour east of Cleveland, and about 5 minutes south of Lake Erie.  You?

    Cleveland! :) 

    Cool!  I'm in a little town called Geneva...highly known for it's wineries in Ohio! 

    Small world. DH and I love to ride his motorcycle to Geneva on the Lake during the summer. :) 

    Ahhhh, The Strip!  Eddie's Grill for a hot dog, fries and rootbeer!  We live about 5 minutes from there.  Next time you go, try Madsen's creamsticks...they're the best!

    Is Eddie's Grill the one with the stools out front, where you can watch the kids grill your burgers? If so, I love that place! I'll have to remember to try Madsen's creamsticks this summer. :)  

    It was a rough road, but Arlo Daniel was born April 1, 2013—and our second rainbow is due October 12, 2014.
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    Well, I'm drinking a margarita out of a salt rimmed glass and it tastes great and I made it in my new Ninja.  Ok, here's the confession though...I'm pissed at the fact that I'm actually "allowed" to drink it. Sad  I should be pregnant instead.

    (hugs) I wonder if I'll ever be able to enjoy a glass of wine again without thinking, "I'd rather be pregnant." :(

    Where in Ohio are you, QuigleyCat?

    Roughly an hour east of Cleveland, and about 5 minutes south of Lake Erie.  You?

    Cleveland! :) 

    Cool!  I'm in a little town called Geneva...highly known for it's wineries in Ohio! 

    Small world. DH and I love to ride his motorcycle to Geneva on the Lake during the summer. :) 

    Ahhhh, The Strip!  Eddie's Grill for a hot dog, fries and rootbeer!  We live about 5 minutes from there.  Next time you go, try Madsen's creamsticks...they're the best!

    Is Eddie's Grill the one with the stools out front, where you can watch the kids grill your burgers? If so, I love that place! I'll have to remember to try Madsen's creamsticks this summer. :)  

    Yep that's it!  There's also a bike weekend every summer too.  It's called Thunder on the Strip.  Here's the link: https://www.thunderonthestrip.com/index.htm

    Lilypie - (dLe1)

     

          ***BFP 1-22-13, baby boy dx with Trisomy 13 at 15 weeks.

           We let him go to Heaven on 4-27-13 at 17 weeks 1 day***

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  • I hate my SIL (like many of you). Tonight we had a family birthday dinner. So of course someone tells MIL that she needs a grandchild. I sit there and don't say a word (they don't know about the m/c). So SIL says "I'm going to be like Janelle on teen mom and let mom raise my child". WTF. I wanted to punch her. Did I mention that she is married. Wow oh wow. 

    Someone else asked me when we were going to have a baby. I said "one day" and she asked me if I knew how to have kids. I wanted to punch her.  

    Married my best friend May 24, 2008
    BFP #1 9/1/11, EDD 5/15/12, Missed M/C at 9w4d, discovered at 11w3d, D&C 11/2/11
    BFP #2 6/20/12, Baby Boy born 3/2/13
    BFP #3 October 2016, EDD 6/11/17
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    I hate my SIL (like many of you). Tonight we had a family birthday dinner. So of course someone tells MIL that she needs a grandchild. I sit there and don't say a word (they don't know about the m/c). So SIL says "I'm going to be like Janelle on teen mom and let mom raise my child". WTF. I wanted to punch her. Did I mention that she is married. Wow oh wow. 

    Someone else asked me when we were going to have a baby. I said "one day" and she asked me if I knew how to have kids. I wanted to punch her.  

    UGH! Stupid people everywhere! Regarding the question about whether you know how to have kids or not... WTF??  I think I would have followed that question up with a response that would have made her feel more awkward than she's ever felt before in her life. I'm so sorry you had to deal with those 2 morons. Hope tomorrow's a better day. (hugs)

    It was a rough road, but Arlo Daniel was born April 1, 2013—and our second rainbow is due October 12, 2014.
  • I think for the first time in my life....I am almost sick of sex.

    Triggered on Thursday, and DH and I just happened to BD on Wednesday night before my appt, then RE said to BD on Thursday, Friday, and Saturday....yep....sick of it.  I think it might be a few days before DH and I are in the mood again.

    Also, I was freezing this evening, so I took a warm shower about an hour ago, got into my warm fluffy robe, sat on the couch, and have been there since!

    TTC since June 2009 DX: PCOS October 2010
    6 medicated cycles, 2 pregnancies, 1 ectopic April 2011, Early Miscarriage August 2011
    7 more cycles, 1 IUI, No success after last pregnancy
    7/1/2012 No more fertility coverage
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    I hate my SIL (like many of you). Tonight we had a family birthday dinner. So of course someone tells MIL that she needs a grandchild. I sit there and don't say a word (they don't know about the m/c). So SIL says "I'm going to be like Janelle on teen mom and let mom raise my child". WTF. I wanted to punch her. Did I mention that she is married. Wow oh wow. 

    Someone else asked me when we were going to have a baby. I said "one day" and she asked me if I knew how to have kids. I wanted to punch her.  

    Oh yuck.  I'm so sorry you had to deal with that.  What kind of question is that anyway???  Hugs for a better tomorrow!

    Lilypie - (dLe1)

     

          ***BFP 1-22-13, baby boy dx with Trisomy 13 at 15 weeks.

           We let him go to Heaven on 4-27-13 at 17 weeks 1 day***

     Lilypie - (AW2u)
     

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  • DH just kicked me out of the bedroom. I had chili last night, and today. I'm kind of stinky. 


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    BFP#2 {Almond} - 2.1.11 EDD 10.12.11 C/P 2.11.11

  • My confession: I have a serious case of jenvy (joy + envy--can't remember who coined this, but it's perfect) tonight. Seems like every time I turn around, there's a new BFP announcement--whether it's online or IRL. I'm hoping like crazy that I can catch the BFP wave that's rolling across this board. Hoping we ALL can.  
    It was a rough road, but Arlo Daniel was born April 1, 2013—and our second rainbow is due October 12, 2014.
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    DH just kicked me out of the bedroom. I had chili last night, and today. I'm kind of stinky. 

    Oh Cashew!  This made me laugh!  I'm thankful for that, but sorry for your DH! lol

    Lilypie - (dLe1)

     

          ***BFP 1-22-13, baby boy dx with Trisomy 13 at 15 weeks.

           We let him go to Heaven on 4-27-13 at 17 weeks 1 day***

     Lilypie - (AW2u)
     

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    My confession: I have a serious case of jenvy (joy + envy--can't remember who coined this, but it's perfect) tonight. Seems like every time I turn around, there's a new BFP announcement--whether it's online or IRL. I'm hoping like crazy that I can catch the BFP wave that's rolling across this board. Hoping we ALL can.  

    I second that!  Good night ladies, enjoy your evening. :)

    Lilypie - (dLe1)

     

          ***BFP 1-22-13, baby boy dx with Trisomy 13 at 15 weeks.

           We let him go to Heaven on 4-27-13 at 17 weeks 1 day***

     Lilypie - (AW2u)
     

     Lilypie - (L84X)Lilypie - (D4Hj)

     

     

     

     

  • imageashleyl31:

     Someone else asked me when we were going to have a baby. I said "one day" and she asked me if I knew how to have kids. I wanted to punch her.  

    You mean you can't get pregnant throught your belly button?!!!  IT ALL MAKES SENSE NOW! 

    My confession:

    This talk of fav songs from way back when inspired me to do something shameful: I full on blasted my eighth grade self's O-Town CD while in the shower Embarrassed.  I am shocked at how dirty some of the words were that I didn't understand at the time and also surprised at how I still remembered the words.  I am so glad the hubs wasn't home to hear it.

     

     

  • I came (...) this close to texting C today but withstood... This being alone crap sucks.. I also am hoping I will find someone to go in the corner and make out with at tomorrow's super bowl party... I need someone just to have a little bit of fun with to help me get out of this funk I'm in lol
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    I came (...) this close to texting C today but withstood... This being alone crap sucks.. I also am hoping I will find someone to go in the corner and make out with at tomorrow's super bowl party... I need someone just to have a little bit of fun with to help me get out of this funk I'm in lol

    I am proud of you for staying strong!

    And hoping you find someone at the super bowl party to give you a hot and steamy snogging fest!

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    My confession: I have a serious case of jenvy (joy + envy--can't remember who coined this, but it's perfect) tonight. Seems like every time I turn around, there's a new BFP announcement--whether it's online or IRL. I'm hoping like crazy that I can catch the BFP wave that's rolling across this board. Hoping we ALL can.  

     Fx that this is your cycle

    Married my best friend May 24, 2008
    BFP #1 9/1/11, EDD 5/15/12, Missed M/C at 9w4d, discovered at 11w3d, D&C 11/2/11
    BFP #2 6/20/12, Baby Boy born 3/2/13
    BFP #3 October 2016, EDD 6/11/17
  • My confession is that I have and extreme want to jump my DH and can't... Ugh 
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    I came (...) this close to texting C today but withstood... This being alone crap sucks.. I also am hoping I will find someone to go in the corner and make out with at tomorrow's super bowl party... I need someone just to have a little bit of fun with to help me get out of this funk I'm in lol

    I am proud of you for staying strong!

    And hoping you find someone at the super bowl party to give you a hot and steamy snogging fest!

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    imagepanacea05:
    My confession: I have a serious case of jenvy (joy + envy--can't remember who coined this, but it's perfect) tonight. Seems like every time I turn around, there's a new BFP announcement--whether it's online or IRL. I'm hoping like crazy that I can catch the BFP wave that's rolling across this board. Hoping we ALL can.  

    I second that!  Good night ladies, enjoy your evening. :)

    Me too it can be a BFP train!!

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    TTC for #1 since Jan 2010
    BFP #1 Oct 1 2010 MC Oct 3 2010
    DX PCOS w/ AO Nov 2011
    3 rounds of Clomid all BFN
    BFP #2 10/12/12 Beta #1 45.1 Beta #2 160.7 * 2/27 diagnosed with IEF in utero.
    Dalaney born @ 35w2d via emergency C-section due to Pre-E after 30 hrs of labor & losing her HB twice. She weighed 5lbs 8oz & was 19in long on May 26th 2013 @ 605am

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    imageVikingQueen:
    I came (...) this close to texting C today but withstood... This being alone crap sucks.. I also am hoping I will find someone to go in the corner and make out with at tomorrow's super bowl party... I need someone just to have a little bit of fun with to help me get out of this funk I'm in lol

    I am proud of you for staying strong!

    And hoping you find someone at the super bowl party to give you a hot and steamy snogging fest!

    No confession, but I love that you used the term snogging.

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  • DH is out of town for work and we had a big snowstorm yesterday. I ran out to the store to stock up on essentials and I may have bought pillsbury chocolate chip cookie dough...I also may have eaten a bunch of raw cookies today while sitting in bed watching a HIMYM marathon on Netflix and am now eating several fresh out of the oven with a big glass of whole milk. I said may have...
    Me: 33, Hypothalamic Amenorrhea, DOR (AMH .35), DH: 38, Borderline low morph
    5/09- Off BCP, 5/09-9/09- No period, 9/09-9/10- Lots of Tests & accupuncture
    10/10 and 11/10- 2 rounds of Menopur + TI= BFNS
    12/10-IUI #1 Menopur = BFN
    1/11- IUI #2 Menopur = BFP, 2/11 missed mc at 9 weeks, D&C
    5/11- Operative Hysteroscopy to remove uterine septum
    6/11- IUI #3 Menopur = BFP, 8/11 missed mc at 11 weeks, D&C
    1/12- Lap and Operative Hysteroscopy to remove uterine septum (again) & scar tissue
    2/12- Stint Removal, 3/12 repeat SHG and HSG- showed scar tissue blocking right tube
    4/12- Operative hysteroscopy (again), RE said he can now see right tube (yay!)
    5/12- Stint removal, 6/12 repeat SHG and HSG-both tubes are open!
    8/12- IUI #4 Bravelle = BFN
    9/12-IUI #5 Bravelle = BFN
    1/13- IVF #1, micro-flare protocol, 7R, 6F, 5dt of 2 AA embryos, 1 to freeze = BFP
    Beta #1: 176, Beta #2: 422, EDD 10/8/13- it's TWINS!
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  • While I am super stoked about the recent BFP's of some very awesome ladies, I'm super sad it's not more of the oldies. 

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    ♥BFP #2 "Offspring"- 11/10/12 | EDD: 07/25/13 | incomplete m/c 12/14/12 @8w1d | D&C 12/21/12♥
    ♥BFP #3 "Progeny" - 02/16/15 | It's a BOY!! | EDD: 10/17/15 | BD: 10/23/15
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  • I just ate a brownie sundae from BK while watching The Vanilla Ice Project... when I know I need to drop this 40 lbs that I've gained in the last year. Then I feel terrible that I'm thinking about having to lose weight because it just reminds me that another cycle has gone by that I'm not pregnant :/
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    I just ate a brownie sundae from BK while watching The Vanilla Ice Project... when I know I need to drop this 40 lbs that I've gained in the last year. Then I feel terrible that I'm thinking about having to lose weight because it just reminds me that another cycle has gone by that I'm not pregnant :/

    I know this feeling all too well. I know I'm not at my optimal weight for pregnancy (thank you thyroid, with a side of binge depression eating), but I tell myself that I don't care if I get pg now and end up gaining more weight. I don't have the patience to try to safely lose 30 lbs beforehand. 

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