i am trying to be positive leading to iui #1, but tonight as i was prepping my bravelle i just looked at everything on the counter and started to cry.
i just looked at the syringes and vials and thought, i feel like i am at work and feel like i am one of my science experiments (i am a chemist)...
maybe its the hormones, or making myself vulnerable to hope, or the fact that i am home alone tonight for the second night in a row bc husband is out of town for work...or maybe i am just losing my mind
Re: injects made me sad tonight
erockmomma said it perfectly! There were points during my IVF cycle where I just felt like I couldn't handle any more shots and wanted to cry. I was sick of dealing with it day after day -- and just like you said, feeling like some crazy science experiment. But you'll push through it because you're a strong, amazing woman and because if and when you get pregnant, it will all be worth it!
(((hugs))) and I hope that tomorrow night is better.
Severe MFI. Me: supposedly all clear but eggs showed vacuoles.
IVF #1 January 2012, ER Jan 14th: 34R, 27M, 23F. Day 3: 18 embies still strong. Day 5: zero "good," one "fair," the rest "poor." Transferred 3. None made it to blast or to freeze. Jan 28: BFN.
Lucky IVF #2: Transferred two beautiful day three embies on St. Patrick's Day. BFP on HPT 7dp3dt. Beta 1 (14dpER)=106; Beta 2 (16dpER)=140; Beta 3 (19dpER)=264! First u/s 4.17.
Hope is the thing with feathers - that perches in the soul - and sings the tune without the words - and never stops - at all - (Emily Dickinson)
thanks for your thoughts and support ladies. it reminds me why i participate in this community.
hoping all of us feel empowered today!
thanks again.
Praying unceasingly for a miracle. ALL welcome!