Hey ladies I just wanted to touch base with you so you know I'm thinking of you.
Let's here how every one is doing.
1, What are you having the most problems with right now
2. How you are treating it? Going to therapy etc.
3. What meds are you on and do you think they are working
4. Are you breastfeeding and does your breastfeeding or lack of breastfeeding contribute to you depression
5. How is DH reacting?
Re: PPD/PPA Moms Check In
1, What are you having the most problems with right now - just went back to work two weeks ago which was good, but now I'm feeling stretched too thin. DH works an hour and a half away, so he's gone before 6 and doesn't get home sometimes until 9pm when I'm already asleep. I'm spread very thin I also had a panic attach today at work, I'm not sure what triggered that, but I was crying, everthing...
2. How you are treating it? Going to therapy etc. I go to a therapist every other week. It helped the first time (I think she was actually worried about me) the second time was lame because I fest good, but this next meeting my be different
3. What meds are you on and do you think they are working. I'm been on zoloft for a little under a month and this is about the time it's supposed to start working, it made me feel awful at first, then got better, but now I'm feeling that I'm actually more anxious after I take it.
4. Are you breastfeeding and does your breastfeeding or lack of breastfeeding contribute to you depression- I'm currently BFing, it doesn't contribute, but it does limit the types of meds I can take
5. How is DH reacting? He's fine, but he just doesn't understand. He's not a very comforting person
1, What are you having the most problems with right now
Keeping my anxiety and depression in check enough that I don't freak out my 19 month old son. He is showing some signs of being anxious and I am wondering if my high anxiety levels are getting to him.
2. How you are treating it? I start counseling on Saturday.
3. What meds are you on and do you think they are working? Not on any.
4. Are you breastfeeding and does your breastfeeding or lack of breastfeeding contribute to you depression? I am breastfeeding and it is definitely a contributing factor. My DS was diagnosed as failure to thrive and I had tons of issues breastfeeding him. I feel guilty that I am successfully breastfeeding his little sister.
5. How is DH reacting? He is trying to be comforting and to make sure I get a little more me time.
1, What are you having the most problems with right now? DS is going through a cranky phase where I feel like all I do all day long is try to soothe him to keep him from crying. I feel like I can't get anything done and I feel pretty inadequate as a parent because I can't seem to keep him happy for very long.
2. How you are treating it? I have all of my old therapy materials and I need to start looking through them again. I'm also trying to focus on positive affirmations to try to get myself in a better mindset. I have spent far too many weeks putting myself down and feeling like a failure. I am working on being kinder to myself.
3. What meds are you on and do you think they are working? No meds for me. I went on meds years back for anxiety and I did not react very well. I also want to continue feeding him breastmilk and don't want to give that up. Meds will be a last resort.
4. Are you breastfeeding and does your breastfeeding or lack of breastfeeding contribute to you depression? This is actually a great source of feelings of depression and inadequacy for me. DS refuses to latch on and it is utterly heartbreaking for me. I have plenty of supply so I know EPing will work out fine, but I am still mourning the loss of breastfeeding. I thought I had accepted that this might be the outcome the less and less he would take the breast but those feelings have come back with a vengeance. From a logical standpoint I get that he is being nourished and that is the most important thing. But emotionally I am not handling it well.
5. How is DH reacting? He is being very supportive. I explained to him that one of the things that exacerbates the symptoms is lack of sleep so he has been more helpful with taking DS some mornings to let me sleep in an hour or two. He had suspected I was having issues with depression but let me figure that out on my own. So I think he's had a lot more time to accept that was what I was going through than I have.
I haven't been officially diagnosed with PPD because I haven't been able to see a doctor yet (not for lack of trying.) but I am 100% sure I do.
1. What are you having the most problems with right now Everything. Every day is such a struggle. The first 6 weeks PP I cried every single day, resented DD, resented FI for getting to go to work, school, etc. I was miserable. I hated spending time with DD I never wanted to be around her, etc. That was when I started trying to get help. When it started taking a long time I knew I had to do something on my own. I already felt like I had missed out on the first 6 weeks of DD's life and I didn't want to miss anymore. I am doing better but it is really hard and completely exhausting.
2. How you are treating it? Going to therapy etc. Right now, I am just pretending that I am fine for DD and FI because they deserve better. And writing down my thoughts when I get really overwhelmed.
3. What meds are you on and do you think they are working None for now.
4. Are you breastfeeding and does your breastfeeding or lack of breastfeeding contribute to you depression I am not BFing. My decision to stop BFing, though I did have some guilt, definitely helped me.
5. How is DH reacting? I haven't talked to him about since 2 weeks PP when I first noticed something was wrong. He really doesn't understand PPD/Depression. Hopefully, once I see a doctor they or I can talk to him better and help him understand and help me.1, What are you having the most problems with right now
Currently not having many problems other than the occasional lapse where DS's fussing really gets under my skin. In general I am feeling good!
2. How you are treating it? Going to therapy etc.
Right now I am just treating with medication and exercise.
3. What meds are you on and do you think they are working
50mg Zoloft. I think it has done WONDERS for me. Sometimes I wonder if I should be on a higher dose but for now I think I am okay.
4. Are you breastfeeding and does your breastfeeding or lack of breastfeeding contribute to you depression
I am breastfeeding. I don't think it contributes to my depression right now, though at first I had a lot of resentment that I was tied to LO all the time. However, I have recently turned a corner where I am loving breastfeeding and how quick and convenient it is and I hope to go as long as possible.
5. How is DH reacting?
He is great about taking care of LO as soon as he gets home from work until we go to bed at night to give me a break from my all day and all night baby duty. We don't talk about the PPD much but that's okay with me.
1, What are you having the most problems with right now
I am feeling really lonely and isolated. Part of it is because I'm up half the night with LO, I don;t have many adult conversations, and I sometimes just don't know what to do with myself or LO when we're home. The other thing is I'm really feeling depressed about having some issues with a really bad flare up of phlebitis and it caused me to cancel a trip for work, it's really affecting my life style right now.
2. How you are treating it? Going to therapy etc.
I am taking anti depressants righ tnow (celexa) and I am in therapy...I haven't had time to go recently because I am so busy with work stuff.
3. What meds are you on and do you think they are working
I am on Celexa...I feel like it's finally doing something. I'm on the max dose and finally I am feeling a little better. Not anywhere where I was, but I feel good enough to get out of bed and out of PJs.
4. Are you breastfeeding and does your breastfeeding or lack of breastfeeding contribute to you depression
The lack of BF attributed to my PPD. But my therapist told me to stop calling it that I failed at breast feeding, or quit it, but rather that I discontinued.
5. How is DH reacting?
DH has really been wonderful through it all. I don't know how or why he puts up with me...
1, What are you having the most problems with right now.
LO is a really fussy/gassy baby. We do a LOT of screaming. All day.
2. How you are treating it? Going to therapy etc.
I'm currently taking Zoloft, and trying to communicate with SO about LOs needs.
3. What meds are you on and do you think they are working.
I'm on zoloft 50 mg and like PP I think it has worked wonders for me. When I first started taking it I had alot of anxiety, specifically when laying in bed at night. It also gave me some pretty gnarly headaches. The anxiety has completely faded and the headaches are sparse, if at all. Things seem alot clearer and I don't get so overwhelmed with everything.
4. Are you breastfeeding and does your breastfeeding or lack of breastfeeding contribute to you depression?
Still BFing. Also like PP I really struggled at first and it added to my anxiety, but we have also turned a corner and I love it. It's fast, easy and an incredible bonding experience with LO. I get satisfaction, oddly enough, when he is on full on tantrum and can calm immediatly just by nursing. SPEAKING PERSONALLY, not trying to start any discussion or arguments, but I would feel like a failure if I was not able to BF LO. It used to give me extreme anxiety when I first had him as he was in the NICU for 4 days and fed only formula. He was FF the first 2 weeks before we finally got the hang of BFing.
5. How is DH reacting?
I'm spitting mad at him right now so I don't feel like I can give an honest or partial answer to this.
However, he did make fun of me for going on Zoloft and said something to the effect of "can't you take care of your own kid?" Yeah, he went there.
1, What are you having the most problems with right now.
I've started back to work, so the work stress is challenging and my work days feel like a non-stop rush to wake, pump, get gets ready, go to work, come home, fix meals, and get ready for the next day.
2. How you are treating it? Going to therapy etc.
I'm taking Zoloft 50 mg and it is a lifesaver! It has helped so much, I almost feel like my old self
3. What meds are you on and do you think they are working
4. Are you breastfeeding and does your breastfeeding or lack of breastfeeding contribute to you depression
Still nursing. I have anxiety about my supply but it is actually going well. I enjoy the time nursing DS and he is sleeping better at night which makes things easier.
5. How is DH reacting?
My DH has been amazing. This is my second time with PPD and the first time he was a total mess - didn't know how to react, how to help, etc. This time around he was prepared for it and was really ready to step up in case I had PPD again. The biggest thing is that he stays up with the baby so I can go to bed at 8 and get 4-5 hours of uninterrupted sleep. .