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May 2012 Moms
Lost my baby... Blessings May 2012 Moms :(
It started on Monday with light brown spotting. Went to the ER and had an ultra-sound and blood work. Baby's heart beat was fine & my hormone levels were normal. They did a pelvic exam and my cervix was closed.
Still brown spotting on Tuesday and I returned to work. Wednesday it turned pinkish red and was a bit shiny like it had been mixed with something else. Went back to the ER. They assumed I had an infection and did. A UTI (which is common during pregnancy but doesn't lead to miscarriage). They didn't do an ultrasound because I had just had a "good" one on Monday and they didn't do a pelvic exam. Put me on bed rest until Monday which was when I had an appointment to see my OB.
Woke up Thursday to take my husband to the airport (at this point I'm officially 18 weeks/6 days). Got back home and had to have a bowel movement. No straining or anything. I felt something burst and a gush of fluid went into the toilet. I knew my water had broken.
Rushed to the ER. There was lots & lots of bleeding. I've never seen that much bleeding in all of my life. They did an ultrasound. Most of my amniotic fluid had leaked out & they confirmed my water had broken. Did a pelvic exam & thought perhaps it would seal shut. Later they found that the hole was too big. My cervix was dilated two centimeters. I had to be induced. Had to go through labor and my 6.8 oz baby came out at 5:25 p.m. on 12/10/11. All I could think about was my excitement and how I thought after 12 weeks I had made it to the "safe zone."
So
many mixed feelings. So confused. Please keep my husband & I in
your prayers. This is the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with and
most of all I miss my baby 
I'm going to miss this group! You ladies were so supportive. I'm praying that you all have healthy babies!
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Re: Lost my baby... Blessings May 2012 Moms :(
Adopting my little one soon! EDD 5/08/12
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I am so saddened to hear this and I am so sorry for your loss. I can only imagine the pain you must be feeling, I hope that you are surrounded by love ,and will send T&P to you for comfort. big hugs to you.
I'm so sorry. I'll be praying for you.
I am so, so sorry. I wish I had comforting words to help you through this, but I don't think there are any. You and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers.
Please take care of yourself.
Words cannot express how devastated I feel for you; my heart just breaks. I am sending lots of T&P to you and your husband and wishing you peace, comfort, and healing in whatever form that might take for you.
When and if you're ready, I found the MC/PL and TTCAL boards to be immense sources of support after my loss.
((big hugs))
BFP #1: 6/10/11 Natural m/c 6/20/11
BFP #2: 8/30/11 Vanishing Twin diagnosed at 8 weeks, DS born 5/6/12
BFP #3: 5/24/14 stick, baby, stick! Beta 1 (16dpo): 645, Beta 2 (18dpo): 1652
T & P's for you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss.
DS #1 born 05/25/2012
BFP#2: 06/12/2013 ---- loss
DS #2 born 4/08/2014
BPF#4: 2/1/2016 --- 2/23/2016 suspected molar pregnancy--- 3/15/2016 D&E - diagnosis MM
BFP#5 - 9/22/2016
* formally bornmommy
I am so, so sorry for your loss. Please know you and your baby will be in my thoughts. You will go through a number of feelings and emotions as you grieve your child - none of them are wrong. This will be the hardest thing you live through, but you can live through it. Seek support and surround yourself with people who love you.
There are some good resources, should you need them, here on the Loss board, at www.glowinthewoods.com (a site for babylost parents where you are welcomed with open arms - we all have been there) and www.grieveoutloud.org (a site that has numerous resources for you and your husband, and a pen-pal program to put you in touch with others who have experienced losses like yours).
Gabriel Ross - August 24, 2009 * Vivienne Rose - May 1, 2012
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My thoughts are with you.
4/25/12 ~ Our angel, Persephone James, is here!