It started on Monday with light brown spotting. Went to the ER and had an ultra-sound and blood work. Baby's heart beat was fine & my hormone levels were normal. They did a pelvic exam and my cervix was closed.
Still brown spotting on Tuesday and I returned to work. Wednesday it turned pinkish red and was a bit shiny like it had been mixed with something else. Went back to the ER. They assumed I had an infection and did. A UTI (which is common during pregnancy but doesn't lead to miscarriage). They didn't do an ultrasound because I had just had a "good" one on Monday and they didn't do a pelvic exam. Put me on bed rest until Monday which was when I had an appointment to see my OB.
Woke up Thursday to take my husband to the airport (at this point I'm officially 18 weeks/6 days). Got back home and had to have a bowel movement. No straining or anything. I felt something burst and a gush of fluid went into the toilet. I knew my water had broken.
Rushed to the ER. There was lots & lots of bleeding. I've never seen that much bleeding in all of my life. They did an ultrasound. Most of my amniotic fluid had leaked out & they confirmed my water had broken. Did a pelvic exam & thought perhaps it would seal shut. Later they found that the hole was too big. My cervix was dilated two centimeters. I had to be induced. Had to go through labor and my 6.8 oz baby came out at 5:25 p.m. on 12/10/11. All I could think about was my excitement and how I thought after 12 weeks I had made it to the "safe zone."
So many mixed feelings. So confused. Please keep my husband & I in your prayers. This is the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with and most of all I miss my baby ![]()
Re: I lost my baby at 18 Weeks/6 Days
(TICKER WARNING)
My heart breaks for you and I pray you and your husband during this horrible time.
BFP#1 8/24/11, EDD 5/5/12, D&C 10/24/11 due to missed m/c
BFP #2 2/1/12, EDD 10/11/12. Baby arrived 10/9/12
BFP #3 5/6/14, EDD 1/14/15
virtually wrapping you up in love and prayers.
i am so sorry, and i know those words become dilluted after awhile. please be gentle with yourself and give yourself all the time you need to weep, remember, and slowly weed through the muddy process of healing.
peace and love,
kelly
Myomectomy 9/2009
TTC#1 10/2009 - All BFNs
HSG 12/2010 - All Clear; More BFNs
11/5/2011 - BFP!
12/6/2011 @ 9w3d No HB/Growth
Natural M/C 12/10/11 (or so I thought)
12/15/2011 D&C
Hi. I'm so sorry for your loss!!! I fully understand and can relate to your mixed feelings and feelings of confusion. I too just lost my baby Fri Dec 9, at 18 weeks/3days. I felt fine. Just couldn't find a heartbeat at home so Dr said to go to ER where they tried for an hr to find something before having an ultrasound. Ultrasound then confirmed baby had died. So I was admitted and induced at 9pm Thurs. My baby boy was born weighing in at 3.6 oz and perfectly formed. Beautiful. So why does this happen??? This isn't even my first m/c but by far the farthest along I've made it and I too was thinking I had made it into the "Safe Zone" and just told the family even. The Dr is running so many tests in hopes of finding an answer for this loss.
How are you finding your strength to move forward? It's so hard...
I hope you find answers and peace with your loss. I will pray for you and your husband.
TTC Since 10/08 4 IUIs=BFNx4
IVF#1=BFP!! Twins!!
Bradley and Billy born and lost on 2/2/11 at 19w2d due to pPROM/PTL. I miss you, little angels.
IVF#2=BFN
IVF#3=c/p IVF#4=Empty Follicle Syndrome; 1 mature, fertilized, & made it to blast. 5dt of "the lone ranger" on 9/6. Please stick, little one!