TTC After a Loss 6 Months+

Things aren't looking good

I wasn't going to post anything, but I really need your support and I know that you ladies understand.  I got a BFP today, I am 12 dpo.  I actually got a + on a FRER, but then a "not pregnant" on a clear clue easy digital.  I called my RE and they had me come in this afternoon.  I happened off sick today because I had a fever, chills and was achy yesterday. 

Anyway, my beta came back at only 7.8 

7.8 - I can't even believe it was that low.  I don't even know how it showed up on the HPT at all.  My boobs were very, very sore and puffy last night and that made me think I *might* be pregnant.  Today, they are not sore at all.  So this looks like it may very well be loss # 5, my 4th c/p.  I don't even know what to think right now.  I go back in Thursday morning for a repeat beta.   

I just can't imagine that all of my eggs are bad.  My FSH wasn't that high last it was checked - it's been 10 and it's been 8, my AMH is low, but not completely gone yet.  I just don't understand.  Beyond the losses I also have my failed 1st IVF (only 1 embie made it to transfer) and then from IVF # 2 - 4 embies that didn't make it (I had 5 - 3 were implanted, only 1 stuck and I had the c/p and the other two didn't make it to freeze). 

So when you add that all together that's 9 embryos that haven't made it so far.  Plus, it looks like this one too.  I know, there are people that start out with crazy low betas and they go up.  And I guess everyone's beta starts out low at some point, there is always a beginning.  I know it could happen, but really what are the chances?  Not great. 

I'm just not sure where to go from here or what to do.  I just can't stand this anymore and I am starting to feel like it may really never, ever happen for DH and I.   Crying     

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  • I am so sorry you're going through this right now.  I don't want to be the 'false hope girl', but I have seen women with extremely low betas on 3T and pGal who've had successful pregnancies- I have my Fx for you that you belong to that group.

    Big ::HUGS:: and keep us posted- no matter what the news is.  That's what we're here for.


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  • I am so sorry. I hope they next time you get your betas they are really high and more than double. You never know but I know it is hard to be positive after going through so much. I really am praying you have good news and finally a baby to take home

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    Baby #5: 3/13/12 BFP! EDD 11/25/12 ANOTHER m/c :(

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    Baby #7: 3/15/13- BFP! EDD 11/27/13, another CP
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  • I am so sorry for all you've gone through.  FX for doubling betas and a sticky baby!

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  • Sending lots of hugs your way.

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  • Praying for you!!!! Keep us posted.  Lots of love!!!  ((HUGS))
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  • I am so sorry you are going through this. I hope that your beta doubles or triples and everything turns out ok.
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  • O love I am so sorry you are going through this.  I'm keeping everything crossed for you that it's just early and your betas continue to increase and LO is just fine in there.  I know how hard it is through out this process to stay hopeful but we are here to help any way we can.  ((HUGE HUGS)) sweetie.

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  • ((HUGE HUGS)) FX that you just caught it really early, and your numbers double. Please keep us updated.  We are here for you!
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  • Oh hun, I'm so sorry. Super huge ((HUGS)).

    Keep us posted.

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  • I'm so sorry that you're going through this. I'll be sending T&Ps that you just have a low first beta and they will continue to rise. Sending you huge ((hugs)) and please keep us posted.
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  • Oh hun, I am so sorry you are going through this.  I am going to puke some rainbows on you.  It isn't "over" yet, keep your chin up.  I know it is hard as fvck to stay positive, but it really could all turn out awesome.  Right now you are pregnant.  I hope it doesn't turn into another loss.  I have everything crossed for you that your betas will increase.  Sending you tons of love!
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  • ((hugs))

     Sending you lots of love and positive vibes for a sticky baby!

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  • Oh hun! I'm sending you so much love right now! I really really hope that your numbers keep going up! Please keep us updated. {{{hugs}}}


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  • I'm so sorry. I really hope its not another c/p. FWIW with my last pregnancy I got a postive on a FRER at 11dpo. My betas at 12dpo were also only a 7! I was scared to death too. I think I got a positive digi at 13 dpo (but maybe 14). My betas were 12dpo:7, 14dpo: 32 and 18dpo:203. So they were still doubling fine. My pregnancy ended in an ectopic but I'm just hoping to provide a bit of hope that just because FRER picked up a low number does NOT mean that you are definitely having a loss. There are a few women on PgAL who have also had really low numbers and have gone on to have healthy pregnancies.

    (((Hugs))))


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  • I'm crossing everything for you and hoping it's just a low starting beta. Doubling dust coming your way definitely! Keep us posted and I'm so sorry you are going through such a stressful time. GL!
  • I'm so sorry honey, I'm keeping you in my thoughts for a sticky sticky bean.
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  • I'm so sorry-and sending you tons of hugs right now.  Your beta rises like its supposed to!

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  • ((hugs)) very sorry. I really hope that you have a turn around.

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  • Oh honey I hope it is just really early...I know at least one of the girls on PAL had a first beta of I think 9 ...I am praying so hard for you {{{HUGS}}}
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  • I'm so sorry hon. I know you don't have much hope now but I will for you ((hugs)) Gummybear had a suuper low beta and now has her healthy LO, so it can happen!
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  • Thanks girls.  I appreciate all of your kind words and thoughts.  Had my beta this morning - just waiting for the call now.  I hope it's good news, but I am afraid to even consider it.
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