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I was so hopeful this cycle...

... and then I did something stupid.. tested this morning (12dpiui) and it was STARK WHITE! BFN! Sad I am cursing myself. Why did I do this to myself?! Why didn't I just wait to see if either AF showed or I made it to beta, like I have every other cycle?!

I am so upset, I was so incredibly hopeful for this cycle.

Do I have any hope left? Could I have possibly tested too early?! Ugh! I hate this and I HATE IF!

TTC #1 since 6/2010
8 IUIs - 3 Cancelled cycles - 1 Ectopic Pregnancy with Left tube removal = A broken heart
IVF #1 : Fall 2012
15R - 13M - 13F w/ICSI - Transferred 2 day 5 blasts = BFP!!!
8 Frosties!
Beta #1: 135, Beta #2: 312, Beta #3: 996
10/21: Saw one beautiful flickering heartbeat! EDD: 6/12/13
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  • This was me last cycle :(  I'm sorry about the BFN.  I would test again tomorrow or the next day if AF hasn't shown.  GL!
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    TTC since 2008
    Dh:34, no issues.  Me:31, Endo, slightly hypothyroid, deformed ovary, paracentric inversion.
    4 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone +TI cycles= all BFN
    Lap in 2012 to remove large unresolving cyst discovered endo and double lobed ovary.
     6 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone IUI cycles= All BFN,
    1st IVF w/ICSI- June '13 Antagonist: Gonal-F, Menopur, Ganirelix, HcG, Estradiol, Crinone= 7 retrieved, 4 mature, 1 unfertilized, 2 abnormally fertilized, 1 normally fertilized.  2DT of only embryo and our miracle BFP.
    Our beloved baby boy was born sleeping Oct. 13, 2013 due to pROM/IC/Uterine infection.
    2nd IVF w/ICSI- Feb. '14 EPP/lupron/antagonist: Estrace, lupron, HGH, Gonal-F, Menopur, HcG, PIO, lovenox, doxy/dex.=21 retrieved, 16 mature, 15 fertilized!!  5dt of 1 blast/ 6 frozen. BFP!  Beta 1 9dp5dt:83.9  Beta 2: 11dp5dt: 145.2  Beta 3  14dp5dt: 497  Please be our sticky rainbow baby!

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  • I'm sorry - I was just wondering how you were doing.  There is always a possibility until AF shows - but I've never had a negative turn positive later. 

    Pee sticks are evil

    ((hugs))

     TTC #1 since 6/09
    Dx: PCOS and MFI
    3 IUIs, 4 IVFs = BFFN
      3rd RE: IVF #5/FET = BFP
    14dp5dt=1170 16dp5dt=2573

    1st u/s=
    TWINS!
    It's a Boy and a Girl!

    Born at 34w3d! 
     

  • I'm sorry!  I do the same thing to myself every time, so I completely empathize.  :-( 
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    Me = lean PCOS;DH = poor morphology (3%)
    3 IUI/TI cycles = BFN
    IVF #1 with ICSI: antagonist protocol = BFFN
    IVF #2 with ICSI : Lupron downregulation = BFFN...FML
    IVF #3 with ICSI and AH (Antagonist) = IT'S A BOY!!!!

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  • So sorry about your BFN! That is so hard to be crushed but have enough hope to keep you wondering. I POAS tomorrow...ugh I hate IF too!
    TTC #1 with PCOS and mild MFI
    10-21-11 Clomid & Ovidrel IUI #1= BFN
    11-18-11 Clomid & Ovidrel IUI #2= ?
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  • Sorry to hear this hun. 12dpiui could be too early. I hate the stark white :(
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    Due with #2 on 6/4/14

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    a hope and a future"-Jeremiah 29:11
  • I'm sorry...12dpiui could be too early though! Wait it out and don't lose hope yet! Goodluck!
    TTC since April 2010

    Dx with LPD and low progesterone

    SA (Perfect) HSG (All clear)

    Sept 2010 - Nov 2010: Femara + Prometrium+ TI= BFN

    Feb 2011 - June 2011: Femara + Follistim + HCG + Prometrium + TI = BFN

    July 2011: Femara + Follistim + HCG + Prometrium + IUI #1= BFP!! EDD 4/13/12 <3

    Sept 2011: MMC @ 8 weeks 1 day

    Jan-Feb 2012: Femara + Follistim + HCG + Prometrium + IUI #2 & #3= BFN

    June 16, 2012 : Starting BCP for IVF #1

    July 2012: 7 Retrieved, 6 Mature, 4 Fertilized

    August 2012: 5dt of 1 early blast and 1 early morula = BFP!! Beta #1 10 Beta #2 26 Beta# 3 142 Beta #4 400 Beta #5 940 Ectopic pregnancy (2 methotrexate injections)

    PAIF/SAIF Welcome!

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  • That's exactly my situation this cycle. I only have one more cycle to try before DH deploys. We would be moving on to Follistim, which makes me a little anxious. We are really kind of counting on this one for a BFP. I woke up to a slight temp drop and tested anyway, thinking I could handle seeing a negative. Now, I'm sitting in my pajamas on the couch pouting and trying not to cry.

    I'm sorry you're going through this too. It's an awful emotional let down that I wouldn't wish on anyone. 

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    PCOS--TTC since 11/2010:   
    5 cycles of Clomid: all BFN, 1 cycle of Follistim:CP
    1 year break thanks to deployment.
    1 cycle Follistim: BFN, Lap to remove peritubal cyst May 2013
    2 cycles Follistim + trigger: BFN, Gonal F +IUI April 2014: BFP!!!!!! 

    Boy/Girl Twins due Jan 5, 2015!!! 


  • I am so sorry!! IF blows!!
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    TTC Since Oct 2009.


    12/10 DX-Annovulation.


    SA 2/11 - all is good.


    HSG 4/11 - right tube 100% blocked.


    LAP 5/16/11 to repair twisted tube.


    clomid 50mg - no response

    Femara 2.5mg - no response

    IUI#1/2 Oct/Nov '11 Femara + Ovidrel = BFN's

    IVF #1 ....BFN

    FET 3/21 = BFP!! 1st Beta 4/2...929! ITS TWINS!!
  • Ugh - I'm sorry!  This was me last week.  There may still be hope - you never know.  GL!  And I agree IF SUCKS!!
    TTC since May 2010

    2/2011 - Initial consultation with RE

    4/2011 - DX: IF related to anovulation + MFI

    8/2011-11/2011 3 failed IUIs

    IVF#1 Jan/Feb 2012-Long Lupron/6ER/6M/3F/0 to transfer

    Switched to new RE

    IVF#2 April 2012-First time ever BFP!

    confirmed blighted ovum d/t tetraploidy @ 7w2d; D&C @ 9w (6/11/12)

    IVF #3 October 2012 ER 10/28 9R/8M/3F ET 10/31 2 8 cell Embies
    BFP! Beta#1(12dp3dt)=158 Beta#2(14dp3dt)=265 Beta#3(19dp3dt)=1905
    **P/SAIF WELCOME**



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  • I'm sorry! It might be too early yet though! I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you!
    Me: 30, Mr. Daisies: 32

    Unexplained IF - TTC since 09/2009
    IUIs 1-5 all BFN

    Currently on a forced break due to 7 effing cysts

    **PAIF/SAIF WELCOME**



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  • I did the same & got the same results =(


    04/07/11- PCOS Diagnosis w/GYN. Put on Metformin (1500 mgs)
    04/25/11- 1st consultation with RE (Confirmed PCOS & Anovulation)
    05/09/11-HSG-All clear! 05/13/11-SA-Normal. Found out on 2/14/12, low Morph (1%).
    06/17/11-10 days of Clomid (100, 150) No response.
    07/10/11-03/20/12- 5 Injectable (Follistim) IUI cycles; 4 BFN, 1 C/P. (stims ranged from 11 days to 25 days)
    05/28/12-Diagnosed with Hypothyroidism. 75 mcg Synthroid.

    IVF with ICSI in June/July 2013 = BFP!. Beta # 1 = 123. Beta # 2 = 252. Due March 25th. Baby boy arrived March 27, 2013!

    FET #1 - 10/4/14 = BFP!! Beta #1 = 179. Beta # 2 = 499. Due June 22nd.

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  • This has been me every IUI cycle. It's just not fair! It's possible it's too early, but more than likely, the test is accurate. I'm so sorry. ((hugs))
    TTC since 04/2010
    Ovarian cancer survivor
    DH= low motility
    2/9/11 lap & hysteroscopy- uterine polyp & scar tissue removed
    3/25/11 IUI#1= BFP m/c; D&C at 7w3d (Trisomy 16)
    IUIs #2, #3, #4 and #5= BFNs
    Onto IVF #1= BFN
    FET 4/6/12= 2 extended blasts transferred, with one hatching
    Beta 1= 607; Beta 2= 1,564; Beta 3= 24,439; Beta 4= over 64,000
    First u/s on 5/10= TWINS! Heartbeats 158 and 160!
    It's a boy and a girl!
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  • I do the same thing every month. Im new to this site as a blogger. I get on here daily, and have been for almost a year. My DH and I have been TTC for 14 months now, with no luck at all. I wish you the best of luck for your BFP Smile
  • I am sorry. I hope it is just too early and when you test again it will be different! Sending good thoughts your way.
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    Married 09/15/2007. TTC since 07/2010.
    Me: 27 - Dx is PCOS w/IR- on 500mg Met, HSG 05/2011 & Lap 12/2011- all clear
    DH: 31 - Dx is low motility
    08/2011 - 10/2011 - varying dosages of Clomid, HCG Triggers & TI / IUI#'s 1 & 2 = BFN
    11/2011 Femara 5mg + HCG Trigger + IUI#3 = BFN
    12/2011 Break cycle for Lap, found I ovulated on my own during Lap procedure = BFN

    01/2012 Break cycle before starting Gonal-F, HCG Trigger & IUI#4 =
    Surprise ovulation gives us our BFP on Valentine's Day!
    Beta #1: 96, Beta #2: 275, Beta #3: 767, 1st u/s - 3/7: 1 baby w/HR of 137bpm, 2nd u/s - 3/22: Great! HR of 179bpm, graduated from RE, 1st OB appt 3/26 - all good. 3rd u/s - 4/2 - All is great! Measuring a day ahead. Monthly OB appts for the next few months. Early elective A/S on 5/10 - found out baby is a girl!! We are so thrilled!!
    *S/PAIF Welcome*
  • Ugh :(  I hope it was just too early. So sorry
  • This is completely me..except I am 11dpiui..and I tested this am..I'm trying to tell myself to wait till either AF or Beta on Monday morning..we will see. My brain has been playing tricks on me all week about "pg symtoms" that I know aren't there :( Good luck!
    TTC Journey
    TTC Since June 2009

    New RE 6/29/11..HSG = Normal
    DX PCOS & Anovulatory & MFI- Low Motility >20%
    July 2011 Femara 5 mg = No O
    August 2011 6 week break to start Metformin :(

    Oct 2011 Femara 7.5 mg + IUI#1 = Cancled due to 0% Motility
    11/11/11 DH w/new URO put on 50 mg Clomid

    IUI 1-4 Femara 7.5 mg = BFN
    March 2012 Gonal F + Ovidrel + IUI #5 = BFFN
    Break due to cysts :-(
    April 2012 Gonal F + Ovidrel + IUI#6 = BFFN
    May 2012 Gonal F + Ovidrel + IUI #7 = Canx due to 0% Motility
    IVF #1 August 2012.. 7R/6M/6F! Transfered 2 6 cell = BFFN
    IVF #2 October 2012?

    ?S/PAIFW?


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