**BunnyJenny**

I just wanted to answer your question at the end of the last post... has anyone else thought about having another baby so quickly and is that normal?  I can't speak for anyone else...but it was something I thought about right away, and I was terrified I wouldn't be able to because I'd be too scared.  When they put Peyton on my chest after he was born I knew I would be able to because my fear couldn't be greater than the love I felt for him, and I knew I would love his brother or sister just as much.  I did feel guilty for thinking of things like that..until I came on this board and realized that it seems to be pretty normal, and more importantly that whatever we feel is our normal and we shouldn't question it.  I love my son very much, and giving him a brother or sister will not be a sign that I've forgotten him or moved on.  I just hope with all my heart that we are able to have that rainbow baby and bring it home safely.