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Scared to take pg test, think I'm going crazy

RealMommaRealMomma
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So, I might be mental.I am a couple days "late" and usually so regular you could set a watch by my cycle.

 We couldn't do the IUI this month beacuse I was ovulating on the side with my blocked fallopian tube. I did have 4 beautiful follies on that side, so as my doctor suggested we tried naturally when myOPK was smiling.

Stll with his sperm and my blocked tube I know how LOW the chances of being pregnant are. My head knows I'n not pregnant. My heart wants to hold on to hope. I'm paralized with the fear of losing that hope in my heart. Even though my brain keeps saying just take a test, relieve the tension. My heart says no, once I take the test I'll be sad again. I don't want to know I'n not pregnant.

I'm even SO scared to JINX it I wont talk about it out loud. I figured this was annonymous and safe. GOSH! I sound nutso!

If AF hasn't arrived by tomorrow, I'm testing... Right?

Married June 2007
IUD Removed Dec 2009
TTC April 2010
HX: IF workup in June '11
Me: 29, Left Tube Blocked
DH: 28, Low Sperm Count/Morph
Trying for IUI Aug, Sept, Oct '11 - no go O'ing on left
Nov - 50mg clomid, 4 follies, wrong side - BFN
Dec - 100mg Clomid - IUI#1 - BFN
Jan '12 Break Cycle and RE Consult
19Jan2012 - CD#1
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Re: Scared to take pg test, think I'm going crazy

  • matthewsbride05matthewsbride05 member
    I would have tested yesterday.  Best wishes to you!
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  • katib77katib77 member

    This might sound a little crazy, but did you fly or drive a long way? Those have caused my cycle to be delayed for no other known reason.  I even reminded myself that since we were driving 700 miles to my parents that it might delay AF because I got my hopes up so high from another cycle when I was 4 days late but we'd been here. 

    I hope for you it's the real deal, but in case it's not...this can be an explaination for the future.


    TTC since July 2009. Dx MFI & LPD. 
    IUI#1&2&3 (2011 & 2012) BFN
    IUI#4 1/23/13 on 75iu x9 Follistim = BFP then chem preg m/c (Feb 2013)
    IUI#5 BFN (April 2013)
    IVF w/ICSI Oct. 2, 2012 - 13R, 11M, 7F, 1 frozen blast 4BB grade - - - FET Nov 15, 2013
    BFP! Beta 1:104 @ 10dp6dt, Beta 2:178 @ 12dp6dt,  beta 3:366 @ 14dp6dt
    Saw heartbeat twice before missed M/C at 8w3d on 12/27/13, missing my little angel boy
    JUNE 2014 IVF#2;  5R, 2M, 1F Three day transfer 6/7.  Beta 6/18 - BFN
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  • RealMommaRealMomma

    No, I haven't driven anywhere. I know I should test, but waiting a day or two wont hurt. And I am sick of being sad. A BFN will just bring that back. For now, I'll be blissfully ingnorant.

    I'll let everyone know what the test says tomorrow if AF doesn't show up.

    Married June 2007
    IUD Removed Dec 2009
    TTC April 2010
    HX: IF workup in June '11
    Me: 29, Left Tube Blocked
    DH: 28, Low Sperm Count/Morph
    Trying for IUI Aug, Sept, Oct '11 - no go O'ing on left
    Nov - 50mg clomid, 4 follies, wrong side - BFN
    Dec - 100mg Clomid - IUI#1 - BFN
    Jan '12 Break Cycle and RE Consult
    19Jan2012 - CD#1
    Trying to Conceive Ticker
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