Intro and advice about taking a break (long)

Mdolente27 · November 2011

I am new to posting on here but have been a spy for about a year but I feel I need to talk to people that understand before I have a break down My DH and I have been trying for two years and I thought I am young and I read every where that it can take a normal women up to a year to conceive so i didn't stress about it. Eventually I broke down because my cycle was off so I went to the doctor and my progesterone level was a zero on day twenty one. My doctor prescribed clomid 50mg and told me it should work. Well here I am six cycle and two doctors later and nothing, the highest my levels went are 6.4. They have done all the tests and just say it is unexplained my cycle is no regular but my numbers are not going up. I was fine on clomid till they bumped me to 100mg and it makes me feel horrible and I am not a nice person on it. My doctor wanted me to come in this week and talk about more options and moving forward and i decided I can't till the first of the year. I don't know why but this process has turned me into a negative person. It doesn't help everyone I went to school with is pregnant and three girls I work with. No one know we are TTC except my mom so every time I see my family I get asked when are you guys going to have kids so I am not looking forward to the holiday season.

Since I have decided to take a break I think about it more than I did before. Last night I couldn't sleep because I kept on thinking maybe I should try maybe this is the month but I don't want to feel bad throughout the holidays. I don't know how to move forward and enjoy the holidays and not think about it but I know I need a break any advice?

tst1998 · November 2011

The best decision I made was going to therapy. I had no idea how to deal with this anymore, with the uncertainty, with continuing to live my life without letting IF take over. I found someone who actually specializes in IF, and it has been great. Especially if you don't have anyone else to talk to about it, having just one hour a week to vent about all things IF related, can be very helpful. And she has really helped me to put things in perspective.

If you are interested, here's how I found my therapist:

Psychology Today provider search: https://therapists.psychologytoday.com/rms/prof_search.php. Enter your city or zip code. On the left there is a section for "Issues." Click on "more" and you can choose infertility.

Good luck! It's a hard road, especially if no one else knows what you are going through.

Mdolente27 · November 2011

Thank you very much I am actually going to try that. I hope it helps because i think i need to be stronger to move forward to other treatments. Thank you again

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