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Got my IVF schedule today

crystalknppcrystalknpp member
in TTC After a Loss 6 Months+

I went in for repeat screening b/w because my last set was done almost a year ago already.  DH goes in for his tomorrow.  Then the nurse gave me a print out of my meds schedule.  I take my last bc pill on 11/28 and if all goes according to plan my retrieval will be December 12th and the pg test b/w will be 2 weeks from the retrieval date which just happens to be the day after Christmas.  I'm excited to have a definite plan but I'm also scared to death.  I know how draining this process is both emotionally and physically and I'm terrified of taking it all on for a second time and once again it not working. 

I naively thought IVF was almost a guarantee for us and I don't know why.  The last time I just let myself believe this was it for us and we would get our take home baby.  Now that I know from experience that it may not work it's just scary.  I'm trying to just take it one day at a time and be as hopeful as I can but if this fails again I'm  not sure how exactly I'm going to handle a 5th loss.

 Sorry if I sound like a complete pessimistic debbie downer.  It's just all kind of hitting me today.

"Sometimes the smallest things take up the most room in your heart"

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I'm a mom to my 4 angel babies who were taken from us much to soon!
BFP#1 on 09/29/09 and EP discovered/Left Tube lost on 10/19/09 EDD 06/12/10
BFP# 2 on 03/21/2010 EDD 11/30/10 Natural M/C on 3/27/10
BFP# 3 on 02/14/2011 EDD 10/28/11 Missed M/C discovered 4/19/11 and D&C 4/21/11 On 5/6/11 we found out our Oct Angel was a beautiful little girl <3
IVF#1=BFP#4 on 8/31/11 EDD 5/12/12 EP discovered and MTX shot given 9/14/ & 9/21 M/C on 10/9/11
IVF#2 and Stims started 12/2 ER 12/16 ET 12/21 transferred two beautiful blastocysts. Please stick LO's! BFP 12/26
Benjamin Matthew Our Little Miracle Born 9/5/2012!
BFP 1/2/14 EDD 9/11/14

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  • Allie-JoAllie-Jo member
    Good luck hun!  I really hope this is it, at least the ball is rolling.  And it's ok that you are negative nancy today, it happens.  Being optimistic is tiring, and eventually not possible 24/7 after a while.
    TTC since June 2009 DX: PCOS October 2010
    6 medicated cycles, 2 pregnancies, 1 ectopic April 2011, Early Miscarriage August 2011
    7 more cycles, 1 IUI, No success after last pregnancy
    7/1/2012 No more fertility coverage
    8/17/2012 started pursuing domestic infant adoption!
    11/26/2012 HOME STUDY APPROVED!!!
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  • buckeyebaby814buckeyebaby814 member
    Best of luck to you!  I hope this cycle gets you your take home baby!

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  • CashewsMommyCashewsMommy member
    Oh hun!!! I'm wishing you the best of luck!! A Christmas miracle! 


    BFP#1 {Cashew} - 9.19.09 EDD 5.26.10
    The day you first lay in my arms, you made my life complete.
    Aurora Rose born sleeping at 35w on 4-21-10
     BFP#2 {Almond} - 2.1.11 EDD 10.12.11 C/P 2.11.11

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  • 1220winterbride1220winterbride member
    Good luck! I have my fingers crossed.

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  • MandaS08MandaS08 member
    Good luck! I REALLY REALLY REALLY hope that this is it for you and I'll be praying!  I'll be starting IVF in January and I'm totally freaked out as well!

    TTC since 5/2010
    DX with Diminished Ovarian Reserve - AMH of 1.1 - 7/2011; AMH of .42 8/2012    BFP 9/1/10-M/C confirmed 9/8/10-Methotrexate 10/6/10
    IUI #1 (w/clomid)-9/5/11-BFN ; IUI #2 (w/clomid)-10/5/11 - BFP - 11/1/12-No sac seen; 11/2/11 and 11/9/11-Methotrexate 
    IVF #1- ER 2/2; ET 2/5;-Two 8 cell embryos transfered = BFFN
    Surprise BFP - 5/7/12
    U/S on 6/8/12 - H/B at 128 BPM; U/S on 6/14/12 @ 9wks-No H/B-D&C on 6/17/12
    IVF 2.0- ER 10/17; ET 10/20-One 12 cell, one 10 cell and one 8 cell embryo transfered
    BFP!   11/16/12 U/S- Two nuggets with perfect heartbeats! EDD 7/10/13

     

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  • CaroleeCarolee member
    Good luck to you!  I have everything crossed that this will be your cycle!
    Mom to Eliott Alexander, born sleeping at 37 weeks on 8/13/10. Most of us only dream of angels - I held one in my arms.
    BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
    BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
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    BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12
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  • butterfly843butterfly843
    Good luck!

    Jenn

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    IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN

    Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10

    BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11

    Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11

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  • lavrillavril member
    Good luck!!  FX this is your cycle! 

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  • cutebride73cutebride73 member
    Best of luck sweetie.  I so, so hope that this is it for you!!  I know sometimes it's hard to be positive, but I know that being negative isn't going to make me feel any less hurt if things don't work out.  KWIM?   Sometimes, I try to trick myself into thinking I can be detached, but it never works for me, I am always upset anyway.  So you might as well try to think positive thoughts that this will work.  It will certainly make you feel better right now.  I HOPE this is it for you!! 
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  • crystalknppcrystalknpp member
    imagePetraStonegirl:

    You aren't coming off as a pessimistic debbie downer, only as a realist, and that's admirable to me. So, lots of love and (((hugs))) and I'll keep my FX for you!

    Thanks hun.  I try so hard to be hopeful but some days are harder then others.  Unfortunately the carefree naiveness of pregnancy is gone for all of us and we know how possible it is for things to not work out they way they should!

    "Sometimes the smallest things take up the most room in your heart"

    Our TTC Journey

    BabyFetus Ticker

    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker

    I'm a mom to my 4 angel babies who were taken from us much to soon!
    BFP#1 on 09/29/09 and EP discovered/Left Tube lost on 10/19/09 EDD 06/12/10
    BFP# 2 on 03/21/2010 EDD 11/30/10 Natural M/C on 3/27/10
    BFP# 3 on 02/14/2011 EDD 10/28/11 Missed M/C discovered 4/19/11 and D&C 4/21/11 On 5/6/11 we found out our Oct Angel was a beautiful little girl <3
    IVF#1=BFP#4 on 8/31/11 EDD 5/12/12 EP discovered and MTX shot given 9/14/ & 9/21 M/C on 10/9/11
    IVF#2 and Stims started 12/2 ER 12/16 ET 12/21 transferred two beautiful blastocysts. Please stick LO's! BFP 12/26
    Benjamin Matthew Our Little Miracle Born 9/5/2012!
    BFP 1/2/14 EDD 9/11/14

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  • crystalknppcrystalknpp member

    imagecutebride73:
    Best of luck sweetie.  I so, so hope that this is it for you!!  I know sometimes it's hard to be positive, but I know that being negative isn't going to make me feel any less hurt if things don't work out.  KWIM?   Sometimes, I try to trick myself into thinking I can be detached, but it never works for me, I am always upset anyway.  So you might as well try to think positive thoughts that this will work.  It will certainly make you feel better right now.  I HOPE this is it for you!! 

    Thanks love.  I know that all I can do is try and stay positive and hopeful because thats all we have to hold on to.  Some days are just tougher then other days.  When do you find out the results of your most recent cycle?  I have EVERYTHING crossed for you girly!!

    "Sometimes the smallest things take up the most room in your heart"

    Our TTC Journey

    BabyFetus Ticker

    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker

    I'm a mom to my 4 angel babies who were taken from us much to soon!
    BFP#1 on 09/29/09 and EP discovered/Left Tube lost on 10/19/09 EDD 06/12/10
    BFP# 2 on 03/21/2010 EDD 11/30/10 Natural M/C on 3/27/10
    BFP# 3 on 02/14/2011 EDD 10/28/11 Missed M/C discovered 4/19/11 and D&C 4/21/11 On 5/6/11 we found out our Oct Angel was a beautiful little girl <3
    IVF#1=BFP#4 on 8/31/11 EDD 5/12/12 EP discovered and MTX shot given 9/14/ & 9/21 M/C on 10/9/11
    IVF#2 and Stims started 12/2 ER 12/16 ET 12/21 transferred two beautiful blastocysts. Please stick LO's! BFP 12/26
    Benjamin Matthew Our Little Miracle Born 9/5/2012!
    BFP 1/2/14 EDD 9/11/14

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