Officially got the word that our first FET was a BFN. We're thinking that I may not be on the right combo of medication because of my autoimmune disorder. We tried to schedule a follow up appointment with our RE just to find out that he only does phone follow ups now and the earliest appointment we can get is Nov. 26th!
We've expected this for a few days since every home test we took was stark white, but it just doesn't get any easier to learn that you put two healthy embryos in and they just didn't stick around. It's hard and it's discouraging. And it makes me wonder what's wrong with me.
Sorry for the whiny cry face, I'm probably not in the best frame of mind right now. The one exciting thing that is a bright spot is that we've started contacting adoption agency's to look into getting a home study done. We both have always wanted to adopt, but had thought we would have bio (sorta) kids first and then adopt. But maybe the grand plan is to adopt first and then work on the babies? Who knows, but this seems like something tangible that we can do to move toward starting a family.