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Did I imagine it?

BeccaMarieBeccaMarie member
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Does anyone else feel like they just imagined everything sometimes? There are moments when I feel like being pregnant is a distant memory, and his delivery seems like it was just a dream. Then I look around and see all the baby stuff. And know it wasn't a dream. But it seems so abstract sometimes...
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  • hannahlb2hannahlb2
    It still feels surreal for me. Sometimes to remind myself that i have a daughter and she really passed away. I see her picture and I tell myself that's my daughter. How crazy. At the same time, the love I have for her is always there and I feel like she is missing.
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  • krysiahamatykrysiahamaty

    I feel that way all the time. I keep thinking I am going to wake up from this nightmare. I am so mad that we all have to go through this.

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    TTC since November 2009. DH diagnosed with sperm antibodies. IUI #1 = BFN IUI #2 = BFN On the road to IVF.... Egg Retrieval Jan 21, 2011 16 eggs retrieved Egg transfer Jan 26, 2011 Only 2 viable eggs transferred. 1 IVF, 1 ICSI IVF #1 = BFP :-) 10/3/11 No heart beat at 38 weeks: Our baby Jack became an angel 12/14/11 = natural BFP Rainbow baby Samantha Jacklyn born8/8/12. Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
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  • agranagran member
    all the time... I also find myself thinking if I pretend I wasn't pregnant this will all be easier to get through.  But that is not healthy and I know I need to face my loss. 


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  • HeatherhahHeatherhah member
    I feel exactly the same way all the time it sucks!!!  hugs to you!
    DS- Brenden born 11/13/93 Missed miscarriage on March 6, 2007 @ 9 weeks D&C on March 8th 2007. Riley Annalise born 2/25/08 ( 3 weeks early weighing 8 lbs 12.8 oz.) Chemical pregnancy 3/2010. Sydney Adriana born sleeping on 9/30/11 weighing 10lbs 3 oz at 38wks 4 days. Trinity Alivia born via c section at 36 wks 4 days weighing 9 lbs. 5.7 oz. She is our amazing rainbow baby!!! Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Lilypie First Birthday tickers PGAL buddy drvst8
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  • mrsnapaluchmrsnapaluch
    When I was in the hospital after the delivery, I kept waking up and thinking I was still pregnant and at home in bed. It still feels like a bad dream. HUGS.
    Avery Alexander Napaluch born sleeping October 24, 2011 at 32 weeks.
    He was 4lbs. 9oz. and 17&1/2in. He was absolute perfection.

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  • hewinkedhewinked
    I got a tattoo for Adam about 4 months after he died.  I remember thinking, maybe I should wait just in case things get better.  Um, he died, and that would never change.  There were times that I couldn't believe that it wasn't that long ago that I was pregnant with him.  He's gone and I had no proof of that pregnancy.  Going through this is all so surreal.  I constantly feel like I'm in the twilight zone.  (((hugs)))
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  • pb127pb127 member
    Yes, and I think that's why I tell everyone I can about my son- to make it seem more real and so I can talk about him to my friends like other moms do. I remember telling one of my friends about a month out that I was waiting to wake up, and a small bit of me still holds onto the hope that I'll wake up.
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  • Auki13Auki13 member
    I agree.  I hate walking around in a store because I just want to be able to show everyone that I had a baby 3 months ago.  I want to be the proud mommy with a cute baby in her carseat on top of a cart.  The fact that everyone around me is oblivious makes me so sad.  It feels like I made it all up...  I am actually thinking of getting a tattoo (and I am not a tattoo person) just to have a permanent reminder of Annabelle on me.  
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  • CaroleeCarolee member
    I feel like that a lot. There are so many times that I feel like it was all just a dream, but I know it was real because of all of the pictures and the room full of baby things. It all feels like it happened in another lifetime, but in a way, I guess it did. That really was a different lifetime, because my life changed so much after.
    Mom to Eliott Alexander, born sleeping at 37 weeks on 8/13/10. Most of us only dream of angels - I held one in my arms.
    BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
    BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
    Too beautiful for this earth
    BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12
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