Did I imagine it?

BeccaMarie

Does anyone else feel like they just imagined everything sometimes? There are moments when I feel like being pregnant is a distant memory, and his delivery seems like it was just a dream. Then I look around and see all the baby stuff. And know it wasn't a dream. But it seems so abstract sometimes...

hannahlb2

It still feels surreal for me. Sometimes to remind myself that i have a daughter and she really passed away. I see her picture and I tell myself that's my daughter. How crazy. At the same time, the love I have for her is always there and I feel like she is missing.

krysiahamaty

I feel that way all the time. I keep thinking I am going to wake up from this nightmare. I am so mad that we all have to go through this.

Big hugs.  

agran

all the time... I also find myself thinking if I pretend I wasn't pregnant this will all be easier to get through.  But that is not healthy and I know I need to face my loss. 

Heatherhah

I feel exactly the same way all the time it sucks!!!  hugs to you!

mrsnapaluch

When I was in the hospital after the delivery, I kept waking up and thinking I was still pregnant and at home in bed. It still feels like a bad dream. HUGS.

hewinked

I got a tattoo for Adam about 4 months after he died.  I remember thinking, maybe I should wait just in case things get better.  Um, he died, and that would never change.  There were times that I couldn't believe that it wasn't that long ago that I was pregnant with him.  He's gone and I had no proof of that pregnancy.  Going through this is all so surreal.  I constantly feel like I'm in the twilight zone.  (((hugs)))

pb127

Yes, and I think that's why I tell everyone I can about my son- to make it seem more real and so I can talk about him to my friends like other moms do. I remember telling one of my friends about a month out that I was waiting to wake up, and a small bit of me still holds onto the hope that I'll wake up.

Auki13

I agree.  I hate walking around in a store because I just want to be able to show everyone that I had a baby 3 months ago.  I want to be the proud mommy with a cute baby in her carseat on top of a cart.  The fact that everyone around me is oblivious makes me so sad.  It feels like I made it all up...  I am actually thinking of getting a tattoo (and I am not a tattoo person) just to have a permanent reminder of Annabelle on me.  

Carolee

I feel like that a lot. There are so many times that I feel like it was all just a dream, but I know it was real because of all of the pictures and the room full of baby things. It all feels like it happened in another lifetime, but in a way, I guess it did. That really was a different lifetime, because my life changed so much after.

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