6:30 am 10.15.11
last night was AWFUL. I've been cruising through this whole pregnancy thing and all of a sudden it's like i hit a brick wall and i literally don't know what to do. I fear that a lot of it is psychosomatic because now i know how low the baby is. I'm having cramps, but i wouldn't call them contractions. They aren't timable. My stomach is hard as a rock and i stayed like that for most of the day. Last night my pelvis was so achy and my hips hurt so bad i literally couldn't sleep. I woke up every half hour until i lost it at 4 am and completely broke down bawling. i just kept thinking, "i can't do this for another two weeks." I was so desperate for it to stop that i attempted to sleep face down butt up with a bunch of pillows under my chest, but it was only comfortable for about 5 minutes before my lower back started to hurt. Up until last night i could still sleep on my back (which i know i'm not supposed to do...) but every time i tried my stomach felt like it was going to push right out of my body. Poor brady didn't know what to do for me. i decided that i would try sleeping sitting up. Thankfully we have a padded head board so i just moved around a bunch of pillows and sat there for a while. It felt A LOT better. Eventually i fell asleep.
My crampy achy feelings are still here and now my neck hurts from my head flopping around, but i at least i got some sleep.
8am 10.16.11
we got to the hospital yesterday around 6:30? and my contractions were really painful. I felt like a HUGE wimp. I could talk through them so i knew they couldn't be that bad, and from the nurses reactions to me i could tell they didn't think i was going to make it med free. When they checked me i was at a 6 and i decided that i was going to get an epidural. They broke my water and the baby dropped to a +2. The epidural was amazing and worked like a charm. It didn't slow anything down and within an hour I was 9 cm. They flipped me over to one side for a while and then flipped me to the other and checked me again around 10pm. By that time i was completely dilated and they had me start pushing around 10:30. My epidural was working a little too well and i had a really hard time trying to figure out where i was supposed to push. Plus i was holding all of my air in my face and i felt like my eyes were going to explode. I should have taken more singing classes in school! the doctor came in about every 15 minutes and by 11:30 i had the head almost out. I had to wait a few minutes for them to prepare everything and then I delivered the head. They pulled the rest of the baby out without me pushing at all and handed him over to the NICU nurses. He didn't really cry, which made me super worried, but they kept saying he was super pink. He was just having a hard time keeping his lungs open. They never ended up giving him oxygen, just room air under pressure to help keep his lungs inflated. At first they were saying that he had premature lung syndrome, but after the perinatologist took a look at the x-rays he's convinced that he doesn't have it and that his lungs were just wet. Which means that he will be out of the NICU much faster than 2 weeks!
i only had a small internal tear (1st degree) and so far haven't had any pain at all. my bleeding has been minimal and in general i feel really really good. The doctor kept telling during labor that i was doing it all on my own and how impressed she was that i didn't need any pitocin. In general i think my doctor did a great job during delivery. She was super supportive and answered all of my questions. She didn't get panicked and was very level headed.
Part of why it took so long for me to be able to see Julian in the NICU was because the epidural was taking a long time to completely wear off. I could move my left leg like it was completely normal, but my right thigh was still numb enough that i couldn't hold any weight on it. Im not sure why they wouldn't let me use a wheelchair, but after trying a couple times the first two hours after i gave birth with no luck they finally broke down and allowed me to be wheeled down to the NICU to see Julian. He had a lot of tubes hooked up to him, which i was expecting, and a huge thing around his head which held the room air thingy to his face. It was hard to see him really.
10am 10.16.11
I just got back from seeing him again and they have the big thing off of is head. Now he just has a regular nasal "oxygen" tube with room air pumping through it. I could see his face and he is just adorable. He looks just like brady. They think that I'll be able to try to feed him today, which means i'll get to hold him. I'm really really excited about that.
Re: i have an outside baby! with birth story
congrats on your baby boy!
DMoney will be a kickass big sister