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I'm home, lost, but home (details inside warning)

I've got a little girl to be strong for. I'm sitting in the tub with my arm out, I've got a beautiful heel print on my arm that I can't seem to bring myself to wash off. I can't wait to get my pictures back. I labored and birthed kyndal with no pain meds. I wanted to be fully aware of everything. It was the most difficult thing I have ever done, but well worth it. I wouldn't change it for the world. When she came out they told me how absolutely beautiful she was and then the big question came. My little wiggle worm had managed to wrap the chord around her neck 3 times and had actually put a knot in the chord early in gestation. She was so active. I love her so much. We're having a private family viewing on Friday night, and the funeral on Saturday. My pastor has been a great support and my H, oh wow, he is so strong. He broke down so hard after they told us what happened. He didn't want to see her, he was scared of the connection, but he will have pictures to cherish when he's ready. You ladys, I have no words. Thank you so much for your love and support. You have no idea how wonderful you all are. I love you all and I want you to know I have read every message. So beautiful. You all are keeping me distracted and a great vent for everything I'm trying to keep in. Love you.
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Re: I'm home, lost, but home (details inside warning)

  • (((hugs))) 
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  • Huge, huge, huge hugs.
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  • I hope you can feel our hugs and love. It is surrounding you at all times. I wish we could do more. I wish we could all be there. Know that you and your angel are in all of our thoughts and we will do anything we can to support you.

    You are loved. She is loved.

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  • Oh, Ruthy. My heart has been so heavy since yesterday. I'm sure she's beautiful. I'm sending you all the strength and peace that I can. I'm amazed by the strength you're showing already. If you ever want to talk, you know where to find me. {hugs}
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  • We love you back. ::Hugs::
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  • Anything you need.  You already know that.

    (((HUGS)))

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  • Oh, Ruth.  ((hugs)) 
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  • (((hugs)))

    You are a strong woman.

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  • ::hugs and lots of prayers for you:: 

  • Oh Ruthy.  I wish I could just sit and hug you.  I'll pm you my email address and you can email me whenever you want.


    ::super big squishy hugs:: 

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  • Oh, Ruthy.  You are so so incredibly strong.  I am, once again, at a loss for words.  I'm thinking of you and your family constantly and sending thoughts and prayers for peace.  Hugs.

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  • All I can say is I'm continuing to pray & ((hugs))
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  • I'm so very sorry for your loss. Words just aren't enough.

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  • I'm so very sorry this happened. You have been and will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. 
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  • It seems so trite to keep saying "I'm sorry" over and over again.  But really, there are no words at a time like this to tell someone you don't even know, how much you are thinking of them.  *hugs*
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  • Big Loves & Big Hugs.

    I'm so very glad to know that we have been a help to you. Please also know that we are all here for you. Always Always Always.

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  • You are amazing and so strong. (((hugs)))
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  • You are so strong.  You are amazing.  My heartfelt condolences to you and yours <hugs>
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  • Big, big, big hugs.

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  • You are so strong. You and your family are in my prayers and thoughts. 
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  • :::tears:::

    I have no words.  Just wish that I could be there to give you real hugs.  e-Hugs just don't seem like enough.   I'm sorry.

     

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  • Thinking of you. Big hugs!
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  • ((hugs))

    You and your family are in my prayers.
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  • I cannot stop thinking about you, sweetie. Hugs, love and prayers. 
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  • Your story brings tears to my eyes. You are a strong woman. Thoughts and prayers for you and your family.

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  • Love you Ruthy. All of us are here if you need anything.
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  • You have been in my thoughts all day. You are such a brave and strong woman, I will continue to hope for peace for you and your family.
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  • I have been thinking of you nonstop, Ruthy, and have been praying for peace. You are strong and you are resilient. Both of your beautiful daughters are so blessed to have you as their mother. We are here for you always. ((hugs))
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  • You are an incredibly strong woman. Send many e-hugs and prayers your way.


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  • You are strong beyond words and beautiful Kyndal knows how loved she was. ((hugs))
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  • Ruthy, I know I'm more of a newbie and don't "know" you well, but you have been in my thoughts and prayers since yesterday. You are such a strong, strong woman. Big hugs to you. 
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  • Ruth, you are so beautiful, so amazingly strong, I am in awe of you. 

    I can't make it better, but know that I ache for you and your husband, and for Caylee and for Kyndal.

    It was so grey and rainy today, but I took a walk and thought of you, and your beautiful baby girl, and the sun shone for a few minutes. I have to think that was her, shining down on us already. 

    You are loved and never alone. Whatever you need, whenever, you just let us know.  

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  • (((hugs)))  I can't even imagine how completely overwhelming this all is for you right now.  We are still praying for you and your family.  Love you sweetie!
  • Keep breathing, beautiful mama.  Remember that you need to grieve too, even while you are being strong for everyone.  Love to you and your family.

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