Oh no! I am so sorry to hear this. I know life isn't fair, but it just isn't right that you have to deal with your father's sickness and now the this loss too. We are here for you. Please take care of yourself. (((HUGS)))
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I am so so sorry for your loss. You have every right in the world to be in a dark place now. Lean on us as much as you need to and feel free to reach for us when you're ready to come out. ((((hugs))))
Oh no! It broke my heart to read your post. I was holding out so much hope for you! Please know you are in my thoughts. I'm so sorry you are being forced to go through so much right now. Go kiss that precious boy of yours and have a good cry!
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I am so so sorry that you are going through this right now. You have every right to be mad right now. Please take care of yourself. ((HUGS))
Forever in our hearts
~12/05 * 7/06 * 12/06 * 4/07 * 10/08~
"When the world says, "Give up" hope whispers, "Try one more time"
After 4yrs, 5 IUI's, 2 IVF's, 2 FET's, PGD, and 5 losses our little miracle is finally here!
Oh Emily. I am crying and just heartbroken for you. This is just too much. I will pray for you and your family that you find peace in all of your grief.
You have every right to be mad. I still struggle with my losses and my first was almost two years ago. You go from feeling as though your pregnancy and baby are meant to be to wondering why in the hell God ever let you get pregnant to begin with because losing the baby is worse than having never gotten pregnant.
Allow yourself to be angry and to be sad and mourn your loss for as long as you need to. You will get by because like you said, you have to and I can guarantee you that you are stronger than you think you are.
As for relating to God, the only way I can do that is to believe that God doesn't take our babies from us, that is nature and the imperfectness of our world and being human.
Huge hugs to you and your family. I'm so sorry for your loss.
Kelly, Mom to Christopher Shannon 9.27.06, Catherine Quinn 2.24.09, Trey Barton lost on 12.28.09, Therese Barton lost on 6.10.10, Joseph Sullivan 7.23.11, and our latest, Victoria Maren 11.15.12
Secondary infertility success with IVF, then two losses, one at 14 weeks and one at 10 weeks, then success with IUI and then just pure, crazy luck. Expecting our fifth in May as the result of a FET.
I am absolutely devastated for you. No words can make you feel better. I am so so sorry. We are all here for you in whatever way you need us. This just isn't fair.
Our 1st IVF miracle, Briggs Sterling, born via c-section due to IUGR and footling breech. 6.5.11. 5:51am. 5lbs 1.5oz.
I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I don't understand why things happen the way they do, it just isn't fair. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts.
"When it comes to sleeping, whatever your baby does is normal. If one thing has damaged parents enjoyment of their babies, it's rigid expectations about how and when the baby should sleep." ~ James McKenna, Ph.D., Mother Baby Behavioral Sleep Center, University of Notre Dame
I am so sorry. I had a similar m/c and I know it is heartbreaking. I cannot imagine going through that on top of everything else you are having to deal with. I am so so sorry for your loss.
Dx with PCOS and IR June 2009
After two losses, third time was a charm.
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Re: It was confirmed.
Oh honey...I am so so sorry.
I will be thinking of you!!
Oh, man. I'm mad for you. And heartbroken. And just so, so sorry.
Beyond devastating.
We're here for you, my friend.
Hugs x a million.
Our Thanksgiving Day baby 11/22/07
Pregnant with #2 with LPD, uterine polyp/hysteroscopy, DOR (AMH = 0.17), 2 c/ps
Our early Christmas present 12/9/10
I'm so, so sorry sweetie. I wish I had better words. This isn't fair. Big hugs and thinking of you.
~12/05 * 7/06 * 12/06 * 4/07 * 10/08~
"When the world says, "Give up" hope whispers, "Try one more time"
After 4yrs, 5 IUI's, 2 IVF's, 2 FET's, PGD, and 5 losses our little miracle is finally here!
I am so very sorry. I remember that same experience, it felt wrong to throw that pad in the trash.
And you can be mad, very mad. This is not fair. Ever.
-----Lisa-----
You have every right to be mad. I still struggle with my losses and my first was almost two years ago. You go from feeling as though your pregnancy and baby are meant to be to wondering why in the hell God ever let you get pregnant to begin with because losing the baby is worse than having never gotten pregnant.
Allow yourself to be angry and to be sad and mourn your loss for as long as you need to. You will get by because like you said, you have to and I can guarantee you that you are stronger than you think you are.
As for relating to God, the only way I can do that is to believe that God doesn't take our babies from us, that is nature and the imperfectness of our world and being human.
Huge hugs to you and your family. I'm so sorry for your loss.
Kelly, Mom to Christopher Shannon 9.27.06, Catherine Quinn 2.24.09, Trey Barton lost on 12.28.09, Therese Barton lost on 6.10.10, Joseph Sullivan 7.23.11, and our latest, Victoria Maren 11.15.12
Secondary infertility success with IVF, then two losses, one at 14 weeks and one at 10 weeks, then success with IUI and then just pure, crazy luck. Expecting our fifth in May as the result of a FET.
This Cluttered Life
The Sunny Side of Life Blog
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Me - DX Hashimoto's Disease, Hypothyroid, Rheumatoid Arthritis
DH - DX Azoospermia - Sertoli Cell Syndrome
DS-IUI #1-4 BFN IVF #1 - BFP! It's a boy!!!
TTC #1: IUI #2 = BFP , Betas 550 (16 dpiui), 1523 (18 dpiui)
Hypothyroid, LPD, FSH 13.0, TTC 2 yrs B4 BFP
TTC #2: FSH 23, AMA, IUI 1, 2, 3 = BFN, IVF #1 = MC
IVF #2 = BFP - Betas 194 (14dp2dt), 366 (16 dp2dt), 841 (18 dp2dt)
(vanished twin ~7 weeks)
Diagnosed PCOS & MFI-Success with IUI
"When it comes to sleeping, whatever your baby does is normal. If one thing has damaged parents enjoyment of their babies, it's rigid expectations about how and when the baby should sleep." ~ James McKenna, Ph.D., Mother Baby Behavioral Sleep Center, University of Notre Dame
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My Blog - "Helping Make Sense"
After two losses, third time was a charm.
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