**Warning. I'm in a dark place right now. So read at your own risk.**
The bleeding increased and decreased this morning. I put a pantyliner on just so I'd be able to gauge how much I was losing...none ever showed up on my panties so I didn't think it was THAT much. Lost a few clots...not much though. Get to the doc office building and I felt a little gush. I went to the potty before I went in, while I was waiting on DH to get there.
I knew exactly when I passed my precious Phoenix. She just looked different from all the other stuff I was passing. The worst part so far, aside from the pain and sadness, was having to flush my sweet baby down the toilet.
God and I are not on speaking terms right now. I am having a difficult time understanding why he's taking my baby and my Daddy in the same short time frame. It's not fair and it's excruciatingly painful. Physically and emotionally. I'll get by because I have to...but for now I'm mad.
Re: It was confirmed.
Joey, Ronnie, and Audrey,
my awesome IUI 30 week twins, and my surprise miracle
LOVE my SAIF ladies
TTC #1- unexplained...lost left ovary 4/07 IUI #1 2/10/09-BFN IUI #2 3/5/09-BFN IVF # 1-BFP
TTC#2- FET 4/7/11 BFP, Natural mc 5/5/11 IVF#2 ER 9/13/11, ET 9/16/11, Beta #1 9/27/11 BFP 254 Beta #2 9/30/11 793 -Twins!
Because we're fancy like that.
Married 8.13.2005, M/C 12/8/06- 5 weeks, M/C 2/27/07- 7 weeks, M/C w/ D&C 8/10/09-6.5 weeks *Charles Lawrence born 5/2/08 @ 3:14am, 7lb 8oz, 20.5 inches. Clomid, Crinone and baby aspirin. *Alexandra Claire born 9/14/10 @ 9:52am 6lb 14oz, 20.5 inches. Femara, Crinone and baby aspirin.
IVF #1 1/10-transfered 2 blasts- DS born 10/2010
March 2015- Chemical pg
1/25/16- BFP Beta1 12dpo = 17, Beta 2 14 dpo = 28.. resulted in one beautiful boy born 9/21/16
Now I'm a stay at home loving life and pursuing my love of photography!!!
It is not fair and I am so, so sorry for all the pain and heartache you are suffering right now.
BFP with no treatment!
After 2 rounds of IVF & 2 rounds of FET, we were blessed with identical twin girls!
"I have four children. Two are adopted. I forget which two. -Bob Constantine
"All for Love,' a Saviour prayed 'Abba Father have Your way. Though they know not what they do...Let the Cross draw men to You...."
5 REs + 3 surgical hysteroscopies for septum/lap + 3 failed IUIs
IVF w/ICSI/AH & acu = BFP!, unexplained spontaneous m/c @ 8w2d (our little girl),
FET w/acu = BFP!, B/G twins!, lost MP @19w, dx w/funneling cervix @20w,
twins nearly lost to IC @21w, saved by rescue cerclage, 17P & 16w of bedrest
Our twins born @36w4d via CS when A came foot first
Thankful for every day
DX: DOR and MFI
IVF w/ICSI brought us our 1st precious miracle
V born via induction 4.29.11
TTC #2: IVF (MDLF) August/September 2012
ER 9/7: 6R, 5M, 4F ET 9/12: 5dt of 2 blasts
+HPT 9/17! Beta #1 (9/25) = 1,000 Beta #2 (9/27) = 1,860 U/S #1 (10/11)...TWINS!
1/8/13 - It's a..boy and a girl!!
S&B born via induction 5.8.13
LO #1 - 1 unmedicated/self-monitored IUI w/ donor sperm.
LO #2 - 1 m/c, 2 BFNs, 4th IUI worked (unmedicated/self-monitored with new donor sperm).
Life is beautiful!
Unexplained Infertility
After two Clomid cycles, three injectable IUI cycles, two IVFs, two miscarriages, and one lap surgery, IVF #2 has brought us our little boy!
TTC #2
After months of being postponed or cancelled, FET #1.3 (Natural FET) brought us twin girls!
After 7 years trying to concieve, 3 failed IUIs and 2 failed IVFs, my third IVF was a success!
My Christmas baby turned into a turkey bird! Dillon Richard was born at 34 weeks, 5 days on November 28, 2009 after 10 weeks on bedrest for preeclampsia.
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I'm so, so sorry. I hear ya on god. Wasn't much of a believer before my pg loss and cancer, and certainly not a fan right now.
I am a runner, knitter, scientist, DE-IVF veteran, and stage III colon cancer survivor.
I am thankful every day for my miracle after infertility.
And thrilled to be pregnant again after FET!