After about a month of random spotting/bleeding daily and 2 Methotrexate injections AF is here. I have to go for another HCG draw tomorrow but I'm pretty sure this is it. My cramps are horrible and this is way more then spotting (Sorry if TMI).
I thought I was mentally prepared and ready for this so that DH and I could move on but I was so wrong. When I went to the bathroom and realized I was passing clots I just started hysterically crying. After a month of meds and b/w I'm officially not pregnant and it's breaking my heart. I guess all I can do now is be grateful that she showed and hope that DH and I will be ok to start our next IVF cycle in a month. I'll get my bc Rx from my Dr. tomorrow!
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Re: Well AF is here (Sorry if TMI)
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I'm glad you'll be able to start the next IVF in a month though! That's at least some good news.
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Thanks girls. I went for my blood draw this morning and wasn't given my bc Rx like I thought. I'm so confused because my nurse last time said AF wont show until after my levels are below 5 but the nurse today said just because AF is here doesnt mean my levels are low enough to go on bc and may not be for a few more weeks. Anyone have experience with this?
She said the lab closes usually the middle of December so they will probably not start a cycle for anyone who has to stim past end of November so I really don't have a "few" more weeks for my levels to drop low enough. Hopefully the Dr. will call me today with some good news because I'm so ready for this to be over.
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I'm a mom to my 4 angel babies who were taken from us much to soon!
BFP#1 on 09/29/09 and EP discovered/Left Tube lost on 10/19/09 EDD 06/12/10
BFP# 2 on 03/21/2010 EDD 11/30/10 Natural M/C on 3/27/10
BFP# 3 on 02/14/2011 EDD 10/28/11 Missed M/C discovered 4/19/11 and D&C 4/21/11 On 5/6/11 we found out our Oct Angel was a beautiful little girl
IVF#1=BFP#4 on 8/31/11 EDD 5/12/12 EP discovered and MTX shot given 9/14/ & 9/21 M/C on 10/9/11
IVF#2 and Stims started 12/2 ER 12/16 ET 12/21 transferred two beautiful blastocysts. Please stick LO's! BFP 12/26
Benjamin Matthew Our Little Miracle Born 9/5/2012!
BFP 1/2/14 EDD 9/11/14
I'm glad AF showed finally. I am so sorry you are having a harder time with this than you thought, it happens though. Sending you tons of love, take good care of yourself!
As for the nurse and such, I always thought what you mentioned. AF only shows when your levels are below 5. Maybe the second nurse is wrong? I hope they figure it out soon and you can move on.
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