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Well AF is here (Sorry if TMI)

After about a month of random spotting/bleeding daily and 2 Methotrexate injections AF is here.  I have to go for another HCG draw tomorrow but I'm pretty sure this is it.  My cramps are horrible and this is way more then spotting (Sorry if TMI). 

I thought I was mentally prepared and ready for this so that DH and I could move on but I was so wrong.  When I went to the bathroom and realized I was passing clots I just started hysterically crying. After a month of meds and b/w I'm officially not pregnant and it's breaking my heart.  I guess all I can do now is be grateful that she showed and hope that DH and I will be ok to start our next IVF cycle in a month.  I'll get my bc Rx from my Dr. tomorrow!

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    Big ((((HUGS)))))

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    I am really sorry sweetie ((((hugs)))). 
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    I'm sorry that this has been such a difficult journey for you.  It is totally normal to feel like you are feeling.  I remember after having my first m/c, being devastated the first time AF showed up.  I think for me it was because it meant that it was real.  I hope you are able to start your next IVF cycle in a month and that cycle will be the one that gives you your take home baby.  BIG ((HUGS))
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    {{{hugs}}} 

    I'm glad you'll be able to start the next IVF in a month though! That's at least some good news.  


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    *huge hugs*  I'm sorry, Lovey!  My heart breaks for you. 
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    Thanks girls.  I went for my blood draw this morning and wasn't given my bc Rx like I thought.  I'm so confused because my nurse last time said AF wont show until after my levels are below 5 but the nurse today said just because AF is here doesnt mean my levels are low enough to go on bc and may not be for a few more weeks.  Anyone have experience with this? 

    She said the lab closes usually the middle of December so they will probably not start a cycle for anyone who has to stim past end of November so I really don't have a "few" more weeks for my levels to drop low enough.  Hopefully the Dr. will call me today with some good news because I'm so ready for this to be over.

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    I'm a mom to my 4 angel babies who were taken from us much to soon!
    BFP#1 on 09/29/09 and EP discovered/Left Tube lost on 10/19/09 EDD 06/12/10
    BFP# 2 on 03/21/2010 EDD 11/30/10 Natural M/C on 3/27/10
    BFP# 3 on 02/14/2011 EDD 10/28/11 Missed M/C discovered 4/19/11 and D&C 4/21/11 On 5/6/11 we found out our Oct Angel was a beautiful little girl <3
    IVF#1=BFP#4 on 8/31/11 EDD 5/12/12 EP discovered and MTX shot given 9/14/ & 9/21 M/C on 10/9/11
    IVF#2 and Stims started 12/2 ER 12/16 ET 12/21 transferred two beautiful blastocysts. Please stick LO's! BFP 12/26
    Benjamin Matthew Our Little Miracle Born 9/5/2012!
    BFP 1/2/14 EDD 9/11/14

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    I'm glad AF showed finally.  I am so sorry you are having a harder time with this than you thought, it happens though.  Sending you tons of love, take good care of yourself!

    As for the nurse and such, I always thought what you mentioned.  AF only shows when your levels are below 5.  Maybe the second nurse is wrong?  I hope they figure it out soon and you can move on.

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    (((HUGS)))  :(
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