I hate almost everything chocolate. Brownies, chocolate ice cream, cake? Hate it.
TTC since June 2010.
DX hypothyroidism, pituitary hyperfunction, and PCOS.
On med/treatment break indefinitely. Not currently trying.
Lots of love to all of my Golden Girls!
The Vagtastic Voyage
Okay, this isn't a confession... But here goes. I took hpt this am (Fr 6 days sooner). Waited the appropriate amount of time. BFN. Well I was curious to see what the inside looked like (I've never taken one apart), so broke it open and there was an indent grayish line and the control line. So I know it's a negative test, but my question is what causes the indenting? I get the grey line as an evap but the indenting is new to me?. Sorry if this has been asked before.
DH and I have been together for 5 years married for almost 3 and we have had MAJOR marital problems since the start. Even before we got married. To make a very long story short I was involved in a car accident and DH stepped up to take care of me when my family wouldn't. He asked me to marry him and I said yes but I wanted to wait to actually get married until I was a least walking. When I told him this he packed all my stuff ( while I was still in a wheel chair) and told me to find another place to live. He has apologized but it still hurts me. Our sex life has been nearly none existent and he use to blame me for it. He has a lot of trouble expressing any kind of emotion outside of anger and hostility and it has really affected our relationship. He is a good father, comes home every day and pays the bill but I always have felt something is missing. We have been in some sort of counseling for 1 1/2 years and sometimes I don't know why WE are TTC. I know why I want to have another baby and I know why he wants another child too but my fear is that we are going to end up divorced..and because my mother was a single mom the idea of co-parenting seems okay to me. Sometimes, I feel like we are just oil and water. We both have issues but I don't know that we will ever get on the same page in life.
Wow, that was a lot but it has been heavily on my mind and since we decided to TTC again it has really made these thoughts in my head worse. When I tell my H that I think we should wait he says that if we wait for the perfect time to have a baby that it will never happen. He feels that all our problems will be worked out in time..
-also, I realized that this is much more serious then saying " I hate chocolate or I take HPT's on CD 9" so sorry for that..
Born 27wks 3 day 2 lbs 10 oz 15 inches
My BFP chart
After taking a test and throwing it away, I sometimes go back and take it out of the trash a few mins later to see if maybe I didn't wait long enough lol...I'm a loser
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After taking a test and throwing it away, I sometimes go back and take it out of the trash a few mins later to see if maybe I didn't wait long enough lol...I'm a loser
You're not a loser. I have done the same thing!
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My confession is that even though we were told to wait a couple cycles after my m/c to try and get pregnant, we didn't TTA. (Didn't TTGP, but didn't avoid, either.) I was kind of hoping that this cycle would be "the one" and that we would have our take-home baby soon, but I had spotting last night and a big temp drop today. That puts my LP two days shorter than normal.
Also, I am thinking about buying a bag of Halloween candy and eating it all myself.
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Mine is that I had a dream last night I hooked up with an ex-coworker. He is definitely NOT attractive, I mean probably one of the least attractive people I have ever met. I guess is was more of a nightmare! I can't help but feel guilty today about dream-cheating on DH.
GBCB- Leaving the bump in protest of the new changes. No privacy= no bump for me.
After taking a test and throwing it away, I sometimes go back and take it out of the trash a few mins later to see if maybe I didn't wait long enough lol...I'm a loser
Definitely not a loser. I have done this a time or two!
The other day when I thought my boss was going to fire me but didn't, I kind of wish he would. My job is so stressful it's been affecting me emotionally and physically. I've battled anxiety/depression for a long time and see a therapist for it. She reminded me recently that I need to be healthy and happy/stable in order for me to be the best parent I can be. I should probably quit my job, but I feel so guilty about it.
DH has always said he wants to be involved in our TTC process, even to the point of asking if i got a positive "egg test" as he calls it. but when the magical week finally arrives, he says that only HE can initiate bc if i do it "feels like a chore". This isn't just a new TTC issue, whenever i try to get him going, he declines. but then 45 minutes later when i'm all hurt for getting shot down, he's in the mood. WTF?? men and their stupid penises!!
I love DH and i know that this is putting pressure on him in a completely new way, but I totes thought he would love the idea of sex all the time!
I've lost 10 pound during my TWW without trying, and my first thought was "I hope I didn't get pregnant this cycle so I can see how much weight I'll lose next month!" I only thought it for a second, but I still thought it.
After taking a test and throwing it away, I sometimes go back and take it out of the trash a few mins later to see if maybe I didn't wait long enough lol...I'm a loser
You're not a loser. I have done the same thing!
Same here!
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DH has always said he wants to be involved in our TTC process, even to the point of asking if i got a positive "egg test" as he calls it. but when the magical week finally arrives, he says that only HE can initiate bc if i do it "feels like a chore". This isn't just a new TTC issue, whenever i try to get him going, he declines. but then 45 minutes later when i'm all hurt for getting shot down, he's in the mood. WTF?? men and their stupid penises!!
I love DH and i know that this is putting pressure on him in a completely new way, but I totes thought he would love the idea of sex all the time!
Ugh. I feel you. When I was on BCP - which completely killed my drive - my husband would be on me all the time about why I didn't initiate more. Now, whenever I initiate he is "tired" or "feeling pressured." SO ANNOYING!!!
I make just as much working part time as my H does at his full time job. But, a lot lately I've been dreading going to work and really dream of being a SAHW/M. I work pretty much exclusively night shift now, and have been for the last 4 years. I think its just wearing on me. Since I've become his Wife I have no desire to work what-so-ever!
I know I like to live a life that could probably never sustain me not working at my current job, and in the long term things will turn out a lot better for us if I work. I still dream that since my H is still in an entry level type position, at the bottom of his pay scale that soon he will make lots more money. Then I can stay home make him a delicious meal and clean/decorate the house everyday. I totally would have never thought I'd be the June Clever type. Does that sound totally selfish?!
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I don't get the new "feathers in the hair" trend. I think fluorescent feathers clipped in your hair looks stupid on an adult, although I can see why an 8 yr old would like it.
I think the exact same thing. I don't get it at all.
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Last night DH and I were watching "Pick A Puppy" on t.v. and we both were dying with "awe-ness" over the puppies and I mentioned to DH that I wanted another dog, someone for our pup to play with. Our house is small though and so is our yard so realistically 2 dogs wouldn't work. There wouldn't be enough room for the 2 dogs, plus us, plus a baby in our 2 bedroom house. I know this and yet I've spent all afternoon looking through shelter websites at dogs that need homes. I don't know WHY I'm torturing myself by looking at these, I know we don't have the room for another dog but I can't seem to let it go. Maybe if our current pup was a small dog it would work but he's 75 pounds and full of energy. He seems like a bull in a china shop as it is in our house. *le sigh*
Every time DH gets paid I buy fabric. We don't have room for more fabric, I shouldn't be buying it and no one is asking me to make them stuff so I don't even have an immediate use for it. I know all these things. DH got paid today and I bought 10 yards of fabric this morning. WTF is wrong with me?!?
I just tested at 9-11DPO and got a BFN which I'm sad about. I didn't want to chart this month because I hated charting the last 5 cycles. I'm guessing my DPO based on previous charts but I have no clue what's going on. Of course now I wish I had charted.
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DH has always said he wants to be involved in our TTC process, even to the point of asking if i got a positive "egg test" as he calls it. but when the magical week finally arrives, he says that only HE can initiate bc if i do it "feels like a chore". This isn't just a new TTC issue, whenever i try to get him going, he declines. but then 45 minutes later when i'm all hurt for getting shot down, he's in the mood. WTF?? men and their stupid penises!!
I love DH and i know that this is putting pressure on him in a completely new way, but I totes thought he would love the idea of sex all the time!
Ugh. I feel you. When I was on BCP - which completely killed my drive - my husband would be on me all the time about why I didn't initiate more. Now, whenever I initiate he is "tired" or "feeling pressured." SO ANNOYING!!!
lol I sooo would have done that if I had any. I ended up eating my lunchable for breakfast...I justified it by thinking that those are more or less a snack anyway.
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I don't get the new "feathers in the hair" trend. I think fluorescent feathers clipped in your hair looks stupid on an adult, although I can see why an 8 yr old would like it.
I love it, but I'm also from Jersey so maybe you can't go by me!
I don't get the new "feathers in the hair" trend. I think fluorescent feathers clipped in your hair looks stupid on an adult, although I can see why an 8 yr old would like it.
I love it, but I'm also from Jersey so maybe you can't go by me!
Ha!
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My DH has a cold right now and he is the biggest baby when he is sick!
I am going out with my girlfriends tonight and I don't feel the least bit guilty leaving him by himself with the sniffles.
Men are such babies when they are sick. MH is the same way!
Agreed. When I had the flu last spring he actually left the house for 9-10 hours on my sickest day to avoid contamination but neglected to leave me with a nearby supply of water (or food, but I was too sick for that). By the time he got back, I was extremely thirsty and none too pleased. He also slept of the couch for 5 days. But, he never did get it so I have to give him thumbs up for his infection control even if I was miserable without a nursemaid.
As he puts it: hypochondria is 100% fatal.
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After taking a test and throwing it away, I sometimes go back and take it out of the trash a few mins later to see if maybe I didn't wait long enough lol...I'm a loser
You're not a loser. I have done the same thing!
Um... I've looked a week later.
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Every time DH gets paid I buy fabric. We don't have room for more fabric, I shouldn't be buying it and no one is asking me to make them stuff so I don't even have an immediate use for it. I know all these things. DH got paid today and I bought 10 yards of fabric this morning. WTF is wrong with me?!?
Oh man, this made me laugh. I too have a fabric addiction and I'm glad i'm not the only one
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My house is a mess, but I kind of want to leave it a mess in an attempt to force DH to clean instead of me. I am laid off right now, and I clean all the time. We have an understanding that I will do the bulk of the cleaning because I am not working right now. My house is usually super tidy. But lately when DH comes home from work he leaves his clothes on the floor, leaves dishes and glasses on the coffee table, and leaves empty gatorade bottles on the counter. It drives me bonkers. I wonder how long it would take him to notice that I am not picking up after him........
** After 2 1/2 years of Unexplained IF, 2 failed medicated cycles, and 4 failed IUI's - our baby girl came to us through the miracle ofMini IVF! **
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TTC since June 2010.
DX hypothyroidism, pituitary hyperfunction, and PCOS.
On med/treatment break indefinitely. Not currently trying.
Lots of love to all of my Golden Girls!
The Vagtastic Voyage
Thanks! He is my pride and joy. LOL
Thanks! okay, here it goes...
DH and I have been together for 5 years married for almost 3 and we have had MAJOR marital problems since the start. Even before we got married. To make a very long story short I was involved in a car accident and DH stepped up to take care of me when my family wouldn't. He asked me to marry him and I said yes but I wanted to wait to actually get married until I was a least walking. When I told him this he packed all my stuff ( while I was still in a wheel chair) and told me to find another place to live. He has apologized but it still hurts me. Our sex life has been nearly none existent and he use to blame me for it. He has a lot of trouble expressing any kind of emotion outside of anger and hostility and it has really affected our relationship. He is a good father, comes home every day and pays the bill but I always have felt something is missing. We have been in some sort of counseling for 1 1/2 years and sometimes I don't know why WE are TTC. I know why I want to have another baby and I know why he wants another child too but my fear is that we are going to end up divorced..and because my mother was a single mom the idea of co-parenting seems okay to me. Sometimes, I feel like we are just oil and water. We both have issues but I don't know that we will ever get on the same page in life.
Wow, that was a lot but it has been heavily on my mind and since we decided to TTC again it has really made these thoughts in my head worse. When I tell my H that I think we should wait he says that if we wait for the perfect time to have a baby that it will never happen. He feels that all our problems will be worked out in time..
-also, I realized that this is much more serious then saying " I hate chocolate or I take HPT's on CD 9" so sorry for that..
Make a pregnancy ticker
After taking a test and throwing it away, I sometimes go back and take it out of the trash a few mins later to see if maybe I didn't wait long enough lol...I'm a loser
You're not a loser. I have done the same thing!
My confession is that even though we were told to wait a couple cycles after my m/c to try and get pregnant, we didn't TTA. (Didn't TTGP, but didn't avoid, either.) I was kind of hoping that this cycle would be "the one" and that we would have our take-home baby soon, but I had spotting last night and a big temp drop today. That puts my LP two days shorter than normal.
Also, I am thinking about buying a bag of Halloween candy and eating it all myself.
Definitely not a loser. I have done this a time or two!
DomesticDiva0429, you have a PM
Mama's Clone - 07/18/12
DS - Born 6/17/12
DS#2 - Due 2/11/15
DH has always said he wants to be involved in our TTC process, even to the point of asking if i got a positive "egg test" as he calls it. but when the magical week finally arrives, he says that only HE can initiate bc if i do it "feels like a chore". This isn't just a new TTC issue, whenever i try to get him going, he declines. but then 45 minutes later when i'm all hurt for getting shot down, he's in the mood. WTF?? men and their stupid penises!!
I love DH and i know that this is putting pressure on him in a completely new way, but I totes thought he would love the idea of sex all the time!
Same here!
TTGPR: I POAS this morning and got a BFN. Every time it gets harder. I cried.
NTTGPR: I took the kids to daycare today just to lay in bed.
I just replied..
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Ugh. I feel you. When I was on BCP - which completely killed my drive - my husband would be on me all the time about why I didn't initiate more. Now, whenever I initiate he is "tired" or "feeling pressured." SO ANNOYING!!!
I make just as much working part time as my H does at his full time job. But, a lot lately I've been dreading going to work and really dream of being a SAHW/M. I work pretty much exclusively night shift now, and have been for the last 4 years. I think its just wearing on me. Since I've become his Wife I have no desire to work what-so-ever!
I know I like to live a life that could probably never sustain me not working at my current job, and in the long term things will turn out a lot better for us if I work. I still dream that since my H is still in an entry level type position, at the bottom of his pay scale that soon he will make lots more money. Then I can stay home make him a delicious meal and clean/decorate the house everyday. I totally would have never thought I'd be the June Clever type. Does that sound totally selfish?!
I think the exact same thing. I don't get it at all.
Married 9-19-2009
Baby Karrot 2.0 - 6.25.2015 - He's here! Via VBAC @ 36 weeks.
This made me laugh out loud. I love how you're honest!
Same here!
Falling in Love! November 2014
lol I sooo would have done that if I had any. I ended up eating my lunchable for breakfast...I justified it by thinking that those are more or less a snack anyway.
I love it, but I'm also from Jersey so maybe you can't go by me!
Falling in Love! November 2014
Ha!
Right back atcha.
Mama's Clone - 07/18/12
My DH has a cold right now and he is the biggest baby when he is sick!
I am going out with my girlfriends tonight and I don't feel the least bit guilty leaving him by himself with the sniffles.
Men are such babies when they are sick. MH is the same way!
DS - Born 6/17/12
DS#2 - Due 2/11/15
Agreed. When I had the flu last spring he actually left the house for 9-10 hours on my sickest day to avoid contamination but neglected to leave me with a nearby supply of water (or food, but I was too sick for that). By the time he got back, I was extremely thirsty and none too pleased. He also slept of the couch for 5 days. But, he never did get it so I have to give him thumbs up for his infection control even if I was miserable without a nursemaid.
As he puts it: hypochondria is 100% fatal.Um... I've looked a week later.
My dog growls barks at that stupid AT&T flash mob commercial every time it airs. So I now hate flash mobs, too
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7DPO Progesterone: low. CD3 BW: normal, HSG: clear
DX: severe MFI (low all 3) and low T. Undergoing replacement therapy.
Oh man, this made me laugh. I too have a fabric addiction and I'm glad i'm not the only one
My house is a mess, but I kind of want to leave it a mess in an attempt to force DH to clean instead of me.
I am laid off right now, and I clean all the time. We have an understanding that I will do the bulk of the cleaning because I am not working right now. My house is usually super tidy. But lately when DH comes home from work he leaves his clothes on the floor, leaves dishes and glasses on the coffee table, and leaves empty gatorade bottles on the counter. It drives me bonkers. I wonder how long it would take him to notice that I am not picking up after him........
** After 2 1/2 years of Unexplained IF, 2 failed medicated cycles, and 4 failed IUI's - our baby girl came to us through the miracle of Mini IVF! **