I spoke with my OBGYN about these feelings and she sorta brushed them off, saying I am exhausted with having a 2 1/2 year old and a infant. But, since having my daughter 9 months ago, I have just been feeling blah. Not sad or angry but just not as happy or as passonate about things as I used to. I find myself to be more negative than I ever was in the past.
I also find that my memory is terrible, I used to remember everyone's birthdays and events, for example when friends had doctor's appointments or something important, I would always remember to wish them luck. Now, I find myself not even paying attention when people are talking to me. My mind wanders and I often ask people questions that they just answered because I don't focus on what people are telling me. Because of this, I have become a little more antisocial.
I find that I don't get excited about things. I love being with my girls and that gives me pleasure. But, DH and I seem to be like 2 ships that pass in the night. We get along fine, but just don't seem to have the same connection and we hardly ever have any sex anymore. And when we do, I find I am forcing myself to do it for his sake and for the sake of our marriage...
I thought if I started running and eating better, it would help me get my feelings and emotions in check a bit, as exercise and good diet has always been a pick me up in the past. But, I haven't noticed much of a change (other than loosing 6 lbs!!!)
This just isn't me. I want my old happy, friendly, positive, perky, outgoing, passionate self back. I don't know what to do!?!? Any thoughts/advice? Have any of you experienced these feelings? What helped?