TTC After a Loss

**~**!!***Nov EDD Loss Check in***!!**~**

Hello Ladies,

How's it going today? How is your week? 

Anything TTCAL related happen this week, or did you have any feelings or incidents related to your loss? 

How have you been handling dealing with any PG friends or coworkers? How do you feel about PG strangers? Are they OK or not?

Where are you in your cycle? TTC? TTA? Special snowflake?

Do you have any plans for the long weekend? How will you celebrate the last days of summer?

Have a happy and safe labor day!

 

BzeetyD = 38, Mr. BzeetyD = 44 together 12/02 married 9/08
TTC #1 since 1/10
DX: Unexplained/??? MFI issues

Our lil' lost sparks:
5w3d loss 7/30/10 - EDD March 2011
8w loss 4/15/11 - EDD November 2011
8w3d loss 8/2/12 - EDD March 2013
4w c/p loss 10/29/12 - EDD July 2013

Long story: trying on our own + testing testing testing with 6 rounds of Clomid, more testing, injectables + TI, laparoscopy - one tube blocked, 2 IUIs with Follistim...BFNs.
RPL testing all normal, Karyotyping normal

Moving on to IVF.

IVF #1 April 2012 = BFN, IVF #2 June 2012 = BFP. U/S 7/23 = saw heartbeat but measuring behind. Follow up U/S on 7/30 - no heartbeat. D&C 8/2. Trisomy 12. IVF #3 Oct 2012 = Chemical Pregnancy

Phone consult with CCRM on 12/12/12 - ODWU 1/4/13 - both tubes clear(!) - AFC 24, AMH 3.2, FSH 9.6, LH 5.4, E2 25. DH has high frag rate but improved!
IVF #4 March 2013 CCRM. EP protocol w/ Menopur, Gonal-F & Dexamethasone. ER 3/29 & IMSI, PICSI. 43R 13M 10F 6blasts bio'd. CCS testing reveals 3 normals!!!
FET 5/31/13 of 1 4AA blast - thawed and expanded. 4dp5dt BFP.
Beta 9dp5dt = 181, 11dp5dt = 427. 1st u/s showed a healthy heartbeat! EDD 2/16/14

After 4 years of hoping and heartbreak, our sweet little bean was born on 2/19/14
We are so in love with her.

"I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it."

Everybody is welcome!!!

Re: **~**!!***Nov EDD Loss Check in***!!**~**

  • My day is going great! Today is my birthday, i just finished my 1st AF, and we are now cleared to TTC! I am excited and petrified all at he same time. As far as pregnant women go, i am mostly uncomfortable around the ones who are around my EDD. I also get uncomfortable around PG family, but not strangers. I just feel like everyone is PG, but me! They all got PG quickly and had perfect pregnancies.... I did not.

     Our baby boy,Logan, was born still at 19w3d on 7/1/2011
    Our 2nd baby boy, Mason, was born still at 20w3d on 1/31/2012

     After a much needed sanity break... we are praying for our rainbows

    ((BFP 7/29/13))  ((EDD 4/12/14))  It's BOY/GIRL twins!!!

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  • imagestlucia_wife:

    Figgs- Happy Birthday!  Party!!!

    I hope it is okay if I play.  Figure, this is a great way to get involved.

    How's it going today? How is your week? Today is no good for me.  I am crying non-stop.  I should be in TX right now for my baby shower that was suppose to be the Saturday.

    Anything TTCAL related happen this week, or did you have any feelings or incidents related to your loss? I did get my first period on Saturday since my D&C and could not be happier.  I was suppose to call my surgeon today if I had not gotten it.

    How have you been handling dealing with any PG friends or coworkers? I am okay.  I have a great friend that is due a week before my EDD.  I try to reach out, but she does not know how to handle me and is keeping her space from me.  (her words) That kind of hurts. How do you feel about PG strangers? They don't effect me too much unless I hear they are due around the time I am due.  Then it kills me. 

    Where are you in your cycle? TTC? TTA? Special snowflake? Just finished this cycle.  I am a specail snowflake.  Not sure when we will start to try.

    Do you have any plans for the long weekend? How will you celebrate the last days of summer? Since I should be home, DH is taking me wine tasting for the weekend to get me away from it all and have me and him time.


    Happy that you joined us here, but of course sorry that you're a part of it too.

    BzeetyD = 38, Mr. BzeetyD = 44 together 12/02 married 9/08
    TTC #1 since 1/10
    DX: Unexplained/??? MFI issues

    Our lil' lost sparks:
    5w3d loss 7/30/10 - EDD March 2011
    8w loss 4/15/11 - EDD November 2011
    8w3d loss 8/2/12 - EDD March 2013
    4w c/p loss 10/29/12 - EDD July 2013

    Long story: trying on our own + testing testing testing with 6 rounds of Clomid, more testing, injectables + TI, laparoscopy - one tube blocked, 2 IUIs with Follistim...BFNs.
    RPL testing all normal, Karyotyping normal

    Moving on to IVF.

    IVF #1 April 2012 = BFN, IVF #2 June 2012 = BFP. U/S 7/23 = saw heartbeat but measuring behind. Follow up U/S on 7/30 - no heartbeat. D&C 8/2. Trisomy 12. IVF #3 Oct 2012 = Chemical Pregnancy

    Phone consult with CCRM on 12/12/12 - ODWU 1/4/13 - both tubes clear(!) - AFC 24, AMH 3.2, FSH 9.6, LH 5.4, E2 25. DH has high frag rate but improved!
    IVF #4 March 2013 CCRM. EP protocol w/ Menopur, Gonal-F & Dexamethasone. ER 3/29 & IMSI, PICSI. 43R 13M 10F 6blasts bio'd. CCS testing reveals 3 normals!!!
    FET 5/31/13 of 1 4AA blast - thawed and expanded. 4dp5dt BFP.
    Beta 9dp5dt = 181, 11dp5dt = 427. 1st u/s showed a healthy heartbeat! EDD 2/16/14

    After 4 years of hoping and heartbreak, our sweet little bean was born on 2/19/14
    We are so in love with her.

    "I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it."

    Everybody is welcome!!!
  • How's it going today? How is your week? crap and sucks

    Anything TTCAL related happen this week, or did you have any feelings or incidents related to your loss? monday during my clomid monitoring I found out i was actually pregnant and miscarrying the baby, the bleeding I had was indeed not my period but me losing another baby

    How have you been handling dealing with any PG friends or coworkers? How do you feel about PG strangers? Are they OK or not? i started crying today at lunch with the girls because she was talking about her pregnancy. she felt like crap but had no idea i was going through another miscarriage

    Where are you in your cycle? TTC? TTA? Special snowflake? well i am ovulating but still miscarrying, my hcg was 89 on monday but because of the clomid i am probably ovulating today

    Do you have any plans for the long weekend? How will you celebrate the last days of summer? we were supposed to go to philly but now i have to go to the doctor on monday. we are going to see wisked on friday though and a premiere of "warrior" on sat. I am also going to be cleaning like crazy because my parents come on tuesday

    Have a happy and safe labor day!

     

    Married 11/27/09 and TTC right away
    Dx: Complete septate uterus with cervical duplication, endometrial polyps, PCOS, endometriosis, hypo thyroid, luteal phase defect
    4 uterus surgeries to correct my complete septum and to remove polyps and 2 years of seeing the RE, medicated cycles and IUIs
    Baby 1 and 2: BFP 3/3/11 with 2 babies EDD 11/1/11, M/C 4/6/11
    Baby #3: 8/11 pregnant EDD 4/27/11 and m/c:(
    Baby #4: 10/12/11 BFP! EDD 6/16/12m/c 10/26/11
    Baby #5: 3/13/12 BFP! EDD 11/25/12 ANOTHER m/c :(

    Baby #6: 2/14/13- BFP! EDD 10/24/13, CP 2/19/13
    Baby #7: 3/15/13- BFP! EDD 11/27/13, another CP
    Baby #8.  BFP 5/19/13 EDD 1/22/14. 8 was not our lucky number

    4th septum resection on 5/31/13.
    Baby #9: 6/29/13 BFP. C section scheduled for March 5th!

    My miracle baby was born March 5 at 9:33am. He was 8 lbs 12.5 oz and 21.25 inches long!

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  • How's it going today? How is your week? Today's been a bit stressful, but in my line of work the last day of the month always is. Week's been okay, busy.

    Anything TTCAL related happen this week, or did you have any feelings or incidents related to your loss?  We decided to put TTCAL off for a little bit. We have a lot of changes happening in our lives that are already stressful enough w/o adding TTCAL to the mix.

    How have you been handling dealing with any PG friends or coworkers? How do you feel about PG strangers? Are they OK or not? Okay. Bitter at times, but mostly okay.

    Where are you in your cycle? TTC? TTA? Special snowflake? TTA cycle #5 waiting to O.

    Do you have any plans for the long weekend? How will you celebrate the last days of summer? My dad is coming over to help us paint. I am hoping to finish up my DIY capiz chandelier and get to work on the new bathroom rug!


    My Old Blog | My Chart | TTCAL Shenanigans
    ♥BFP #1 "Spawn"- 02/23/11 | EDD: 11/01/11 | natural m/c 03/20/11 @7w5d♥
    ♥BFP #2 "Offspring"- 11/10/12 | EDD: 07/25/13 | incomplete m/c 12/14/12 @8w1d | D&C 12/21/12♥
    ♥BFP #3 "Progeny" - 02/16/15 | It's a BOY!! | EDD: 10/17/15 | BD: 10/23/15
    All AL Always Welcome

  • imageufsandra85:

    How's it going today? How is your week? crap and sucks

    Anything TTCAL related happen this week, or did you have any feelings or incidents related to your loss? monday during my clomid monitoring I found out i was actually pregnant and miscarrying the baby, the bleeding I had was indeed not my period but me losing another baby

    How have you been handling dealing with any PG friends or coworkers? How do you feel about PG strangers? Are they OK or not? i started crying today at lunch with the girls because she was talking about her pregnancy. she felt like crap but had no idea i was going through another miscarriage

    Where are you in your cycle? TTC? TTA? Special snowflake? well i am ovulating but still miscarrying, my hcg was 89 on monday but because of the clomid i am probably ovulating today

    Do you have any plans for the long weekend? How will you celebrate the last days of summer? we were supposed to go to philly but now i have to go to the doctor on monday. we are going to see wisked on friday though and a premiere of "warrior" on sat. I am also going to be cleaning like crazy because my parents come on tuesday

    Have a happy and safe labor day!

     

    WOW I am so sorry you're going through this again. That is just horrible. Lots of hugs to you and a relaxing, easy weekend.

    BzeetyD = 38, Mr. BzeetyD = 44 together 12/02 married 9/08
    TTC #1 since 1/10
    DX: Unexplained/??? MFI issues

    Our lil' lost sparks:
    5w3d loss 7/30/10 - EDD March 2011
    8w loss 4/15/11 - EDD November 2011
    8w3d loss 8/2/12 - EDD March 2013
    4w c/p loss 10/29/12 - EDD July 2013

    Long story: trying on our own + testing testing testing with 6 rounds of Clomid, more testing, injectables + TI, laparoscopy - one tube blocked, 2 IUIs with Follistim...BFNs.
    RPL testing all normal, Karyotyping normal

    Moving on to IVF.

    IVF #1 April 2012 = BFN, IVF #2 June 2012 = BFP. U/S 7/23 = saw heartbeat but measuring behind. Follow up U/S on 7/30 - no heartbeat. D&C 8/2. Trisomy 12. IVF #3 Oct 2012 = Chemical Pregnancy

    Phone consult with CCRM on 12/12/12 - ODWU 1/4/13 - both tubes clear(!) - AFC 24, AMH 3.2, FSH 9.6, LH 5.4, E2 25. DH has high frag rate but improved!
    IVF #4 March 2013 CCRM. EP protocol w/ Menopur, Gonal-F & Dexamethasone. ER 3/29 & IMSI, PICSI. 43R 13M 10F 6blasts bio'd. CCS testing reveals 3 normals!!!
    FET 5/31/13 of 1 4AA blast - thawed and expanded. 4dp5dt BFP.
    Beta 9dp5dt = 181, 11dp5dt = 427. 1st u/s showed a healthy heartbeat! EDD 2/16/14

    After 4 years of hoping and heartbreak, our sweet little bean was born on 2/19/14
    We are so in love with her.

    "I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it."

    Everybody is welcome!!!
  • How's it going today? How is your week? Not good.  It is workshop week at school, so I'm stressed. 

    Anything TTCAL related happen this week, or did you have any feelings or incidents related to your loss?  Today I woke up early and tested being 10dpo and all... BFN.  It is still early, so that is ok... but then I got home and checked my facebook... TWO pregnancy  announcements...  I'm happy for them... but sad and frustrated that I'm not pregnant again yet.  I cried and cried.

    How have you been handling dealing with any PG friends or coworkers? How do you feel about PG strangers? Are they OK or not? For the most part, I feel ok around them.  As long as they appear to look like good parents (I know that this is bad to say, but I've become really judgmental, but only in my head).

    Where are you in your cycle? TTC? TTA? Special snowflake?  TTC, cd10

    Do you have any plans for the long weekend? How will you celebrate the last days of summer?  I'm seeing Motion City Soundtrack and Weezer at the fair on Saturday!  Woohoo!


    BFP#1 EDD 11/8/11 - MC @ 9w6d, 4/15/11 we said goodbye
    BFP#2 DD arrived 5/7/12
  • imagefiggs0831:
    My day is going great! Today is my birthday, i just finished my 1st AF, and we are now cleared to TTC! I am excited and petrified all at he same time. As far as pregnant women go, i am mostly uncomfortable around the ones who are around my EDD. I also get uncomfortable around PG family, but not strangers. I just feel like everyone is PG, but me! They all got PG quickly and had perfect pregnancies.... I did not.

    Happy Birthday Figgs!  Fingers crossed that you move on to PGAL quickly!


    BFP#1 EDD 11/8/11 - MC @ 9w6d, 4/15/11 we said goodbye
    BFP#2 DD arrived 5/7/12
  • imagestlucia_wife:

    Figgs- Happy Birthday!  Party!!!

    I hope it is okay if I play.  Figure, this is a great way to get involved.

    How's it going today? How is your week? Today is no good for me.  I am crying non-stop.  I should be in TX right now for my baby shower that was suppose to be the Saturday.

    Anything TTCAL related happen this week, or did you have any feelings or incidents related to your loss? I did get my first period on Saturday since my D&C and could not be happier.  I was suppose to call my surgeon today if I had not gotten it.

    How have you been handling dealing with any PG friends or coworkers? I am okay.  I have a great friend that is due a week before my EDD.  I try to reach out, but she does not know how to handle me and is keeping her space from me.  (her words) That kind of hurts. How do you feel about PG strangers? They don't effect me too much unless I hear they are due around the time I am due.  Then it kills me. 

    Where are you in your cycle? TTC? TTA? Special snowflake? Just finished this cycle.  I am a specail snowflake.  Not sure when we will start to try.

    Do you have any plans for the long weekend? How will you celebrate the last days of summer? Since I should be home, DH is taking me wine tasting for the weekend to get me away from it all and have me and him time.


    Welcome StLucia!  I was so happy when my period returned!  Its a little sign that your body is recovering.  Enjoy the wine tasting!

     


    BFP#1 EDD 11/8/11 - MC @ 9w6d, 4/15/11 we said goodbye
    BFP#2 DD arrived 5/7/12
  • imageufsandra85:

    How's it going today? How is your week? crap and sucks

    Anything TTCAL related happen this week, or did you have any feelings or incidents related to your loss? monday during my clomid monitoring I found out i was actually pregnant and miscarrying the baby, the bleeding I had was indeed not my period but me losing another baby

    How have you been handling dealing with any PG friends or coworkers? How do you feel about PG strangers? Are they OK or not? i started crying today at lunch with the girls because she was talking about her pregnancy. she felt like crap but had no idea i was going through another miscarriage

    Where are you in your cycle? TTC? TTA? Special snowflake? well i am ovulating but still miscarrying, my hcg was 89 on monday but because of the clomid i am probably ovulating today

    Do you have any plans for the long weekend? How will you celebrate the last days of summer? we were supposed to go to philly but now i have to go to the doctor on monday. we are going to see wisked on friday though and a premiere of "warrior" on sat. I am also going to be cleaning like crazy because my parents come on tuesday

    Have a happy and safe labor day!

     

    I am so sorry for what you are going through.  Big HUGS to you!


    BFP#1 EDD 11/8/11 - MC @ 9w6d, 4/15/11 we said goodbye
    BFP#2 DD arrived 5/7/12
  • imageLaTi07:

    How's it going today? How is your week? Today's been a bit stressful, but in my line of work the last day of the month always is. Week's been okay, busy.

    Anything TTCAL related happen this week, or did you have any feelings or incidents related to your loss?  We decided to put TTCAL off for a little bit. We have a lot of changes happening in our lives that are already stressful enough w/o adding TTCAL to the mix.

    How have you been handling dealing with any PG friends or coworkers? How do you feel about PG strangers? Are they OK or not? Okay. Bitter at times, but mostly okay.

    Where are you in your cycle? TTC? TTA? Special snowflake? TTA cycle #5 waiting to O.

    Do you have any plans for the long weekend? How will you celebrate the last days of summer? My dad is coming over to help us paint. I am hoping to finish up my DIY capiz chandelier and get to work on the new bathroom rug!

    LaTi, it sounds like you are busy!  the DIY capiz chandelier sounds way cool!  You should post a finished pic!


    BFP#1 EDD 11/8/11 - MC @ 9w6d, 4/15/11 we said goodbye
    BFP#2 DD arrived 5/7/12
  • imagemeeko1985:

    How's it going today? How is your week? Not good.  It is workshop week at school, so I'm stressed. 

    Anything TTCAL related happen this week, or did you have any feelings or incidents related to your loss?  Today I woke up early and tested being 10dpo and all... BFN.  It is still early, so that is ok... but then I got home and checked my facebook... TWO pregnancy  announcements...  I'm happy for them... but sad and frustrated that I'm not pregnant again yet.  I cried and cried.

    How have you been handling dealing with any PG friends or coworkers? How do you feel about PG strangers? Are they OK or not? For the most part, I feel ok around them.  As long as they appear to look like good parents (I know that this is bad to say, but I've become really judgmental, but only in my head).

    Where are you in your cycle? TTC? TTA? Special snowflake?  TTC, cd10

    Do you have any plans for the long weekend? How will you celebrate the last days of summer?  I'm seeing Motion City Soundtrack and Weezer at the fair on Saturday!  Woohoo!

    Have fun at the fair! We may go this weekend. I went for a few hours this week for work.

    BzeetyD = 38, Mr. BzeetyD = 44 together 12/02 married 9/08
    TTC #1 since 1/10
    DX: Unexplained/??? MFI issues

    Our lil' lost sparks:
    5w3d loss 7/30/10 - EDD March 2011
    8w loss 4/15/11 - EDD November 2011
    8w3d loss 8/2/12 - EDD March 2013
    4w c/p loss 10/29/12 - EDD July 2013

    Long story: trying on our own + testing testing testing with 6 rounds of Clomid, more testing, injectables + TI, laparoscopy - one tube blocked, 2 IUIs with Follistim...BFNs.
    RPL testing all normal, Karyotyping normal

    Moving on to IVF.

    IVF #1 April 2012 = BFN, IVF #2 June 2012 = BFP. U/S 7/23 = saw heartbeat but measuring behind. Follow up U/S on 7/30 - no heartbeat. D&C 8/2. Trisomy 12. IVF #3 Oct 2012 = Chemical Pregnancy

    Phone consult with CCRM on 12/12/12 - ODWU 1/4/13 - both tubes clear(!) - AFC 24, AMH 3.2, FSH 9.6, LH 5.4, E2 25. DH has high frag rate but improved!
    IVF #4 March 2013 CCRM. EP protocol w/ Menopur, Gonal-F & Dexamethasone. ER 3/29 & IMSI, PICSI. 43R 13M 10F 6blasts bio'd. CCS testing reveals 3 normals!!!
    FET 5/31/13 of 1 4AA blast - thawed and expanded. 4dp5dt BFP.
    Beta 9dp5dt = 181, 11dp5dt = 427. 1st u/s showed a healthy heartbeat! EDD 2/16/14

    After 4 years of hoping and heartbreak, our sweet little bean was born on 2/19/14
    We are so in love with her.

    "I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it."

    Everybody is welcome!!!
  • thank you guys :)

    Married 11/27/09 and TTC right away
    Dx: Complete septate uterus with cervical duplication, endometrial polyps, PCOS, endometriosis, hypo thyroid, luteal phase defect
    4 uterus surgeries to correct my complete septum and to remove polyps and 2 years of seeing the RE, medicated cycles and IUIs
    Baby 1 and 2: BFP 3/3/11 with 2 babies EDD 11/1/11, M/C 4/6/11
    Baby #3: 8/11 pregnant EDD 4/27/11 and m/c:(
    Baby #4: 10/12/11 BFP! EDD 6/16/12m/c 10/26/11
    Baby #5: 3/13/12 BFP! EDD 11/25/12 ANOTHER m/c :(

    Baby #6: 2/14/13- BFP! EDD 10/24/13, CP 2/19/13
    Baby #7: 3/15/13- BFP! EDD 11/27/13, another CP
    Baby #8.  BFP 5/19/13 EDD 1/22/14. 8 was not our lucky number

    4th septum resection on 5/31/13.
    Baby #9: 6/29/13 BFP. C section scheduled for March 5th!

    My miracle baby was born March 5 at 9:33am. He was 8 lbs 12.5 oz and 21.25 inches long!

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  • I havent been able to check in for awhile. Sorry ladies, this second job is kicking my butt. I started antibiotics this week so I'm going to skip this cycle. I also started prometrium on cd12. Hopefully that will kick my cycles back to "normal".

    PG people dont bother me as much anymore but it still stings sometimes. I am waiting to O currently but moreso looking forward to next cycle.

    I'm headed to NY this weekend to visit my lil sis. I am beyond excited. ;-)  

    Hope you all have a good weekend. 

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  • Happy birthday, Figgs!

    Welcome, St.Lucia! Our honeymoon was in St. Lucia and I am now daydreaming about how amazing that trip was for us and I want to go back there ASAP!!

    Sorry about the crap-tastic weeks for some of you. Sigh. November is just way too close for comfort right now. 

    I am on CD8 of our second cycle TTC. I'm okay right now but I will admit that when I got my period this month I was a total disaster. I just got my hopes up WAY too high for our first cycle of trying, and came down really hard when it was over. It sucks so much @ss to feel like we've already been through so much waiting and so much heartbreak and I want to move the heck on already.

    So for this cycle (I know, only our second TTC---it's really not that bad compared to a lot of you) I'm going to chill the eff out. I'm trying not to let this consume my life anymore and currently I'm succeeding but we'll see how things are going by the end of this cycle. I cannot handle myself being so bitter and angry and obsessive---so I'm trying to focus on the positive.

    Big hugs to all of you ladies!

    Another blogger! My Life in Transition.

    Married 05.27.07
    BFP#1 - 07.07.09 | EDD 03.14.10 | Truman Anthony born @38w 03.01.10
    BFP#2 - 03.24.11 | EDD 11.29.11 | missed MC found @9w 04.26.11 | D&C @16w 06.13.11
    BFP#3 - 09.17.11 | EDD 05.29.12 | It's a girl!!!
    My BFP Chart
    imageBaby Birthday Ticker Ticker
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    **my labor buddy is Sweepie412**

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