I was holding it together pretty good and thinking things would be okay. Then I got there and go to drop her off. The director greets me and brings me in to the toddler room where she is the one teacher with 6 toddlers and a preschooler that wanted to visit. She tells me I can just put DD right there (in her carseat) and says I'm all set.
Umm, no I'm not all set. She's only come with me to drop off the paperwork, so this is a totally new place. No one has shown me where her stuff even goes or asked when she last ate, needs a nap, how to comfort her. Then one of the kids gets really close and she tells him to back up and turns to me and says, "I don't trust him with her. He would hurt her." Nice thing to say to a FTM dropping off her baby for the first time. So, I say I'd like to feed her before I leave because I know the next teacher is coming in in about ten minutes. The teacher is very sweet, but 8 and a half months pregnant, so it looks like she won't be around too much longer.
Make it to work, and the staff at my part time summer job had organized a little breakfast for me to help take my mind off of it - very sweet. Head back to pick her up three and a half LONG hours later and she wouldn't take the bottle or take a nap for them. Good times!