I haven't posted on here in forever! It's been a long month!! I had DS on 4/18 via emergency c section. He was 5 weeks early, and spent 18 days in the NICU. I hemmoraghed right after birth, and didn't get to see him for over 24 hours. He had blood in his stool a week after he was Abe to start eating, and I has to go dairy and soy free to EBF. Splitting the time between the NICU and being home with DD was exhausting, but we survived. we finally were starting to get used to being a family of 4 at home when I ended up in the ER Sunday night. I had my gall bladder removed Tuesday night, and I thought all was better. Well, I'm back here in the hospital with the same pain as before having the gall bladder removed. I'm so exhausted both physically and emotionally. I want to be home with my kids. I want to go back to just being mom. I miss the kids, and the fact that I've missed so much of DS short life so far. Im angry that while DD has been very well taken care of during this time that she has no sense of normalcy right now. I just want my life back. I know worse things can happen, but it's almost like a bad mean joke. Sorry this is so long and has no paragraphs, but I needed to just let it out. Thanks ladies.
Andrea 7/9/08, Joaquin 4/18/11, boy coming 12/18/13
Forever missed: Gabriel 11/24/09 at 20 weeks
Re: I need to vent!
DD#1~8/17/96------DS~10/24/05