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it's over :(

beta dropped.

i have no words

just pray and thanks for everything

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Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, It empties today of its strength. ~Corrie ten Boom
Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~Mary Anne Radmacher (thank you beadinglady)

It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
MTHFR A1298C & C677T, Immune Issues and Factor II
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Re: it's over :(

  • fvck fvck fvck..........................noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!

    I want to hop on a plane and give you a REAL hug.

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  • OH MY GOD.

    Worms...no, no, no!

    My heart is absolutely broken for you. I'm totally stunned.

    I am so, so, so incredibly sorry!

     

    TTC #1 since June 2008 *SAIFW*

    TI, IUIs, IVF = c/ps and BFNs

  • Worms, I am So incredibly sorry for your loss :(  HUGE HUGS and tons of t&p's to you and your DH.  It just isn't fair!
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  • Oh worms.  I am so so sorry.  There are no words to explain how unfair this is.  You don't deserve this.  I wish there was something I could do to make the pain go away. 

    ((((((((hugs))))))))))))

    *P/SAIFW* TTC since 1/08 Clomid, 2 IUIs, 4 IVFs, FET 7 losses Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • D@mnit! Mother F'n D@mint. I am so so heartbroken for you. I love you, Sweetie. There are just no words. F this... seriously!

     

    ((hugs))

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  • No no no no no.  I just cannot understand this.  I am so very sorry.  No chance that it was a lost twin type drop in your beta?  Oh hon, I wish I could give you a real hug.  Will be praying for you and DH.  *big hugs*
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  • I'm so incredibly sorry, worms. There are just no words. I'll be praying for you and your DH. ((huge hugs))
    Trying to grow our family with both fertility treatments and adoption since March 2009 
    IUIs#1-4 = BFN, IVF#1 = c/p, IVF#2 = OHSS, FET#1=BFP
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  • FCUK

    WTF, I am so so so sorry!!! 

    HUGS times a million!!

    SAIF/PAIF is ALWAYS welcome to respond to my posts!
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    TTC since 12/06, PCOS w/ Endo & MFI - 3 Laps - 3 IVF's - 1 FET - 1 ectopic - 1 c/p - gearing up for IVF#4

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  • MoFreeMoFree member
    Fvck, fvck, fvck. I don't know what else to say except that I feel like I'm about to puke.  There are times when sorry is inadequate and this is one of those occasions.  Sending you big, big hugs and a cyber shoulder to cry on.
    TTC since 3-08 IVF # 1 Dec 2011 BFP DD born at 31 weeks 6-24-12

    FET #1 Dec 2013 BFN

    FET # 2 Feb 2014 BFN

    No more frosties

    IVF #2. September 2014

    PGD yielded 2 perfect 5d blasts

    SET November 9, 2014
    Nov 23, 2014. Another BFN

    Not sure where to go from here.

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  • I am so sorry to hear this.  I was soooooo rooting for you.  You are so full of positivity and I hope the sun will shine again in your world very soon. 

    TTC Since 10/08 4 IUIs=BFNx4
    IVF#1=BFP!! Twins!!
    Bradley and Billy born and lost on 2/2/11 at 19w2d due to pPROM/PTL. I miss you, little angels.
    IVF#2=BFN
    IVF#3=c/p IVF#4=Empty Follicle Syndrome; 1 mature, fertilized, & made it to blast. 5dt of "the lone ranger" on 9/6. Please stick, little one! Image and video hosting by TinyPic Lilypie First Birthday tickers
  • No, no, no.....  I was so sad when I saw your post.  I was really hoping you had a little fighter in there.  I'm so sorry for your loss.  Huge hugs.

    TTC #1 since October 2008. Dealing with MFI.
    IVF #1 w ICSI in July 2010 = BFN
    IVF #2.1 in Oct 2010 converted to IUI = BFN
    IVF #2.2 w ICSI in Dec 2010 = BFN
    Met with new RE in new city on 1/31/11.
    IVF #3 w ICSI in April 2011. HPT on 5/9 = BFP!
    Beta #1 on 5/10 (10dp5dt) = 99.4. Beta #2 on 5/12 = 284. First u/s on 5/26. = Fraternal TWINS!
    Twin boys born & lost on 8/16/11 at 18w1d due to PPROM & preterm labor.
    IVF #4.1 in Jan 2012 converted to IUI on 1/7/12 = BFN
    IVF #4.2 w ICSI in Feb 2012. Lupron on 2/10. Stims on 2/18. ER on 2/29- 7R,6F
    ET scheduled for 3/5/12- nothing to transfer :(
    Dh seeing new MFI uro & Dh starting meds- June 2012.
    IVF #5 in Dec 2012 = BFFN.
    IVF #6 planned for Spring 2013. Praying for our take home baby/ies.
    **P/SAIF and P/SAL always welcome!**

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  • No!!!! I'm so sorry, worms!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *hugs*

    Our Journey to Brenden

    IVF #1: 4/11(Follistim/Menopur/Ganirelix) 10 retrieved/8 mature and all 8 fertilized / 2 embies transferred ... nothing to freeze Beta 5/10 = BFN

    IVF Take 2 Long Lupron July 2011

    ER 7/3/11 (our 6th anniversary) - 8 retrieved/7 mature/fert ....ET 7/6/11 - 2 beautiful grade A 8 cell embryos

    Beta 7/18/11 - 149!!! Beta 7/21/11 - 311 Beta 7/28/11 - 2,000 8/5/11 - Empty Sac 8/8/11 - There's a yolk sac and maybe a heartbeat 8/12/11 - Fetal pole, yolk sac, heartbeat 8/18/11 - Baby looks GREAT!
    3 babies waiting on ice


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  • I'm so so sorry Worms :(
  • oh.em.gee. i'm so sorry. i don't know what to say. just totally in shock. huge hugs. 
    Married '02, TTC May '05

    Dx -Ute cancer, DOR from cancer treatments, and embryo quality issues. NOV 2010 CANCER FREE
    2005-2011= 3 Rounds of Clomid, 5 IUI's, 3 IVF's- ALL BFN's
    After 7yrs TTC, 5yrs of ute cancer, and 11 failed IF treatments, we got a surprise BFP! So thankful!

    Gemma Grace born 09/30/12

    Phillipians 4:6,7

  • I'm so very sorry. I just don't get it. :(. I feel awful for you.

    Diagnosed PCOS & MFI-Success with IUI
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  • oh hun. i am so sorry.

    TTC #2 since June '08

    ~*DD 10.21.07*~

    dx unexplained

    IUI #1-4 BFN

    IVF#1 June 2011 BFN

    IVF#2 Dec 2011

    Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634

    EDD 8/25

    *PAIFW/SAIFW*

  • I dont know what to say except that I hate, HATE this for you and I wish to God that I could do something to take ALL of it away. You do not deserve to hurt so much. I'm so sorry ML. F'ing pregnancy loss. Sending you so many hugs and so many thoughts and really wishing I could change things for you. {{{HUGS}}}
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  • NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    I just do NOT understand.  I'm so devastated for you sweetie.  We're all here for you. 

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  • I am so, so sorry.  This just isn't fair.

    (((hugs)))

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  • Oh honey.... I'm so sorry.  You so do not deserve this and all of the ladies on these boards are rooting for you.  ((HUGE HUGS)) 
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  • I don't even know what to say. This isn't fair.

    I wish this wasn't happening to you, you deserve so much more. I'm so sorry, worms. :(


    *Excessive scar tissue, blocked tubes*hypothyroidism*
    IVF #1 BFN 10/07
    IVF #2 w/ICSI & AH*C/P 5/09
    Beta #1-33 Beta #2-50 Beta #3-10
    FET 9/9/09*Transferred 2 Blasts*BFP!
    Beta #1- 2991, Beta #2 - 6757 Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • Nooo!  I am totally heartbroken for you...

    TONS of (((hugs)))

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    TTC since March 2009 // Me and DH - 28
    Testing Summer/Fall 2010 - Unexplained IF
    IUIs #1-4 ~ Clomid/Ovidrel/TI/IUI ~ all BFNs
    IUI #5 ~ Femara/Ovidrel/TI/IUI ~ BFN
    IUIs #6-9 ~ Research Study Meds/Pregnyl/TI/IUI ~ all BFNs
    IVF Consultation, More Testing
    Diagnostic Cycle ~ Mucinex/Progesterone/TI ~ BFN
    IVF #1 ~ Menopur/Bravelle/Ganirelix/Novarel/Progesterone/Lupron
    7R, 6F // 2 transferred // 3 frosties ~ BFN
    FET #1 ~ Estrace/PIO/Lupron
    3 thawed // 2 transferred // 1 lost // no more frosties ~ BFP!!
    Beta #1 - 456 // Beta #2 - 1176 // Beta #3 - 2933 // Beta #4 - 6753
    EDD: May 16, 2013
    Threatened MC at 6w2d
    Bedrest for SCH // 6w2d through 10w1d
    Elevated TSH and Lazy Thyroid DX @ 10w - Started Synthroid
    Finally released from RE at 13w
    Charles Everett ~ Born 5/20/2013

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  • Mountains of hugs.
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  • etoyamaetoyama member
    No. Nononononononooo!!!! I am so sorry and so angry! I am so incredibly sorry. I wish so, so much there was something I could do. Oh Worms :(
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  • Oh Worms! I am so so so sorry!! I know that words do not ease your pain. Please know that I am continuing to pray for you & that you get your sticky baby worms very soon!!
    PAIF/SAIF Always Welcome
    TTC #1 Since 3/2010 Diagnosed with POF
    6/2010-IVF #1 Cancelled after ER b/c 0 eggs recovered
    On to Donor Eggs
    9-30-10 IVF w/ DE begins & Donor started stims 10-4-10
    Donor ER 10-14-10 14 Fertilized Eggs ~ ET 10-17-10 (7 Frosties)
    IVF #1 11-18-10 M/C @ 7 Weeks~Stopped growing @ 5 Weeks
    FET #1 2-1-2011
    Beta #1 13dp3dt 2-14-2011~722
    Beta #2 15dp3dt 2-16-2011~1942
    1st U/S 3-3-2011~Twin Girls

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  • I am so very sorry. Sorry doesn't even begin to describe how I feel right now. There are no words right now. ((hugs))) sweetie. :(
    My Wonderful Sister is my GC!!!! 3 IUIs, 2 unmedicated, 1 50mg of Clomid = All BFNs Next step IVF!!!! Melinda & Michael 5*6*06 God Bless The Broken Road
  • SeaSoulSeaSoul member
    Oh God, no.  I'm so, so sorry.
    Childhood cancer (DH) + chemo + radiation = 0 sperm.
    LO #1 - 1 unmedicated/self-monitored IUI w/ donor sperm.
    LO #2 - 1 m/c, 2 BFNs, 4th IUI worked (unmedicated/self-monitored with new donor sperm).
    Life is beautiful!

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  • I'm so very very very sorry.

     

    I really am.

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  • Oh no, I'm just devestated for you.  I'm so sorry and will be keeping you and your DH in my T&P's. 
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  • Oh, worms, I'm so so sorry! There are no good words. Big huge hugs!
    IVF #3 = Feb 2012
    beta#1 3/21 (14dp3dt)=413, beta#2 3/23 (16dp3dt)=785, u/s 4/11
    EDD 11/25/12
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  • I am soooo incredibly sorry for you worms!!!  Life is so unfair, I just don't get it.  I'll be praying for for you & your DH.
    TTC since 11/2009
    11/2010 DH SA good...01/2011 HSG is clear...01/2011 Consult with RE
    suprise BFP but m/c on 2/7/11
    03/2011 50 mg clomid=BFN
    04/2011 clomid+bromocriptine+IUI=BFP at 11dpiui
    Beta #1(11dpiui)=33, Beta #2 (13dpiui)=96, Beta #3 (20dpiui)=1910, Beta #4 (26dpiui)=20,134
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  • STL34STL34 member
    I'm so so sorry.  I am crying for you.  ((HUGS))  I'm keeping you and YH in my prayers.

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    ~SAIF/PAIF/Everyone Welcome~ 

    Me= 37 and DH = 41 

    Dx: DOR, Endo, APA+ (really high beta 2 glycoprotein antibody and high everything else tested), heterozygous MTHFR mutation, positive for lupus anticoagulant, high FSH, low AMH and both tubes blocked (per HSG on 3/8/11)

    IVF #1 - long lupron (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 4 retrieved, 3 fertilized; ET 2 blasts and 1 frozen = BFN

    IVF #2 - a version of antagonist with EPP (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 6 retrieved, 4 mature, 3 fertilized, 2 blasts and 1 frozen blast transferred on day 5 = BFN.

    IVF #3 April was postponed to May, May was canceled. June/July was canceled. Had a cyst aspiration and then began IVF #3 in August. ER on 8/22; ET on 8/24 with AH. +HPT on 9/5. Beta #1 (11dpo) = 3; Beta #2 (15dpo) = 29; Beta #3 (17dpo) = 60; Beta #4 (19 dpo) = 118. Heartbeat at 6 weeks 6 days =132.  Lil is here!

    TTC#2:  Trigger + TI = BFN; Clomid + Trigger + IUI = BFN.

    IVF #4:  BCP + MDLF + Lovenox = 7R, 1F = Transferred 1 6-cell embryo on day 3 = BFN

    IVF #5:  MDLF + Lovenox = 4R, 1F = Transferred 1 10-cell compacting embryo on day 3 = BFN

    IVF #6:  (New RE):  Long Antagonist November 2014 (transferred two 8 cell grade 1 embryos and froze one blast) = BFN

    FET#1:  BFN

  • Oh wormsie!! This is just so f-ing un fair. I'm so so sorry sweetie. Sending you big hugs.

     

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  • I am SO incredibly sorry Worms. You have had such a rough road and you are so supportive to everyone. I don't really know what to say, it's just not fair! ((hugs))
    6/28/10: Lost our sweet baby Addyston at 18wk 1day to pPROM 7/24/11: Michael William born at 24wk 2d due to IC after an emergent cerclage at 18wks, 4wk home BR and 2 weeks hospital BR. Grow strong our little Miracle! 9/17/11: Michael joined his sister in heaven after 8 amazing weeks with us on earth. He fought a very hard fight but NEC was too much for him in the end. Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Lilypie Pregnancy tickers
  • OH no no no no - I am so very sorry - I am crying for you - this is just not fair - you are the one person I know that deserves to have a healthy pregnancy and healty child more than anyone - sending tons of (((HUGS))) and prays your way.
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  • CBLCBL member
    I'm so very sorry :(
  • i am so incredibly sorry and don't even know what else to say other than you are in my thoughts and prayers and that my heart is truly breaking for you.
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  • I am so so sorry. My heart is broken for you. Sending prayers your way.
    After 3 years of infertility we were blessed with twin girls through private infant adoption.
    Forever our's October 17th 2012
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  • NO NO NO!!!! Oh Worms...I'm so very sorry...somethings are not right in this world...

    ((HUGE HUGS))

    TTC 12/2009
    Me: 32 - Stage II Endo / DH: 36 - Low count and morphology (1%)
    IUIs 1-3 BFN, lap Dec. 2010, IUIs 4-6 BFN
    IVF w/ICSI #1 - ER 2/8: 24R 19M 9F ET 2/13 2-5 day blasts (no frosties) = BFP - b/g twins!
    E & C Born 10/19/2012
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  • ((hugs)) I hate this...i am praying for you
    ttc since 10-09 first visit with RE 09-10 ME-everything ok DH- AZOOSPERMIA...biopsy confirmed Sertoli Only Cell syndrome Donor IUI#4 was the charm (8-27-11) with 125iuFollistim/Ovidrel/Endometrin/PIO/vit D beta #1 9/8/11....BFP!!! : ) @ 47.7 beta...#2 9/15/11... 1,998 beta#3 9/22/2011- 27,900 Baby's hb seen @6w2d ! 1-3-2012 20 wk u/s everything lookin' good! Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
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