Waiting, but not waiting for tomorrow

jennykg1477 · April 2011

Tomorrow is 12 dpo. That is usually the day AF comes. In the past, during the last few days of the 2WW I have been able to see the signs that AF was coming. This helped me to keep my sanity and not go too crazy wondering. However, this month I really feel pregnant. I am not 100% sure why I feel pregnant, but I just do. My temp was down a tiny bit this morning, but only 0.04 of a degree so that could just be the normal fluctuation. It hasn't taken a strong dip and my breasts are no longer tender, but they still feel full. Normally when AF is about to show they feel more squishy. So, tomorrow morning's temp should be pretty telling and I will poas again tomorrow morning. If I am pregnant, I am really looking forward to tomorrow morning! But, if I am not pregnant, I know it will be a big let down since I have myself convinced that I am. That test that I dug out of the garbage can that had turned positive probably has also helped add to my hopes. I know it is just an evaporation line, but I haven't seen a bfp since we started trying to have #2 14 months ago! So, I guess I will be hoping and praying for a happy happy day tomorrow!

jennykg1477 · May 2011

Well, what I have learned is that just because you feel pregnant does not mean you are pregnant. I had the hugest temp drop I have ever seen this morning along with AF showing up right away. I guess I got a definite answer. I will be starting a medicated cycle this time and I really hope that does it for us. I am scared to start the medicated cycles because I feel like if it doesn't work we will be out for good since DH is against IUI and IVF. So, here we go, CD1.

JMay · May 2011

Oh Jenny, I'm so sorry! I know exactly what that's like; it's a horrible let down.

My DH is also against intervention beyond meds. What meds will you be on this cycle? Fingers crossed this is the beginning of a successful cycle!

jennykg1477 · May 2011

Thanks, Jenna. It is a big let down. This cycle I will be doing clomid, trigger, and TI. I really hope it works because the dr appts for monitoring are really messing with my work schedule. I have to travel out of town once a month and I was waiting to schedule the trip to see when/if AF would come. I had it tentatively scheduled and, of course, that is when TI has to occur so I will have to rearrange my month. Luckily I make my own schedule with work so I can do what needs to be done to work around everything. It is kind of overwhelming though and I just hope it turns out to be worth it.

jen-dale · May 2011

I'm sorry. I know how disappointing that must be.

Persephone0024 · May 2011

I am so sorry that AF showed up, but at least the waiting is over for now and good luck with this cycle and with the meds, I hope cycle will be the one!