This morning Ari asked to nurse. I knew if I ate that damn pizza he would.
I didn't want to refuse, but obviously didn't want to give him a reaction. I told him mommy's milk was all gone. He said "mommy's milk all gone, have breakfast" and got out of bed.
He mentioned at least 769674 times today "mommy's milk all gone". He's been talking a lot about nursing the last several days actually, but not asking to nurse & as I said last night he hadn't nursed in 5 days.
Every time he said my milk was gone today I teared up. I felt really good about this whole thing yesterday, but today I was just sad. I wish I would've been able to nurse him this morning & let that be the last, or just let it continue. But at the same time, keeping up this level of diet restrictions for 2-3 nursing sessions a week tops is kind of crazy. I think the time is right. Maybe he's also processing it & that's why he's talking about it.
Who knows. Just had to let this out where ppl would understand.