TTC After a Loss

Rough day (pregnancy mentioned)

Today it has been two months since we lost Emily... TWO MONTHS!!! I cant tell if its been a short time or if it feels like an eternity.   I should also be 30 weeks pregnant today... In 10 weeks Im supposed to have a baby in my arms... Instead I had my beautiful baby in my arms two months ago...  Its just not fair.

 I see pregnant people everywhere and I have so many pregnant friends and co-workers... I did everything right. EVERYTHING... and I see people smoking and have heard of someone recently doing drugs and drinking while pregnant and these are the people that get to take there babies home with the, 

I just  miss my daughter.  

Emily Irene born February 8 2011 gone but not forgotten.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change. The courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
image

Re: Rough day (pregnancy mentioned)

  • (((Big Bear Hugs)))  I have no words to make this OK for you.  If you need to yell, you can yell at me.  I can take it.  I hope today passes quickly for you. Drinks

    BFP #1 2/8/2008 - Evan born 10/3/2008 via c/s @ 38wks
    BFP #2 12/31/2010 (EDD 9/1/11) -- Natrual m/c 1/9/10
    BFP #3 12/20/2011 - EDD 8/25/12
    u/s 1/6/12 - HB & beautiful bean
    A/S 4/2 - It's a Girl!!!
    RCS on 8/20/12
    BabyFruit Ticker Lilypie Fourth Birthday tickers
    image
  • Loading the player...
  • {{{{HUGS}}}}
    Hold On ....Michael Buble
    MTHFR 2 copies of C677t mutation homozygous 2/2010
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
    BabyFruit Ticker
    Baby A born via c-section 1/10/12 @38w3d
    BFP #1 11/4/09 m/c 4w3d baby crab
    BFP #2 12/4/09 m/c 9w3d baby lion
    BFP #3 7/1/10 m/c 4w1d baby fish
    BFP #4 5/8/11
    BFP #5 8/17/12 10dpo beta 7
  • Huge hugs
    Warning No formatter is installed for the format bbhtml
  • imageChristinaCT:

    (((Big Bear Hugs)))  I have no words to make this OK for you.  If you need to yell, you can yell at me.  I can take it.  I hope today passes quickly for you. Drinks

    Aww thank you I promise I wont yell at you but thank you for the offer. I am sure going to the kickboxing class at my gym tomorrow morning though.

    Emily Irene born February 8 2011 gone but not forgotten.
    God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change. The courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
    image
  • imagekate626:
    imageChristinaCT:

    (((Big Bear Hugs)))  I have no words to make this OK for you.  If you need to yell, you can yell at me.  I can take it.  I hope today passes quickly for you. Drinks

    Aww thank you I promise I wont yell at you but thank you for the offer. I am sure going to the kickboxing class at my gym tomorrow morning though.

    That is a good plan, you need a release.  It's too much pain to keep inside. 

    BFP #1 2/8/2008 - Evan born 10/3/2008 via c/s @ 38wks
    BFP #2 12/31/2010 (EDD 9/1/11) -- Natrual m/c 1/9/10
    BFP #3 12/20/2011 - EDD 8/25/12
    u/s 1/6/12 - HB & beautiful bean
    A/S 4/2 - It's a Girl!!!
    RCS on 8/20/12
    BabyFruit Ticker Lilypie Fourth Birthday tickers
    image
  • I am so sorry for your loss. Days like these are the worst. Big hug!
    Lilypie Second Birthday tickers Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
    Lilypie Trying to Conceive Event tickers
  • I'm so sorry.

    Huge ((((HUGS)))).  Kickboxing sounds like a great distraction.  I think we all have days where nothing would feel better than to beat the sh!t out of an inanimate object!

    I hope your day gets better  Left Hug

  • O, Kate. You derserve to yell and scream and kickbox. It isn't fair.

    I wish I could hug you. I hope tomorrow is better. hugs.


    My heart is as open as the sky.
    Read about it on the blog

    Image and video hosting by TinyPic



    2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.


    Follow Me on Pinterest
    BabyFruit Ticker
  • I am sorry today is rough for you.  (((Hugs)))
  • It's so not fair..... I'm sorry. 
    DD2- May 2012 Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker 1/26/11- missed m/c @ 12 weeks
  • **HUGE HUGS** 
    5/16/2005: M/C at 7 wks
    5/3/2010: MM/C at 7 wks 6 days
    5/25/2014: CP at 4 wks 3 days

    Because of the great "Snow"vember of 2015, my medicated cycle was cancelled.  However, we were blessed with our little rainbow baby due on 8/14/15!  Baby J had other plans and decided to make his grand ole entrance on 7/4/2015!

    Surprise!  Our little girl entered this world on 12/8/2016 after her eviction notice was long past due.  Our little turkey baby turned into a snow baby!  

                                                        
    Third times the charm!  BFP on 4/18/2019, EDD: 12/18/2019
    PgAL/PAL welcome
    PAIF/SAIF welcome too!

  • (((Big Hugs))) Im so very sorry!

    BFP#1 11.19.10 Missed MC 01.10.11 Sam & Alex
    BFP#2 05.08.11 Birthday 1.11.12 Peyton
    BFP#3 06.10.12 Birthday 2.14.13-Cooper Lilypie First Birthday tickers Lilypie Second Birthday tickers Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

    Congrats to my buddy Ambs21! Welcome to the world Audrey!
    Congrats to my buddy Mork! Welcome sweet E!
  • Thank you all for your love and support on my rough day.

    I wish the sun would come out and it would stop raining! We are going to go visit Emily's grave tonight and burn her candle.

    Emily Irene born February 8 2011 gone but not forgotten.
    God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change. The courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
    image
  • Oh Kate, I am so sorry!  The universe sucks and it is just not fair!  I often ask myself (and others) "why do bad things happen to good people" and I have gotten answers like "to make us a stronger person"  or "to help others who are suffering" from people.  I guess I can't understand that now and hopefully one day will be able to.  (Fridays still hurt me.  I would be 28 weeks today).  HUGE HUGS to you!!!!!!
    Photobucket
    DD#1 9-4-04 *** DD#2 10-15-07
    BFP#3 10-25-10 *EDD 7/1/11 * missed m/c @ 13w3d
    BFP#4 7-30-11 *EDD 4/8/12 ~ DD#3 born 4/4/12
    Lilypie First Birthday tickers
  • I am so sorry. Sending huge hugs your way and hoping that the sun comes out soon!
    Image and video hosting by TinyPic
    Started TTC June 2010
    BFP #1
    07/04/10. EDD 03/14/11. Missed m/c 08/09/10. D&C 09/27/10. }Casey & Jaimie{
    BFP #2 01/14/11. EDD 09/25/11. Missed m/c 02/18/11. D&C 02/24/11. }Dustin{
    TTA for 18 months and then TTC for 12 months
    BFP #3 08/18/13. EDD 04/30/14. Missed m/c 09/25/13. D&C 09/26/13. }Daylin{
    TTA for 7 months
    Jan-Mar 2014 - RPL, SHG, karotyping: all results normal
    TTC Again May 2014
    Progesterone & baby aspirin combo for 5 cycles
    - All BFN's
    SA with DNA fragmentation = Perfect results

    Diagnostic cycle monitoring = Polycystic ovaries leading to premature egg release
    TTA Oct 2014 - Jan 2015
    Jan 2015 - Medicated cycle with timed intercourse
    Image and video hosting by TinyPicImage and video hosting by TinyPicImage and video hosting by TinyPic   

    My Blog: The Canadian Housewife    PGAL/PAL Welcome    My Chart
    imageImage and video hosting by TinyPic
  • I'm so sorry.  Left Hug
    Warning No formatter is installed for the format bbhtml
  • Days like that are the worst. Life is so incredibly unfair.
    BabyFruit Ticker}
  • ((BIG BIG HUGS)) I'm so sorry sweetie.  I don't know why certain anniversaries are harder than others - but I know how they have a horrible way of dragging you back to that sad day.  Not only what was, but what should have been.  We're here for you if you need anything.  ((More HUGS))

    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Siggy Warning~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


     Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
    image
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker

  • I'm sorry. That sounds really hard.  I agree with how quickly/slowly times passes.  Big hugs to you today!
    image

    BFP #1: 01/16/11. EDD 09/27/11. Molar pregnancy discovered at 11w2d. D&C on 03/11/11 at 11w3d. Confirmed complete molar pregnancy 03/28/11. GTN diagnosed 04/11. Started Act-D 05/06/11. FINALLY a negative beta 06/01/11!!! Cleared by oncologist to TTC in mid-October.


    BFP #2: 12/30/11. EDD 09/11/12. MC 01/04/12. I love you always.


    Separated 04/12.


    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
  • The world is very unfair. There are people populating this Earth that have no business doing it. I'm so sorry you're going through this. I hope when you visit your baby girl today you find some bit of comfort in it. I'll be thinking of you today. We're all here if you need us ((huge hugs)).
    Natural MCs 2/4/09, 8/22/09 & 4/7/10
    Dx with Antiphospholipid Antibody Syndrome (APS)
    BFP #4 5/14/12
    5/17/12...1st Betas- 176, P4 3.6
    5/22/12...2nd Betas- 207, P4 6.1 (MC confirmed)
  • My heart aches for you.  I hope you find some peace soon.  We're allowed to have rough days.  Allow yourself to feel how you feel, but remember there are good days, too!!

    image Image and video hosting by TinyPic image

    Justin + Laura 10.18.08
    TTC #1 09.10/Dx PCOS 12.10/BFP #1 12.29.10/EDD 9.10.11/Missed m/c 2.3.11/D&C 2.15.11
    “Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.”-Kahlil Gibran
    Cycle #1 4.2.11 + Clomid = BFN/Cycle #2 5.9.11 + Clomid + Trigger Shot = TWINS! 
    Walter Allen and Eleanor Joan 1.15.12
    Another baby on the way! 8.25.14


  • MrsL2MrsL2 member
    I am so so sorry I hate how unfair the world is and how people who dont seem to deserve to be parents are and people who should be aren't.. it doesn't make any sense.. I hope that going to Emily's grave helps bring you comfort and that tomorrow will be a better day!
    TTC #1- December 2010 Image and video hosting by TinyPic Anniversary image
  • Huge hugs. I often ask myself these same questions. It's so unfair. I'm so sorry you're having a difficult day
    Image and video hosting by TinyPic
    Lilypie First Birthday tickers
    BFP 1 on 10.30.10 spontaneous m/c on 12.28.10 at 12 weeks
    BFP 2 It's a girl! Born 1.18.12 at 39w
  • ((Big Big Hugs))
    image 
    image
      image
    January2014 Blog ** Admin to the January 2014 FB group!
  • I'm so sorry!  It's hard not to think about where you would be.
    Image and video hosting by TinyPic imageBaby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • morkmork member
    ((BIG HUGS))
     Image and video hosting by TinyPic
    Mama to 5 angel babies, 1 rainbow baby, and 2 more angel babies. 
    My beautiful Ella/ToT arrived 10/10/12. 
  • Biggest squishy hugs EVER! I really hope you can make it through this day with as little pain as possible.
  • oh hugs honey--
    Warning No formatter is installed for the format bbhtml
  • Sending big hugs.

    Jenn

    image 3 IUI's all BFN

    IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN

    Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10

    BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11

    Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11

    my blog

  • *hugs*  I know that there aren't any words that will fix it, but know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. We're all here for you.
    Warning No formatter is installed for the format bbhtml
  • I'm so sorry. My heart just aches for you. Huge (((hugs)))

    Image and video hosting by TinyPic

    AlternaTickers - Cool, free Web tickers

    image Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

    BFP 11/23/10 MMC @ 7w3d Discovered @ 10w2d D&C 1/12/11

    BFP 7/6/11 Our Lucky Charm born 3/5/12
  • (((BigHugs)))

    I really hate days like this, where it seems like all you can and want to do is cry and remember your baby..... Life truly can be unfair...... I hope that it makes it up to you soon!!

    image

    Lilypie - (81iI)
This discussion has been closed.
Choose Another Board
Search Boards
"
"