Feeling like I am sinking...

Nesting.Away · March 2011

In just 2 weeks, I will hit the one year anniversary of Sophia passing away and it will coincide with 4 years of TTC. Ladies, I have no idea how to deal with this. I had a fantastic time last weekend with some of my closest Nesties in AC, but now that it is all done, I feel like all that is left is a black cloud.

I know I am depressed and trying to decide if I should call my Doctor, but I don't know who to call. My OB put me on Zoloft after delivering, which I stopped after a few months and started to feel ok. My PCP hasn't seen me in years, and in fact, has retired from the practice.

*sigh* Just feeling lost and sad, so incredibly sad.

M&MBride0506 · March 2011

Sweetie, I'm so sorry that you are going through this right now. I know that words cannot comfort you but I just wanted to give you ((hugs)). Maybe you should go the PCP and see if he can put you on Zoloft.

Again, I'm so sorry.

whitewave26 · March 2011

I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how you must feel.

You should find a new PCP and talk to them about how you are feeling. Or, maybe your OB can write that prescription for you again. There is nothing wrong with an antidepressant. I am currently taking Paxil.

Big hugs to you!

Echloe · March 2011

I just want to let you know that you are not alone. I've been there. Some days I still am there! So I'm not gonna tell you it will go away. But I can tell you that you will feel better. It will get easier sweetie. Hugs. I'm here I you ever want to talk to someone who has been there.

albjag · March 2011

We're here for you hon. Huge Hugs

Maybe call your OB on Monday and see -

Or is there a grief counselor you can talk to? Until then- does journaling help you? I know it helps me to write things out. I wish I could come over and give you a hug in person YGPM... in a minute

softbalangel · March 2011

I am so sorry you are having to go through this. I can't even imagine how you must feel. ((hugs))

illinigal · March 2011

Huge hugs. I'm so sorry you are feeling down. Do something nice for yourself to take your mind off your anniversary.

matt'sbride · March 2011

I am so sorry you're feeling so sad. I'm also really sorry for your loss. It stinks that the anniversary of those two particular events are so close. I can't imagine how you are feeling. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers. (((huge hugs)))

Nesting.Away · March 2011

Thanks, Ladies. I went looking for my Zoloft and I apparently I don't have any more. I will put a call into my OB and see what I need to do. I am hoping to get back on them right away so when April 3rd gets here, I will have a good amount in my system. DH's birthday is the same day we lost Sophia, so I think everything has just compounded and it is just too much. I know it will be ok, I just need to get past this first year.

theworms · March 2011

cutie, if i could sit with you the whole day i would do it in a second.

just know that you are never far from my t&P

you are not alone, we're all with you and Sophia has some other angel babies keeping her company.

call your dr. maybe see a therapist, whatever you need

you are braver and stronger than you know and i you

Nesting.Away · March 2011

Thanks, ML. I feel bad because I wasn't quite myself when I was with you guys and I think being away from Ty just made it all come at me. I am so very hard on myself and that in itself is not helping. I will be ok. I just have to keep going.

theworms · March 2011

Nesting.Away:
Thanks, ML. I feel bad because I wasn't quite myself when I was with you guys and I think being away from Ty just made it all come at me. I am so very hard on myself and that in itself is not helping. I will be ok. I just have to keep going.

please, don't beat yourself up cutie (easier said than done, knowing my personality i would be hard on myself too)

but you will be ok, you have an amazing husband

and you have lots of internet friends and strangers supporting you

shipoopiisforme · March 2011

i wish i could reach through the screen and give you a big hug.

vanessagorc · March 2011

I know what you mean about ur trip...that was a bright spot to look forward to, and now that;s over. And the rest of the future seems depressing.

Do you have a therapist you like? I would start there. They can help with finding the right meds.

HUGE HUGS for all u have gone thru...so unfair.

scooterq · March 2011

Oh sweetie, I am so so sorry! No one should have to go through what you have. I wish there was something I could say or do but I just wanted to give you big ((hugs))

butterfly843 · March 2011

Sending big hugs your way.

stei8086 · March 2011

I am so sorry. Hoping you find strength from above. HUGS!

Tanya+Da · March 2011

I am so sorry you are going through this. Big HUGS on the way.

militarywife2b · March 2011

Sorry honey wish I could take it all away from you ((((Hugs))))

newsbaby · March 2011

I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better. Huge hugs.

koyn · March 2011

i so wish i was therye to give you a huge hug. just knoe i am just a phone call away if you need. i think you are on the right track to give your doctor a call. i hope that they can help. it may take some time but always know we are here for you.

nina&matt · March 2011

((huge hugs)) The pain never goes away sweetie. i wish i could say it does. I have been a crying mess for the last couple of months just thinking about Lily's anniversary next week. I want you to know that Im always here for you if you want to talk.

juliannat · March 2011

shipoopiisforme:
i wish i could reach through the screen and give you a big hug.

Me too, hon. Just know that there are so many of us who care and are thinking about you.

dolphinsmakemesmile · March 2011

Oh, I wish I could say the right thing to make you feel better. Sometimes there are just no words. I'm thinking of you and Sophia. Sending you huge ((HUGS)).

Edwina.McDunnough · March 2011

Nesting, big big hugs!

Call your OB, and if they won't write you a Rx, they can recommend a PCP. You are clearly a responsible patient and this situation is not something to underestimate.

More hugs!

JM1977 · March 2011

I am so, so sorry for everything you are going through. I will be keeping you in my prayers. I agree with your thought that the Zoloft could help you get through this terribly difficult time. ((((HUGS))))

abbe19 · March 2011

I am so, so sorry sweetie. I wish there was something I could say that would alleviate some of your pain. All of this is too much for any of us to bear sometimes. I would call your OB if you feel you need a prescription for something. Huge (((hugs)))

roselln2 · March 2011

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Big (((hugs))). I agree with all the PPs saying for you to call your PCP. Thinking of you!

MrsRumpf · March 2011

Thyere just are no words.

Know you have support and love her ANY time you need it. I wish we could give you a giant ((HUGS)) in person.

Ginger71 · March 2011

(((((hugs))))) Honey, I'm so sorry. I don't even know what I can possibly say to make you feel better. I didn't go through anything close to what you did and I barely recovered that. You are one strong woman...it sucks but you so are!

If you want some advice.....I would find a new PCP ...... I am on prozac now and it was the best thing to get me over that "hump" I needed to start healing if you KWIM. I understand the meds are not for everyone so I'm not pushing but they have helped me so much. I was always so agst. meds but I am so glad I'm taking them.

I think of you often...if you ever need to talk or email....I'll give you my info. I'm so sad that you have to go through this...know that I'm there if you need another ear...ok?

ked1068 · March 2011

I know that nothing I say can make you feel better, and I wish so much that were not the case, but I'm going to try anyway. You are an amazing person who has suffered a devastating loss. If I were you, I wouldn't hesitate for a second about calling for medicine and someone to talk to. This coming anniversary is going to be hard but you have so many people around you who will be there to hold you, cry with you, and love you, and I'm one of those people. I'm sure talking on the phone will be the LAST thing you want to do as April 3 approaches, but you can call me for anything. If you want to simply cry, scream, sob, whatever, I'm here. X o xo

MSaksa · March 2011

so very sorry ((hugs))

madelyn07 · March 2011

Oh honey...my heart is breaking for you.

I'm so, so sorry for all you've been through.

Please send me a text or a message on Facebook if you need someone to talk to. I'm here. For whatever you need.

(((((((((hugest of hug hugs))))))))

MrsRich0226 · March 2011

I am so sorry - I can't even imagine what you're going through and don't even have words.

Take care of yourself and sending you tons of ((hugs))!

Rachael07.07.07 · March 2011

(I'm on my phone so sorry for the lack of paragraphs). I am so, so sorry for everything hun. I think that what you are feeling after losing Sophia is nothing abnormal. When you add in still struggling in the IF hellhole, it makes it that much harder to deal with. I wish I could give you a huge hug right now. All I know is I am always here for you. Day or night, you know how to get a hold of me. I know that it isn't the same (sort of) but with my meltdown two months ago, I went on zoloft too. I thought after a month that I was feeling a little better so I stopped but all that anxiety and gloom came back full force. I'm back on it and it's helping to regulate everything. If I were in your shoes, I might re-evaluate going back on for the time being, even if you have to find another doctor. (((((hugs)))))) to you sweetie.

cookie_queen · March 2011

Oh honey. It's sucks. It's so hard. I can't imagine how you must feel and how hard things will be when I hit the year milestone. Call your OB about something to try to help.

I just have no words. lots of ((hugs)). PM or email me. I'm always, always here.

ichoosehope · March 2011

I am so sorry sweetie. Are you close with your OB? Could you call him/her and ask for zoloft and a recommendation for a new PCP?

Sunshine05 · March 2011

I'm sorry about all these awful anniversaries coinciding. I hope you can get in to talk to someone and see about getting something to help you feel better soon. *huge hugs*