I've felt on the verge of tears off and on today, particularly tonight. I feel like I have some happy moments and I'm not sure if I would describe myself as depressed, but I feel just a general sense of sadness a lot lately. A "woe is me" kind of feeling. I'm beginning to wonder if I need to see a therapist or find a support group (aside from all of you wonderful ladies, of course). I could go on, but don't want to ramble and don't want to make myself feel worse. Thanks for listening.
Re: Just feeling so sad today...anyone else?
I'm sorry you are feeling that way. I've been feeling that way myself today too. I just want to either figure out how to shake it off or have some good news to snap me out of it, but for the time being, I'm sad and angry that my body just can't seem to finish this m/c and move on. The fact that I'm 39 and know we really only have a limited number of months to keep tryinig is killing me....
My plan tomorrow is to listen to some good music on the way to work and enjoy getting my hair done tomorrow (which I waited to do until after first trimester so it looks like hell right now). Maybe looking better will make me feel better? Maybe you can sneak away for a pedicure or something tomorrow to make you feel pretty?
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I'm glad I'm not alone. I can't stop crying today. Its becoming increasingly more difficult to put on the happy face. DH is out of town and that's not helping..luckily he's back tomorrow. I'm just having a really rough day.
T&Ps for you.. and big big hugs! One day at a time..that's all we can do!
I'm sorry you're having a rough day. If you think seeing a therapist or going to a group will help you, it might be good to try. This is a very supportive group, but of course it has its limits. From what you have shared, I don't necessarily think what you are feeling is abnormal, but I don't know the whole story. I had a totally rough two days at the beginning of the week where I did nothing but cry and sulk and think about how my life is in pieces right now. The day before, I actually felt happy for the first time since my miscarriage, but I had this weird feeling that being happy somehow wasn't right, and the next day, I was the worst I had been in weeks.
I keep wondering "am I depressed?" but then I just think "how could I possibly NOT be feeling this way?" and try to embrace all the tears and anger (lots of that lately) and fear as just a normal part of my grieving process. I think reading about grief has helped me come to terms with what I am feeling. There are so many things that I thought I was a terrible person for thinking and feeling but it is all very common and normal.
I hope tomorrow is a better day for you. Lots of hugs.
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