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Taking a TTCAL break

I know I haven't been posting as frequently as I used to, but I've decided I need to step away from the board for a bit.  I'm currently going through my third chemical pregnancy in three months, and I am having a pretty rough time thinking about anything TTC-related.  I feel completely defeated and don't know what else I can do. 

I love you all, but it is just getting too painful for me seeing everyone moving on... I feel like I only truly "know" a few ladies on this board anymore, and it's getting increasingly difficult for me being the one left behind cycle after cycle.  (This is not directed at you Stephanie and Ginger, I love you both so much and I am SO SO ecstatic for you both!!!!! Big Smile)  

I will probably still lurk from time to time, and will still post on some of my other boards.  I just need to get away from TTCAL for awhile.  

Good luck to you all, I hope to see you all on PgAL soon!

TTC since January 2010
BFP 5/9/10. U/S - no heartbeat 6/2/10 (7 weeks). Induced miscarriage 6/7/10.
Chemical pregnancies 12/2/10, 1/3/11, and 2/7/11.
dx: RPL due to poor quality uterine lining; begin progesterone January 2011
BFP 3/10/11. EDD 11/19/11. E arrived 11/15/11!

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  • I am so sorry.  I can understand needing the break.

     Danielle

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  • ((BIG HUGS))

    I hope to see you on PGAL soon!

    Sorry for all your losses. 

    BFP#1: 7/14/10.  EDD: 3/19/11--MMC-- D&C 9/2/10.
    BFP#2: 12:22/10.EDD: 8/30/11 C/P 12/25/10
    BFP#3: 10/26/11 EDD: 7/2/12-- Daniel born 7/14/12. My rainbow baby!                                                                                                                                           BFP #4:  2.22/15 EDD: 11/4/15 C/P 2/28/15                                                                                                                                                                                      BFP #5:  4/5/15   EDD 12/11/15 (Ectopic Pregnancy)

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  • ((big hugs)) I'm sorry your having a rough time. Take all the time you need and we will be here for you when your ready to come back
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  • I am  so sorry you are going through this. I understand what you are saying I have been here 6 months and a lot of ladies have graduated and I am happy for all of them. I just thought I would have moved to the other board also. I am sorry you are going through another CP. Take whatever time away you need. We will be here when you come back. Huge Hugs to you.
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  • Sorry that you're going through another cp.  Hope the break will be good for you and that you make your way to PGAL soon!  (((hugs)))
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  • (((hugs)) take care hon!
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  • I'm so sorry and will be here if you need us. I got teary eyed reading your post...((hugs)) and GL! I hope to see you on pgal very soon
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  • I am so sorry you are feeling like this.  I know exactly how you feel.  I hope your break will bring you much peace.  You will be missed, and when you are ready, we will be here for you!  big hugs!
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  • I'm so sorry <3


     

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    bfp 3 - blighted ovum/d&c on 4.13.13 @ 8 weeks

    bfp 4 - 3rd IUI, very late BFN with super low P, c/p

    bfp 5 - natural bfp while on lupron, baby born via RCS on 4.27.15 @ 39 weeks

    bfp 6 - surprise! baby born via RCS on 11.13.16 @ 38 weeks



  • I'm so sorry for your losses. I hope to see you on PGAL soon, but I completely understand the break. It really wears you down after a while. (hug) Come see us again when you're ready.
    After two losses, a rainbow arrived! DD born 11.5.11
    Dx with severe Asherman's syndrome after a botched PP D&C (pursuing med mal)
    Hysteroscopy Oct '13, not enough progress 
    Hysteroscopy Jan '14, given an end-of-the-road diagnosis
    Joined International Asherman's Association April '14 
    Not ready to give up yet.
    Hysteroscopy with Dr. Isaacson (an expert in the USA) 6.2.14: Good prognosis, at least 50% of cavity open.
    Repeat hysteroscopy scheduled with Dr. I on 6.16.14. Great progress. Unbenched!!!!
    Discussing actively TTC with DH after the heartache of the last year. We're both reeling.
     
    Please, please, please. 
  • I hate this for you. Three losses in three months is just unbearable. I hope your break does you some good and you find some peace. I wish I had the right words. Take care and I can't wait to see you on PGAL!

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    BFP #3: 10/2011 ectopic 11/2011 (right tube removed, learned left tube was probably nonfunctional due to scar tissue from infection after m/c)

    3 failed IUIs, IVF #1: 18R, 12M, 10F, 3 poor quality 5d embryos transferred= BFP #4!!!!!

    Betas: 9dp5dt: 64 ~14dp5dt: 91 (expecting miscarriage, doubling time of 236 hours) ~16dp5dt: 200~18dp5dt: 500

    First Ultrasound at 6w2d revealed two sacs, only one with a heartbeat

    LK arrived after 42 weeks on August 14, 2013! Beautiful, healthy, and happy!

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    Surprise BFP#5 February 19, 2015 EDD: November 2, 2015

    Betas: 10dpo: 10, 14dpo: 77, 17dpo: 270

    First Ultrasound at 5w1d showed a miracle UTE baby! And right ovary ovulation to left fallopian tube.

    JD arrived at 38 weeks on October 20, 2015.

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  • ((HUGS)) I am so sorry for all your losses. I completely understand your need for a break, I hope it helps you lots - you'll be in my T&P's.
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  • Sad I am so sorry that this has been so rough. I hate hearing how hard it us for some of us, it just kills me! Please lurk as often as you can.....we are always here as you know. Whenever you need a good shoulder please give me sign and I will come running!!! Big Hug! Stay Strong.
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  • I am sorry.  I hope when you do come back to the boards, it won't be this one (and I mean that in the I-wanna-see-you-on-PGAL way).
  • imageanonomity:

    I know I haven't been posting as frequently as I used to, but I've decided I need to step away from the board for a bit.  I'm currently going through my third chemical pregnancy in three months, and I am having a pretty rough time thinking about anything TTC-related.  I feel completely defeated and don't know what else I can do. 

    I love you all, but it is just getting too painful for me seeing everyone moving on... I feel like I only truly "know" a few ladies on this board anymore, and it's getting increasingly difficult for me being the one left behind cycle after cycle.  (This is not directed at you Stephanie and Ginger, I love you both so much and I am SO SO ecstatic for you both!!!!! Big Smile)  

    I will probably still lurk from time to time, and will still post on some of my other boards.  I just need to get away from TTCAL for awhile.  

    Good luck to you all, I hope to see you all on PgAL soon!

    Couldn't have said it better myself.  Take care of yourself, hon. 

     

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  • I'm so sorry hon, do what you need to do to take care of yourself, we're here for you if you need us *HUGS*
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  • Good luck.  (hugs) too b/c I needed a break after my recent loss.  It's totally understandable to take time away.  Stay stong and hope you feel like coming back when you are ready! 

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  • Sometimes we just a break from all of this. I hope your time away brings you the comfort that you need. :::hugs:::
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  • I'm so sorry you are going through this difficult time. I sort of feel left behind too Sad I hope your break gives you what you need, take care and big ((hugs))
  • I am so sorry. I hope to see you on pgal soon.

  • Thank you, ladies, for all of the wonderfully kind and supportive responses.  I seriously teared up reading your posts!  I appreciate all of the good thoughts and I love knowing you all will be here for me when I am ready.  ((hugs)) to you all!
    TTC since January 2010
    BFP 5/9/10. U/S - no heartbeat 6/2/10 (7 weeks). Induced miscarriage 6/7/10.
    Chemical pregnancies 12/2/10, 1/3/11, and 2/7/11.
    dx: RPL due to poor quality uterine lining; begin progesterone January 2011
    BFP 3/10/11. EDD 11/19/11. E arrived 11/15/11!

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  • Please take all the time you need. We will be here for you when you are ready to come back. You need to get better for yourself and your future baby. Lots of hugs to you!
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  • I am sorry.  ((HUGS)) I hope you get a sticky baby soon.
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  • Oh anon, my legal TTCAL friend, I am so sorry for the cp.  ((Hugs)).  Your wit and wisdom are some of the bright spots for me (and probably myriad others) on the Board.  That being said, I can completely understand the desire to get out of the pressure cooker for a while.  ((Yet more hugs)).

    I wish you all the best, and hope to see you next on PgAL, too!

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  • imagesandyd:

    Oh anon, my legal TTCAL friend, I am so sorry for the cp.  ((Hugs)).  Your wit and wisdom are some of the bright spots for me (and probably myriad others) on the Board.  That being said, I can completely understand the desire to get out of the pressure cooker for a while.  ((Yet more hugs)).

    I wish you all the best, and hope to see you next on PgAL, too!

    Aww, thanks so much!  Your post made me smile, which is just what I needed today.  Smile  I hope we both make it to PgAL soon! 

    TTC since January 2010
    BFP 5/9/10. U/S - no heartbeat 6/2/10 (7 weeks). Induced miscarriage 6/7/10.
    Chemical pregnancies 12/2/10, 1/3/11, and 2/7/11.
    dx: RPL due to poor quality uterine lining; begin progesterone January 2011
    BFP 3/10/11. EDD 11/19/11. E arrived 11/15/11!

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  • I am so sorry, GL .
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  • I am so so sorry that you are going through this again. I was really pulling for you to have better news, and I really hope that when you do, you'll come back and find me and tell me! I will miss you (((HUGS)))
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    I am so so sorry that you are going through this again. I was really pulling for you to have better news, and I really hope that when you do, you'll come back and find me and tell me! I will miss you (((HUGS)))

    Thanks Gin!  OF COURSE I will come find you and let you know!  I will miss you too, but you better believe I'll be stalking you on PgAL.  Congrats on the "official" digital today, btw!  I am seriously so stoked for you!!!   ((HUGS))

    TTC since January 2010
    BFP 5/9/10. U/S - no heartbeat 6/2/10 (7 weeks). Induced miscarriage 6/7/10.
    Chemical pregnancies 12/2/10, 1/3/11, and 2/7/11.
    dx: RPL due to poor quality uterine lining; begin progesterone January 2011
    BFP 3/10/11. EDD 11/19/11. E arrived 11/15/11!

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  • ((hugs)) Hope you're feeling better soon. It does get to be too much sometimes.
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    imageitsmegin:
    I am so so sorry that you are going through this again. I was really pulling for you to have better news, and I really hope that when you do, you'll come back and find me and tell me! I will miss you (((HUGS)))

    Thanks Gin!  OF COURSE I will come find you and let you know!  I will miss you too, but you better believe I'll be stalking you on PgAL.  Congrats on the "official" digital today, btw!  I am seriously so stoked for you!!!   ((HUGS))

    I really wanted you to come with me Sad It's so unfair that you're going through this again. Thanks for being there for me through all of this. You deserve nothing but happiness. 

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  • *huge hugs*  I'm so sorry you're feeling this way, I hope you find the peace you need.
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  • (((Hugs))) I am so sorry for your losses.  I understand your need for a break - this whole process is so trying.
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  • I'm so sorry for everything you are going through. I read your blog over my phone, and couldn't comment, but I'm so sorry!

    I hope the break brings you some peace.  (HUGS)

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  • So sorry you are going through this. Some days when I'm really busy at work, I take a break from the board and I'm able to forget about everything for awhile. Take all the time you need, and hopefully we'll all meet on pgal soon. 
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  • I'm so sorry. I hope your break is helpful. Big huge hugs!
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  • I'm so sorry!  I understand how you feel about being left behind.  I hope you come back soon after you have healed.  (((HUGS)))
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  • HUGS. I understand the need for a break, but I hope we see you on PgAL very, very soon.
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  • I'm sorry ((hugs)). I hope this break is exactly what you need.
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  • I'm sorry to see you take a break, but I understand where you're at right now.  ((BIG BIG HUGS)) - I hope to be congratulating you on PgAL really soon.  ((More HUGS))

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