My son is having schoolwork/homework problems at school. We have set some pretty serious consequences for it and this week he has failed to meet the requirements. So, he will be punished, and its so exhausting to follow through with the punishment, that I just want to throw in the towel and let him do what he wants this weekend. I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel at the moment, so I am ready to join him in "cutting off my nose to spite my face". It will be worth it in the end, he will figure his sh!t out (I hope), but getting there makes me want to drink.
One of my cousins, whom I haven't spoken to in about 15 years, FB friended me about a week ago. His SO had their second child yesterday and he posted this morning about how the baby is still in the hospital because of tummy issues.
I almost responded with "Is she BFing?" I gave myself the side-eye for that knee-jerk reaction.
Unable to even.
********************
You don't understand the appeal of Benedict Cumberbatch / think he's fug / don't know who he is? WATCH SHERLOCK. Until you do, your negative opinion of him will not be taken seriously.
I don't understand the need/want for designer purses.
most everything I own is 2nd hand. I got a new coach purse from the outlets for Christmas to replace th fact that I have carries a diaperbag for over 3 years. I love my purse!
I cant go #2 unless my shower curtain is closed. stage fright?
Dawn - Wife of Brian 09/25/2005 - Mother of Eli Jace 03/12/2007 and Kai Evan 10/17/08
I'm still kind of upset that my inlaws showed up 2 hours late to Ella's birthday party... we were planning on having her do her cake and presents at the beginning of the party and then just hang out/ play after that and we ended up changing things around because of them. They drive 2 1/2 hours to get here, but it's your grandchild's birthday... don't be late! Next year I'm not changing plans because of them! I actually really like them and get along well and they haven't done that before, but they had no excuse and just acted like everything was normal when they showed up. Personally, I'd be embarrassed if I showed up that late to anyone's party!
Warning
No formatter is installed for the format bbhtml
I feel like lately whenever I talk about DH I'm complaining and can't think of much to say that's nice. It makes me feel like a total b!tch but I still don't think I'm wrong in being upset/irritated with everything. Mostly, I want to apologize to any/everyone who has has been on the receiving end of all my venting.
We switched DS to a twin bed last week and he has been getting up very early and coming into our room. I know we should just put him back in bed but it is just easier to let him sleep the extra hour or so with us.
I have worked almost 10 hours OT this week and I am so tired and ready for the weekend.
With working the OT I have not gone to the gym at all in about 3 weeks. I need to get it together and get back there. I have gained about 5lbs or so.
Oct 2011 3 1/2 years old.
Robert Williams Birth date 5/16/2008
DH got a letter from the job I wanted him to get yesterday stating they were no longer interested and it broke my heart. I so wanted him to do it again, but it turns out he didn't want to do it anyway. I'm telling myself that there are other plans for us. We are fine, he has a job now I'm just afraid of change.
I really like the show Spartacus on Starz but there are lot of boobs in that show. LOL
Last one: We ALWAYS go to SIL house for everything, and they never come here. We went down there Monday night because H's gparents were there. SIL was "making" dinner for everyone. I'm totally fine with someone not cooking dinner but don't pretend like what you did was hard when you bought a store rotisserie chicken, and microwavable lasagna. NO one thinks I can cook, I cook REAL meals every single night. But even when I invite them up to our home for a cooked meal (not store bought) they don't come. That hurts just a little bit.
Last one: We ALWAYS go to SIL house for everything, and they never come here. We went down there Monday night because H's gparents were there. SIL was "making" dinner for everyone. I'm totally fine with someone not cooking dinner but don't pretend like what you did was hard when you bought a store rotisserie chicken, and microwavable lasagna. NO one thinks I can cook, I cook REAL meals every single night. But even when I invite them up to our home for a cooked meal (not store bought) they don't come. That hurts just a little bit.
Totally hear you on this. And, then if I said anything - its because I lived so far away (Lk. Stevens to Bothell - um sure) and so it was too far for them to drive. But I was expected to drive to them.
mine's about my co-worker - I have 3 co-wokers in my area, we're all relatively equal in position. We're in cubes - all phone conversations are audible.
He talks all lovely dovely ("hey LOVER" "hey baby" and other phrases usually left to the bedroom) to his girlfriend about 20 times a day. Drives me bonkers. not only that but he informed me that because I talk to my husband differently (like an ADULT) that we must not have as good a relationship as they do. SERIOUSLY?!
I have to really try hard not to junkpunch him daily.
Warning
No formatter is installed for the format bbhtml
Last one: We ALWAYS go to SIL house for everything, and they never come here. We went down there Monday night because H's gparents were there. SIL was "making" dinner for everyone. I'm totally fine with someone not cooking dinner but don't pretend like what you did was hard when you bought a store rotisserie chicken, and microwavable lasagna. NO one thinks I can cook, I cook REAL meals every single night. But even when I invite them up to our home for a cooked meal (not store bought) they don't come. That hurts just a little bit.
Totally hear you on this. And, then if I said anything - its because I lived so far away (Lk. Stevens to Bothell - um sure) and so it was too far for them to drive. But I was expected to drive to them.
Weird, IL's live in Bothell too and I'm in Marysville. And MIL uses that excuse too, yet we drive down there at least 4-5 times a month to see them. I have a nice house, and it's clean. Not to mention now SIL got a 55 inch tv and they don't want to watch Football anywhere else. Um we've had one for about 6 years, in HD and they rarely would come here to watch anything. Selfish people I tell you. It's too much work for me to go to their house, their 3 year old girl pretty much is mean to T and we have to walk on egg shells because ya know she's a girl and T's a boy.
DH?s aunt is the same about visiting. She lives in Maple Valley and the rest of the family lives, well, not in MV.She?s bummed we don?t come out every weekend in the summer because she has a pool. Hello! My kid can?t swim!The pool isn?t fenced. Yeah, the goats and llamas are fun for about 10 minutes but how about scooping their poop more regularly?She chose to live in BFE (in relation to everyone else) so I say tough t!tties for her.
And I don?t serve my guests coffee that had a use by date on sometime in 2009 because ?everything stays good in the freezer!?You mean like Walt Disney?
She thinks N will come out and spend weekends by himself with her riding his pony. I can think of 75 different ways for him to die/get injured on the ?farm? so it?s just not happening. Maybe when he?s 11.
Our dang cat is really ticking me off. He purposely goes down my C's room at 5am and meows as loud as he can to wake Cruz up so that we will get up and put him outside (this is usually after I have just fallen back asleep from being up with J) then he has peed in the house twice lately. He is about to find himself an outdoor kitty!! GRRR!
I LOVE Tillman's school. I love how much he learns, the values, the $ value, his teacher, the structure, etc.
Although I love the structure, I am having a hard time with the expectations. Yesterday he got "in trouble" for talking too much. He had to write sentences. Last week, he brought home a test that was graded as a B+ because some of his CURSIVE letters were above or below the dotted line or had some extra space in them. They were perfectly legible. I understand there needs to be standards, and he will improve with some criticism, but it just seems like such high expectations for a little 5 year old kindergartener.
Overall I love the school, I just wish they'd give the little ones a little break.
T-man (07/27/05, 2:52pm, 10 lbs, 2 oz, 22")
My Blog
TTC #2 for a million years: SA normal, CD 23 bloodwork shows nothing amiss, ovulation detected. Next step: ? maybe CD3 bloodwork to check eggs? All out of pocket, so limited IF tests/treatments.
H's aunt has been telling us for years that she wants to watch our babies when we had them, so we were really excited when E came along because we LOVE this aunt and think she's amazing. Well, she's watching E on Wednesdays. Last week, just to be on the safe side, I asked her if she wanted to be paid, thinking that since she volunteered herself! (and she has a FT job as a very well-paid nurse - she's said so before), that she'd say, "no, it's okay, we're family, etc.," but now we're paying her $50/day like everyone else. I'm so frustrated - now I have to rework the whole budget! I think date night might go out the window.
We gave her daughter a book (Skippyjohn Jones) with a stuffed Skippyjohn doll to go with it for Christmas. The book is really cute and we thought she'd enjoy it since we have. She sent us back a thank you card that said "Thanks for the book and stuffed cat. Emma really loves her cat but she'll have to wait until she's older for the book." Huh??? She's two, since when is two too young for a childrens picture book? It seemed really passive aggressive to me and, honestly, a little misguided. I mean, kids don't care what's in a book, they just like to read so to say that she's too young for it just doesn't make sense to me.
She's also super traditional and sent money for Chinese New Year so now we feel like we need to send something to them. Not to mention she always buys clothes for the girls that are two years two big and very season specific. I wish she would just stop giving us gifts so we don't feel obligated to give them to her since we're not exactly close and she's only doing it because she feels like that's what she's supposed to do (again, super traditional).
Our cat peed or sprayed my husband last night as he was rubbing up on his leg. DH was pissed, but I wanted to laugh. Now we got to take him back to the vet again, but still this makes me laugh.
I love photography and studying and practicing and working on this hobby diligently when I have time. I'm improving, people like my work and have done some free shoots...but my camera cannot handle low-light well at all. It's a nice camera and for the most part does a great job b/c I also have a nice lens. But I REALLY REALLY need a new camera and it ticks me off to no end when I have friends who just go out and buy really high end $2000 cameras without blinking who have no freaking clue what they're doing and just take snapshots of their kids. I just want to give them mine and ask them to just let me have theirs' - I'll appreciate it and use it more.
Warning
No formatter is installed for the format bbhtml
I feel like lately whenever I talk about DH I'm complaining and can't think of much to say that's nice. It makes me feel like a total b!tch but I still don't think I'm wrong in being upset/irritated with everything. Mostly, I want to apologize to any/everyone who has has been on the receiving end of all my venting.
THIS. I find myself able to be incredibly patient, loving, etc. to G but don't exercise that same practice with DH (or others sometimes). A good friend and colleague said to me yesterday (from her executive coach that she pays good money for) that she should start being that person she is when she's with her girls, to herself and everyone else. Sometimes I don't feel like I deserve that awesome person that is around my kid.
I had my first emotional, full-blown meltdown last night in probably 8 years. I have thick skin and even though I think I'm an emphathetic person, I don't usually have big cry fests. I didn't sleep and ended up coming in the office to work at 4:30am because it seemed like the most productive use of my time (and after I caught on the RHWofBH reunion on DVR). I just wanted to be by myself. I felt bad I pushed my DH away but I deal with this stuff better by myself. He really tried to help but I don't want anyone's help. Work pressure, body image, my mom's cancer, my sister now has a tumor pressing on a major nerve (trigeminal) and the outcome is very risky, I have a mamogram today because they found a lump and i'm scared to death because i don't want anything to impact G having a mom. I'm 3 weeks behind on one of my classes (darn professor who is okay with stuff being late - I need structure and deadlines, don't they understand that?). I haven't finished my team's evaluations and really don't want to. I can finally wear my kick ass engagement ring (fitting finally!) but not my wedding band, it looks way better with both so I'm not wearing either. I'm actually looking forward to the 5 day break during a work trip to Orlando next week (will miss G but need the time/space to appreciate my awesome DH again). I'm just hoping it's warm this year and not 32 degrees like my trip there last year. I cancelled my spa appt tomorrow because I feel like if I take 2 hours to do that, its 2 hours getting more behind on the list. Perhaps I need to drink more and complain less I'm going with that.
Warning
No formatter is installed for the format bbhtml
I love photography and studying and practicing and working on this hobby diligently when I have time. I'm improving, people like my work and have done some free shoots...but my camera cannot handle low-light well at all. It's a nice camera and for the most part does a great job b/c I also have a nice lens. But I REALLY REALLY need a new camera and it ticks me off to no end when I have friends who just go out and buy really high end $2000 cameras without blinking who have no freaking clue what they're doing and just take snapshots of their kids. I just want to give them mine and ask them to just let me have theirs' - I'll appreciate it and use it more.
I have the same issue! Also, thank for saying photography your "hobby" it makes me so mad that I've studied photography yet ever person with a DSLR now thinks they are going to start their own business and be a "photographer" and they shoot in auto mode and copy other people's ideas. Annoying. (PS: I am not a photographer by trade just hobby these days). Have you thought about getting an external flash? This helps a TON for indoor low light situations as it diffuses the light from faces directly yet still creates a high light situation.
I feel like lately whenever I talk about DH I'm complaining and can't think of much to say that's nice. It makes me feel like a total b!tch but I still don't think I'm wrong in being upset/irritated with everything. Mostly, I want to apologize to any/everyone who has has been on the receiving end of all my venting.
THIS. I find myself able to be incredibly patient, loving, etc. to G but don't exercise that same practice with DH (or others sometimes). A good friend and colleague said to me yesterday (from her executive coach that she pays good money for) that she should start being that person she is when she's with her girls, to herself and everyone else. Sometimes I don't feel like I deserve that awesome person that is around my kid.
I had my first emotional, full-blown meltdown last night in probably 8 years. I have thick skin and even though I think I'm an emphathetic person, I don't usually have big cry fests. I didn't sleep and ended up coming in the office to work at 4:30am because it seemed like the most productive use of my time (and after I caught on the RHWofBH reunion on DVR). I just wanted to be by myself. I felt bad I pushed my DH away but I deal with this stuff better by myself. He really tried to help but I don't want anyone's help. Work pressure, body image, my mom's cancer, my sister now has a tumor pressing on a major nerve (trigeminal) and the outcome is very risky, I have a mamogram today because they found a lump and i'm scared to death because i don't want anything to impact G having a mom. I'm 3 weeks behind on one of my classes (darn professor who is okay with stuff being late - I need structure and deadlines, don't they understand that?). I haven't finished my team's evaluations and really don't want to. I can finally wear my kick ass engagement ring (fitting finally!) but not my wedding band, it looks way better with both so I'm not wearing either. I'm actually looking forward to the 5 day break during a work trip to Orlando next week (will miss G but need the time/space to appreciate my awesome DH again). I'm just hoping it's warm this year and not 32 degrees like my trip there last year. I cancelled my spa appt tomorrow because I feel like if I take 2 hours to do that, its 2 hours getting more behind on the list. Perhaps I need to drink more and complain less I'm going with that.
It bothers me that my DS likes his daycare so much. He talks about his teachers, cries when I come to pick him up and the other day said "olga mama" and I cried. It's not enough that I can't be a stay at home mom, but the fact that my kid aparantly doesn't want me to be is killing me. "Luckily" my other DS cries when I drop him off and runs to me when I pick him up... one is social and the other is not. I get it's not about me, it's about them - but right now, it's about me and my DS is hurting my feelings! lol.
T-man (07/27/05, 2:52pm, 10 lbs, 2 oz, 22")
My Blog
TTC #2 for a million years: SA normal, CD 23 bloodwork shows nothing amiss, ovulation detected. Next step: ? maybe CD3 bloodwork to check eggs? All out of pocket, so limited IF tests/treatments.
I finally (after almost 5.5 months PP) ditched my maternity jeans and bought real jeans. I wish I had done it sooner. As displeased as I was with the size I had to buy, they fit so much better and I make me feel better about myself.
Despite how much I am looking forward to ditching the pump when DS turns one, I am going to miss these boobs. I don't want to go back to the land of small.
I feel like lately whenever I talk about DH I'm complaining and can't think of much to say that's nice. It makes me feel like a total b!tch but I still don't think I'm wrong in being upset/irritated with everything. Mostly, I want to apologize to any/everyone who has has been on the receiving end of all my venting.
THIS. I find myself able to be incredibly patient, loving, etc. to G but don't exercise that same practice with DH (or others sometimes). A good friend and colleague said to me yesterday (from her executive coach that she pays good money for) that she should start being that person she is when she's with her girls, to herself and everyone else. Sometimes I don't feel like I deserve that awesome person that is around my kid.
I had my first emotional, full-blown meltdown last night in probably 8 years. I have thick skin and even though I think I'm an emphathetic person, I don't usually have big cry fests. I didn't sleep and ended up coming in the office to work at 4:30am because it seemed like the most productive use of my time (and after I caught on the RHWofBH reunion on DVR). I just wanted to be by myself. I felt bad I pushed my DH away but I deal with this stuff better by myself. He really tried to help but I don't want anyone's help. Work pressure, body image, my mom's cancer, my sister now has a tumor pressing on a major nerve (trigeminal) and the outcome is very risky, I have a mamogram today because they found a lump and i'm scared to death because i don't want anything to impact G having a mom. I'm 3 weeks behind on one of my classes (darn professor who is okay with stuff being late - I need structure and deadlines, don't they understand that?). I haven't finished my team's evaluations and really don't want to. I can finally wear my kick ass engagement ring (fitting finally!) but not my wedding band, it looks way better with both so I'm not wearing either. I'm actually looking forward to the 5 day break during a work trip to Orlando next week (will miss G but need the time/space to appreciate my awesome DH again). I'm just hoping it's warm this year and not 32 degrees like my trip there last year. I cancelled my spa appt tomorrow because I feel like if I take 2 hours to do that, its 2 hours getting more behind on the list. Perhaps I need to drink more and complain less I'm going with that.
Big, big hugs and lots of good thoughts coming your way!
I didn't want to sound like 'Debbie Downer' but it always feels good to get it out. especially here with FF. And I feel 110% better than at 4:30 this morning. Once you say it all out loud, you can look at it in pieces and it doesn't seem nearly as overwhelming. I have a kick-arse life and these are just little hurdles. It makes the wine at the end of the day, feel much deserved.
And I like purses, designer and not. I love purses and I'm not afraid to say so (shoes and lip gloss too).
Warning
No formatter is installed for the format bbhtml
We are in the final bitter end of finishing the sheds that were started last May.All that needs to be done is the doors sealed (or something) and then hung.Like all of DHs projects the final items take forever.We?re 18mo out from ?finishing? the kitchen yet there still isn?t the transition piece between the floors down.15mo from the home office and the splattered paint hasn?t been cleaned up off the trim.It took 2 years to get the backsplash in on the bathroom sink.
I want to say no more projects until all these items are finished, but the next in line are the things I want so I have no leverage.
I'm irritated by all the ignorant people, especially in the south, saying "global warming my azz. It's snowing." Global warming doesn't mean it will be warm all the time everywhere. Extreme weather is part of it.
And I think sex is messy. Sometimes a condom would make for nicer clean up on my part.
Warning
No formatter is installed for the format bbhtml
I didn't want to sound like 'Debbie Downer' but it always feels good to get it out. especially here with FF. And I feel 110% better than at 4:30 this morning. Once you say it all out loud, you can look at it in pieces and it doesn't seem nearly as overwhelming. I have a kick-arse life and these are just little hurdles. It makes the wine at the end of the day, feel much deserved.
And I like purses, designer and not. I love purses and I'm not afraid to say so (shoes and lip gloss too).
I'm so glad! I was reading an article that if you actively feel greatful for something; it reduces anxiety and stress. I agree, saying it outloud allows you to acknowledge that something is off balance and work toward fixing it.
I posted an ad on a care website for a nanny share. Two of the girls/women who've emailed me back have been named Luvlee and Ivorry. Really?! I cannot take them seriously, I just deleted their emails. Another reason not to give your kids "yooneek" names.
Warning
No formatter is installed for the format bbhtml
Re: FFFC
My son is having schoolwork/homework problems at school. We have set some pretty serious consequences for it and this week he has failed to meet the requirements. So, he will be punished, and its so exhausting to follow through with the punishment, that I just want to throw in the towel and let him do what he wants this weekend. I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel at the moment, so I am ready to join him in "cutting off my nose to spite my face". It will be worth it in the end, he will figure his sh!t out (I hope), but getting there makes me want to drink.
One of my cousins, whom I haven't spoken to in about 15 years, FB friended me about a week ago. His SO had their second child yesterday and he posted this morning about how the baby is still in the hospital because of tummy issues.
I almost responded with "Is she BFing?" I gave myself the side-eye for that knee-jerk reaction.
Unable to even.
********************
You don't understand the appeal of Benedict Cumberbatch / think he's fug / don't know who he is? WATCH SHERLOCK. Until you do, your negative opinion of him will not be taken seriously.
most everything I own is 2nd hand. I got a new coach purse from the outlets for Christmas to replace th fact that I have carries a diaperbag for over 3 years. I love my purse!
I cant go #2 unless my shower curtain is closed. stage fright?
stupid f&^$ing multiple posts!
Bio & Blog | The Chic Bambino | Bumps & Babies Fair
Bio & Blog | The Chic Bambino | Bumps & Babies Fair
Oct 2011 3 1/2 years old.
Robert Williams Birth date 5/16/2008
DH got a letter from the job I wanted him to get yesterday stating they were no longer interested and it broke my heart. I so wanted him to do it again, but it turns out he didn't want to do it anyway. I'm telling myself that there are other plans for us. We are fine, he has a job now I'm just afraid of change.
I really like the show Spartacus on Starz but there are lot of boobs in that show. LOL
Last one: We ALWAYS go to SIL house for everything, and they never come here. We went down there Monday night because H's gparents were there. SIL was "making" dinner for everyone. I'm totally fine with someone not cooking dinner but don't pretend like what you did was hard when you bought a store rotisserie chicken, and microwavable lasagna. NO one thinks I can cook, I cook REAL meals every single night. But even when I invite them up to our home for a cooked meal (not store bought) they don't come. That hurts just a little bit.
Totally hear you on this. And, then if I said anything - its because I lived so far away (Lk. Stevens to Bothell - um sure) and so it was too far for them to drive. But I was expected to drive to them.
Oy boy - my first FFFC!
mine's about my co-worker - I have 3 co-wokers in my area, we're all relatively equal in position. We're in cubes - all phone conversations are audible.
He talks all lovely dovely ("hey LOVER" "hey baby" and other phrases usually left to the bedroom) to his girlfriend about 20 times a day. Drives me bonkers. not only that but he informed me that because I talk to my husband differently (like an ADULT) that we must not have as good a relationship as they do. SERIOUSLY?!
I have to really try hard not to junkpunch him daily.
I don?t think Coach is designer. Brand name, yes but not designer.
I listen to Focus on the Family on the radio if I?m driving home past 7.
DH was amazed at my Soap.com order this week: bounce dryer sheets and a vibrator. God bless the internet.
Weird, IL's live in Bothell too and I'm in Marysville. And MIL uses that excuse too, yet we drive down there at least 4-5 times a month to see them. I have a nice house, and it's clean. Not to mention now SIL got a 55 inch tv and they don't want to watch Football anywhere else. Um we've had one for about 6 years, in HD and they rarely would come here to watch anything. Selfish people I tell you. It's too much work for me to go to their house, their 3 year old girl pretty much is mean to T and we have to walk on egg shells because ya know she's a girl and T's a boy.
DH?s aunt is the same about visiting. She lives in Maple Valley and the rest of the family lives, well, not in MV. She?s bummed we don?t come out every weekend in the summer because she has a pool. Hello! My kid can?t swim! The pool isn?t fenced. Yeah, the goats and llamas are fun for about 10 minutes but how about scooping their poop more regularly? She chose to live in BFE (in relation to everyone else) so I say tough t!tties for her.
And I don?t serve my guests coffee that had a use by date on sometime in 2009 because ?everything stays good in the freezer!? You mean like Walt Disney?
She thinks N will come out and spend weekends by himself with her riding his pony. I can think of 75 different ways for him to die/get injured on the ?farm? so it?s just not happening. Maybe when he?s 11.
I like them. I think the quality is better. I like the styles. I like collecting them and I can afford them. KWIM?
And I also don't think that Coach is designer.
Heavens to Murgatroyd Blog
Unofficial Baby Names Sticky Note: New and Old| Local Bumpie Website
You should get the info from Michelle to go in to phillips for an u/s! They told me about Jagger being a boy at 15 weeks : )
I have a vent instead. I hope that's okay.
I LOVE Tillman's school. I love how much he learns, the values, the $ value, his teacher, the structure, etc.
Although I love the structure, I am having a hard time with the expectations. Yesterday he got "in trouble" for talking too much. He had to write sentences. Last week, he brought home a test that was graded as a B+ because some of his CURSIVE letters were above or below the dotted line or had some extra space in them. They were perfectly legible. I understand there needs to be standards, and he will improve with some criticism, but it just seems like such high expectations for a little 5 year old kindergartener.
Overall I love the school, I just wish they'd give the little ones a little break.
TTC #2 for a million years: SA normal, CD 23 bloodwork shows nothing amiss, ovulation detected. Next step: ? maybe CD3 bloodwork to check eggs? All out of pocket, so limited IF tests/treatments.
DHs cousin drives me nuts.
We gave her daughter a book (Skippyjohn Jones) with a stuffed Skippyjohn doll to go with it for Christmas. The book is really cute and we thought she'd enjoy it since we have. She sent us back a thank you card that said "Thanks for the book and stuffed cat. Emma really loves her cat but she'll have to wait until she's older for the book." Huh??? She's two, since when is two too young for a childrens picture book? It seemed really passive aggressive to me and, honestly, a little misguided. I mean, kids don't care what's in a book, they just like to read so to say that she's too young for it just doesn't make sense to me.
She's also super traditional and sent money for Chinese New Year so now we feel like we need to send something to them. Not to mention she always buys clothes for the girls that are two years two big and very season specific. I wish she would just stop giving us gifts so we don't feel obligated to give them to her since we're not exactly close and she's only doing it because she feels like that's what she's supposed to do (again, super traditional).
I love photography and studying and practicing and working on this hobby diligently when I have time. I'm improving, people like my work and have done some free shoots...but my camera cannot handle low-light well at all. It's a nice camera and for the most part does a great job b/c I also have a nice lens. But I REALLY REALLY need a new camera and it ticks me off to no end when I have friends who just go out and buy really high end $2000 cameras without blinking who have no freaking clue what they're doing and just take snapshots of their kids. I just want to give them mine and ask them to just let me have theirs' - I'll appreciate it and use it more.
THIS. I find myself able to be incredibly patient, loving, etc. to G but don't exercise that same practice with DH (or others sometimes). A good friend and colleague said to me yesterday (from her executive coach that she pays good money for) that she should start being that person she is when she's with her girls, to herself and everyone else. Sometimes I don't feel like I deserve that awesome person that is around my kid.
I had my first emotional, full-blown meltdown last night in probably 8 years. I have thick skin and even though I think I'm an emphathetic person, I don't usually have big cry fests. I didn't sleep and ended up coming in the office to work at 4:30am because it seemed like the most productive use of my time (and after I caught on the RHWofBH reunion on DVR). I just wanted to be by myself. I felt bad I pushed my DH away but I deal with this stuff better by myself. He really tried to help but I don't want anyone's help. Work pressure, body image, my mom's cancer, my sister now has a tumor pressing on a major nerve (trigeminal) and the outcome is very risky, I have a mamogram today because they found a lump and i'm scared to death because i don't want anything to impact G having a mom. I'm 3 weeks behind on one of my classes (darn professor who is okay with stuff being late - I need structure and deadlines, don't they understand that?). I haven't finished my team's evaluations and really don't want to. I can finally wear my kick ass engagement ring (fitting finally!) but not my wedding band, it looks way better with both so I'm not wearing either. I'm actually looking forward to the 5 day break during a work trip to Orlando next week (will miss G but need the time/space to appreciate my awesome DH again). I'm just hoping it's warm this year and not 32 degrees like my trip there last year. I cancelled my spa appt tomorrow because I feel like if I take 2 hours to do that, its 2 hours getting more behind on the list. Perhaps I need to drink more and complain less
I'm going with that.
I have the same issue! Also, thank for saying photography your "hobby" it makes me so mad that I've studied photography yet ever person with a DSLR now thinks they are going to start their own business and be a "photographer" and they shoot in auto mode and copy other people's ideas. Annoying. (PS: I am not a photographer by trade just hobby these days). Have you thought about getting an external flash? This helps a TON for indoor low light situations as it diffuses the light from faces directly yet still creates a high light situation.
Craft Blog: MommyBrained...
((HUGS)) woman!
Keep us posted on how you are doing.
Craft Blog: MommyBrained...
I'm so sorry.
TTC #2 for a million years: SA normal, CD 23 bloodwork shows nothing amiss, ovulation detected. Next step: ? maybe CD3 bloodwork to check eggs? All out of pocket, so limited IF tests/treatments.
I finally (after almost 5.5 months PP) ditched my maternity jeans and bought real jeans. I wish I had done it sooner. As displeased as I was with the size I had to buy, they fit so much better and I make me feel better about myself.
Despite how much I am looking forward to ditching the pump when DS turns one, I am going to miss these boobs. I don't want to go back to the land of small.
Big, big hugs and lots of good thoughts coming your way!
I didn't want to sound like 'Debbie Downer' but it always feels good to get it out. especially here with FF. And I feel 110% better than at 4:30 this morning. Once you say it all out loud, you can look at it in pieces and it doesn't seem nearly as overwhelming. I have a kick-arse life and these are just little hurdles. It makes the wine at the end of the day, feel much deserved.
And I like purses, designer and not. I love purses and I'm not afraid to say so (shoes and lip gloss too).
I have another.
We are in the final bitter end of finishing the sheds that were started last May. All that needs to be done is the doors sealed (or something) and then hung. Like all of DHs projects the final items take forever. We?re 18mo out from ?finishing? the kitchen yet there still isn?t the transition piece between the floors down. 15mo from the home office and the splattered paint hasn?t been cleaned up off the trim. It took 2 years to get the backsplash in on the bathroom sink.
I want to say no more projects until all these items are finished, but the next in line are the things I want so I have no leverage.
I'm irritated by all the ignorant people, especially in the south, saying "global warming my azz. It's snowing." Global warming doesn't mean it will be warm all the time everywhere. Extreme weather is part of it.
And I think sex is messy. Sometimes a condom would make for nicer clean up on my part.
I'm so glad! I was reading an article that if you actively feel greatful for something; it reduces anxiety and stress. I agree, saying it outloud allows you to acknowledge that something is off balance and work toward fixing it.
Craft Blog: MommyBrained...
Since this is flame free...
I posted an ad on a care website for a nanny share. Two of the girls/women who've emailed me back have been named Luvlee and Ivorry. Really?! I cannot take them seriously, I just deleted their emails. Another reason not to give your kids "yooneek" names.