Buena?

shotzie · January 2011

Has anyone heard from Buena lately? She hasn't updated her blog in a while. I was wondering how Elijah is doing.

Serendipitie · January 2011

I haven't heard from her either. Hope all is well

MarcyIam · January 2011

I check her blog periodically, too. I think I saw her on this board a while back, but that's about it.

buenaestrella77 · January 2011

Hello!!

I sometimes do a drive by and attempt to write, but can't even begin to do an update. Wouldn't even know where to begin, part of the reason I haven't updated my blog. I have no idea what to write.

We came home with our son on Oct.18 and it has been quite the roller coaster ride. This motherhood thing did not come easy and in fact I developed an intense case of post partum anxiety, or maybe it was already there since my son was in the NICU, but everything hit me really hard when we finally came home. It was absolutely debilitating, I couldn't even get out of bed and I was terrified of being left alone with the baby or even myself. I felt that I would do something that would cause him to get sick and go back to the hospital. I had these horrible panic attacks and my old self was gone, I just felt doom. I thought surviving the 104 days my son was in the NICU meant all was okay, but nope. That was one of the worst things I've ever been through. I thought about everything we went through to get Elijah here and now I couldn't be a mom. It was crushing. Because of the possibility of post traumatic stress from the crash c-section, the NICU, plus all the moments where we just didn't know what -- I quickly went to get help and I am sooooo happy and grateful to say we are all doing very well. I see a therapist and my family has been an incredibly source of support, both my family and my in laws. It was truly inspiring to feel the love and care they showed us and continue to, actually.

We take it day by day and I feel like my old self. My days are crazy busy with Elijah - feedings, meds, appointments, nebulizer treatments (he's still on a little oxygen, just through cold/flu/RSV season), exercises, etc and I am loving every single second. And thank God he seems to be really thriving, his doctors are very happy with his progress and development.

Oh and I can't even begin to tell you the amazing father my kid has. I can't write too much or I'll start balling, but I truly am married to a wonderful man. God blessed my kid with two parents that are on 110%, if I dropped dead, my H could totally be mom and dad to Elijah.

Now we are just looking forward to cold/flu/rsv season to be over so we can get the green light to leave the house and join the rest of the world and we're planning Elijah's christening. I'm still laid off, but living with my mom helps tremendously financially and allows me to focus on Elijah, plus she's awesome to live with and a great help. The only downside, still creeps me out to have sex in my parents' house, much to my H dismay

It's now starting to feel like I'm getting my life back and things are getting into a groove. Feels lovely.

Oh how I've missed you ladies

xoxo

Serendipitie · January 2011

I'm so glad you're feeling better! (((HUGS))) we miss you but do what you need to do. xoxo

Lelly · January 2011

Hugs and lots of love Buena! Take care of yourself!

shotzie · January 2011

You have been through so much. I'm glad you've gotten the support you need. It's so hard to cope with so many difficult events in such a short amount of time. I hope Elijah continues to thrive and that you continue to feel better. Thanks for the update, it's great to hear from you! ((Hugs))

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