Just for my sanity I need to step away form this board.
I am so broken right now, I feel so awful about myself and I'm in a dark place. My last round of Injections just failed, and with my insurance ending on Jan 31st, I don't know if my new insurance will cover Infertility and at what percentage.
I feel like I am back to before I got pregnat with the triplets, cycle after cycle and BFN after BFN, this went on for years. I am starting to feel sorry for my husband as he has a wife who is broken and might not be able to give him a healthy baby. I feel like I am being punished for something I did.
I can't even describe how low I feel. I am not in a good spot. Infertility sucks..
So I'll probably lurk but right now I feel so bitter for some that have been so lucky to not have to struggle.
Good luck to everyone, hopefully when I'm back I'll know no one on this board.
Re: Board Break...
Huge ((hugs)). I am so sorry for how you are feeling and your post brought me to tears. My journey has not been as long as yours but I understand the feeling of feeling like I am letting my husband down. You are a very strong person and I hope you are able to find some peace and relaxation.
I will cross my fingers that your new insurance is able to cover everything you need. You deserve the best and you will be an amazing mom.
ITS A BOY!!!! Born 11/13/11 BFP #4: 10/29/12 edd 7/11/12
Missed M/C discoverd at 10w5d measuring 6w6d on 12/3/10 said goodbye 12/12/10 EDD 6/26/11 "this too shall pass"
DS Born 9/29/2005 via c-section (breech)
BFP #3 3/7/11 - EDD 11/17/11
Betas: @14dpo-182 @18dpo-854!! @21dpo-3124!!!
3-27-11 150 BPM!!!!
He's a BOY!!!! Kieran Thomas
*So proud and so lucky to be the mommy of two beautiful little girls
and one handsome little man*
RJ~5.17.2005~born @ 37w due to IUGR~4lbs 15ozs
Al~4.5.2008~born big and healthy @ 38w~7lbs 9.5ozs
Lil man~5.20.2011~born big and healthy @ 39w (after one he!! of a pregnancy)~8lbs 1oz
This exactly....I took a break myself recently because I felt so down. Huge hugs and I hope you find a way through this to end up in a positive place.
BFP #2- 2/1/11,bleeding- 2/6/11, natural m/c @ 5wks
BFP #3- 4/29/11 - DS born 12/31/11
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BFP #2- 2/1/11,bleeding- 2/6/11, natural m/c @ 5wks
BFP #3- 4/29/11 - DS born 12/31/11
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BFP #1 - 11/16/10 CP 12/1/10
Our team green turned into team pink!
BFP #2 17dpo - 47, 19dpo - 114 Chart
b2b Injectable IUI #1 7/25/10 & 7/26/10 = BFP beta 14dpIUI = 133 MC 9/14 at 9 weeks
b2b Injectable IUI #2 12/5/10 & 12/6/10 = BFN
IVF #1 ER 3/28/11 ET 3 embryos 3/31/11= BFN
b2b Injectable IUI#3 6/28/11 & 6/29/11 = BFN
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Submitted Adoption Application on 6/1/2011
Homestudy 7/19/2011
IVF#2 CX due to Adoption Match
We were blessed with our daughter through the gift of adoption
IVF #2.1 ET 2 embryos 2/14/13 7 frosties
Dx with Antiphospholipid Antibody Syndrome (APS)
BFP #4 5/14/12
5/17/12...1st Betas- 176, P4 3.6
5/22/12...2nd Betas- 207, P4 6.1 (MC confirmed)
I am so sorry that you are hurting, and hope that your break is restorative. Your in-depth knowledge and hlepful advice (as well as your wicked sense of humor) will be missed.
Sending T&P for healing your way.
BFP #1 5/2010 - Missed m/c at 8 weeks
BFP #2 2/2011
Baby G welcomed with love and relief 10/2011
Surprise BFP 1/8/2013...say what? Baby A arrived 9/2013
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{{{Huge Hugs}}} I'm so sorry for what you are going through and what you have gone through in the past. You have given all of us some very good advice and we all appreciate all you have done for this board. We will all be thinking of you and will have our FX that your new insurance will cover whatever you need.
Just think of all the housework you can get done when we aren't sucking up all your time
Take the time you need to heal your heart. I'm sure I'll still be here when you get back.
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Surprise BFP 11/13/10 -- MC 12/26/10
Chem Preg and D&C in 2005
MC in 2001
Dx: MFI- 3% morph
IUIs: Gonal-F + Ovidrel + b2b IUI= BFNs
IVF with ICSI= BFP! EDD 11/25/11
3/18- Beta #1 452! 3/20- Beta #2 1,026!! 3/27- First u/s- TWINS!
Our twin boys arrived at 36w5d due to IUGR and a growth discordance
Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.
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1st pregnancy: BFP- 6/28/09 - Found out we lost our little girl on 10/9/09 at 19w 4d - D&E- 10/14/09
June 2010, corrective surgery for Septate Uterus and large fibroids
2nd pregnancy: BFP- 10/18/10 - Slow rising, non-doubling HCGs, no heart beat. Non-viable pregnancy, D&C- 11/12/10
Started Metformin 6/30/11, Started Clomid 7/20/11 - Unsuccessful
HSG and Laparoscopic surgery revealed blocked tubes and lots of scar tissue...IVF here we come!!!
Surprise BFP naturally!!! IT'S A BOY!!!
BFP-2/4/10 EDD-9/27/10 M/C-2/11/10 7w3d D&C and Methotrexate-2/19/10
BFP-11/21/10 M/C-11/25/10
Clomid Cycle #1-BFN
Clomid Cycle #2-BFP-1/18/2011 M/C-1/26/2011
BFP-5/18/11 Riley arrived 2/3/12 8lbs6oz 21.5in
Because of the great "Snow"vember of 2015, my medicated cycle was cancelled. However, we were blessed with our little rainbow baby due on 8/14/15! Baby J had other plans and decided to make his grand ole entrance on 7/4/2015!
Surprise! Our little girl entered this world on 12/8/2016 after her eviction notice was long past due. Our little turkey baby turned into a snow baby!
BFP#1: 7/14/10. EDD: 3/19/11--MMC-- D&C 9/2/10.
BFP#2: 12:22/10.EDD: 8/30/11 C/P 12/25/10
BFP#3: 10/26/11 EDD: 7/2/12-- Daniel born 7/14/12. My rainbow baby! BFP #4: 2.22/15 EDD: 11/4/15 C/P 2/28/15 BFP #5: 4/5/15 EDD 12/11/15 (Ectopic Pregnancy)
BFP #6: 3/2/16 EDD 11/5/16

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This, and I'm sorry Autumn, I hope your body will cooperate soon and your new insurance turns out to be even better than your last. *BIG SQUISHY HUGS*
Oh Amye I am so sorry you are feeling like this. I hope you can take care of yourself and DH during your break. I sure will miss you around here! Sending you tons of love!!!!
*hugs*
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Bean - BFP May 26, 2010. EDD Feb 3, 2011. Natural Miscarriage 8w5d - June 29, 2010.
Pumpkin - BFP Feb 8, 2011. EDD Oct 21, 2011. Natural Miscarriage 6w3d - Feb 28, 2011.
May 2015: IUI#2 - nada.
I just want to send you big (((hugs))). All of us will sure miss you! You need to take the time to take care of you and find some peace in your heart. I wish you the best and hope that you do not need to return to this board and can go straight to Pgal. ((hugs))
I hope you find your sanity while you away and I'll definetly miss you! I SO hope you get your take home baby soon!
Huge Hugs Amye.
BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
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BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12