Yesterday our truck decided to break down as my FI was on his way home from the bank. Perfect just what we need to put more money into it. Its like a bottomless pit. So we had it towed to a shop down the street. Turns out the fuel pump was broken. He had a spare one that he had bought for his sisters car but it didnt fit. Luckily it fit ours. So he took it to the shop this morning and they fixed it. But there went $300.
So then we were sitting eating lunch when MIL calls to find out what SS wants for Christmas so she can go do her shopping. So FI talks to her and tells her a few ideas. They talk a little more. After FI gets off the phone with his mom he is just sitting there staring out the window and getting teared up. Now FI isnt a really emotional/sensitive guy so I knew that something was wrong. I asked him with no response what was wrong. So now I am crying cause Im scared of what he is going to tell me.
I sat there holding him for about 5 minutes when he finally told me what is wrong. His mom has cancer. She found out on Monday and told him today. He is the oldest of 4 and she doesnt want anyone else to know. Only FI, me and FIL until she gets more results.
She was very vague about it. From what I understand the drs arent saying what type of cancer it is but something with her Lymphnodes. They also dont know how far it has spread. All I know is she is having surgery on Wednesday and well know more from there.
I really am very scared for her. She is such a great woman. And I just keep praying that everything will be okay.
But really when is enough enough. When will our "bad luck" end. I feel like 2010 has been nothing but low blows thrown at us. Its been one thing after another. From everything with the baby, to financial stuff, to other family problems and now this. I dont want to bring religion into this. But I was brought up Catholic and through everything I have been trying to have faith and not lose that trust in God. But now it just seems so hopeless to me. Whats the point.
I am so ready for a new year and a fresh start with 2011.
Sorry I had to get this all out. I am sorry if some of it doesnt make sense Im still trying to process it all.
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BFP #3: 10/2011 ectopic 11/2011 (right tube removed, learned left tube was probably nonfunctional due to scar tissue from infection after m/c)
3 failed IUIs, IVF #1: 18R, 12M, 10F, 3 poor quality 5d embryos transferred= BFP #4!!!!!
Betas: 9dp5dt: 64 ~14dp5dt: 91 (expecting miscarriage, doubling time of 236 hours) ~16dp5dt: 200~18dp5dt: 500
First Ultrasound at 6w2d revealed two sacs, only one with a heartbeat
LK arrived after 42 weeks on August 14, 2013! Beautiful, healthy, and happy!
TTC#2: IVF booked for April 2015
Surprise BFP#5 February 19, 2015 EDD: November 2, 2015
Betas: 10dpo: 10, 14dpo: 77, 17dpo: 270
First Ultrasound at 5w1d showed a miracle UTE baby! And right ovary ovulation to left fallopian tube.
JD arrived at 38 weeks on October 20, 2015.
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Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.
I'm so sorry. I'm waiting for 2010 to be over too. It's been a sh!tty year. 2011 has got to be better!
My T&Ps are with your MIL. Keep us posted. It must be a very tough time for your DH. I really hope your MIL's surgery goes well on Wednesday. ((hugs))
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5/17/12...1st Betas- 176, P4 3.6
5/22/12...2nd Betas- 207, P4 6.1 (MC confirmed)