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Just a vent...

vitanvitan member
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I'm going through the stages of grief. I was sad the day it happened, better the next. Was okay the next couple of days, felt guilty yesterday and today I'm just pissed. Pissed at the world. I am on the shortest fuse and even ready to pounce on DH who has been my rock. I want today to be over so I can go home and walk my dog and then sulk. Maybe punch a pillow. Maybe punch a wall, I don't know. I'm just done with today.

Sorry to be an AW but since not that many people know (see previous post), I felt safe to post here. Hell. Go ahead and post whatever you're feeling. PUNCH that proverbial wall. URGH.

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  • julesjbjulesjb member
    I couldnt agree with you more. I am going through my second loss in 4 months and Im mad as hell. The first one rocked my world...I was devastated. Its not like Im not this time but it is a possible ectopic and its been a rollercoaster so I find myself mad at everyone, mad at perfect strangers in the store, driving, just so mad. Like you said even my mad at my DH and he has been great.  I know its all part of the process and the hormones but man I miss feeling like me.
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  • haziedazehaziedaze member
    I'm 2 months out since my loss and I'm finding that it hasn't been a linear path. I've gone from sad to mad to acceptance back to mad then to guilt. Each stage has been less intense subsequent times around, which is probably part of the healing process. Punching something sounds good today... I may join you.
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  • hmclaughlin10hmclaughlin10 member

    It seems like things have to get worse before they can get better. We lost 2 weeks ago today and I still have that anger built up inside of me. The DH and I have been fighting over the tiniest things and I just keep trying to push him away, when in reality I need him by me. My eyes are still bloodshot/puffed up from crying every day. I completely understand what you are going through and I wish these emotions would just go away. Keep your head up, hopefully with time it will get better.

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  • dana1318adana1318a

    It will be one month on the 10th since our loss.  And I'm feeling guilty lately.  Because I haven't cried in 4 days.  Because the sight of a baby makes me smile.  Because DH and I are beginning to look forward to trying again (even though it will still be a few months until we do).  Because it was my body that failed us, and I feel like I took something from DH that I can never replace. 

    And I'm so angry.  I'm furious with my SIL for never once acknowledging our loss.  I understand it's an awkward situation, but not even a text to say, "How are you feeling?".  Nothing.  The first time I heard from her, was 2 weeks after our loss.  She texted me, "Hey you're coming up for Thanksgiving right?  Can you bring my birth control that I left at your house?  We can meet up for drinks! :) "  Sorry, but not one part of that text makes me want to " :) ".  And I'm angry that I no longer believe in Karma.  I have tried my entire life to be a good person, and anytime something bad happened to me, I would say to myself, Karma will kick in one of these days.  Well, I've had a few too many traumatic experiences in my life to believe that anymore.  Karma is a fairy tale.

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  • eec129eec129 member
    imageVitan:

    I'm going through the stages of grief. I was sad the day it happened, better the next. Was okay the next couple of days, felt guilty yesterday and today I'm just pissed. Pissed at the world. I am on the shortest fuse and even ready to pounce on DH who has been my rock. I want today to be over so I can go home and walk my dog and then sulk. Maybe punch a pillow. Maybe punch a wall, I don't know. I'm just done with today.

    Sorry to be an AW but since not that many people know (see previous post), I felt safe to post here. Hell. Go ahead and post whatever you're feeling. PUNCH that proverbial wall. URGH.

    Hi there - I remember you from the July board and also from GP. You were really nice to me when I posted about my loss on GP. I appreciated your kind words...and now I see you are going through the same thing I did so I wanted to reach out. I am so sorry. I have noticed it goes in waves, but I am finally starting to feel a little better and look towards the future. We just have to hang in there.

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  • vitanvitan member
    imageeec129:

    Hi there - I remember you from the July board and also from GP. You were really nice to me when I posted about my loss on GP. I appreciated your kind words...and now I see you are going through the same thing I did so I wanted to reach out. I am so sorry. I have noticed it goes in waves, but I am finally starting to feel a little better and look towards the future. We just have to hang in there.

    Eec129 - Thank you for your kind words! And I still admire your strength but you're right, we have to look to the future. I hope you enjoy your vacation. :o)

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