Infertility

BETA= Negative

I can't do thiis anymore.  I knew it.  I can't stop crying.  I hate myself tHia is never gonna happen I am completely broken.  I feel so alone, broke, and no where to turn.

I hate this. 

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Re: BETA= Negative

  • Koyn, I'm so sorry.  Sending lots of hugs.
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  • I am so, so, so sorry it did not work for you.  You don't deserve this to be happening, and I so wish I could make it better.  I am just so heartbroken for you.
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  • I am so sorry ::hugs:: Im here to listen if you want to chat. 

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  • I am so so sorry...

    Sending lots of love and huge (((hugs))) your way

    SAIFW
    TTC since 2008 dx PCOS & MFI
    Clomid/Femara no "O"
    IVF #1 BFN
    FET #1 cancelled for biopsy
    FET #1.2 c/p, July 2012 c/p
    IUI #1 & 1.2 canceled
    IVF #2 ER 12/1, Freeze all due to OHSS
    FET #2.1 cancelled due to DVT risk, FET #2.2 Jan 2013
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  • Oh no! I'm so so so sorry (((hugs)))
    Stacy
    PCOS, RPL, & Anti Cardiolipin Antibody
  • ((hugs)) I'm so sorry. I just got my beta BFN call, too.
    Trying to grow our family with both fertility treatments and adoption since March 2009 
    IUIs#1-4 = BFN, IVF#1 = c/p, IVF#2 = OHSS, FET#1=BFP
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  • Fuuck.

    I'm so, so sorry.

    ((huge hugs))

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  • I am so, so very sorry. I am mad and sad for you. This is just so unfair. Biggest of ((((HUGS))))
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  • I am so so so sorry :(
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  • I am soo soo sorry. I wish I had better words for you. ((HUGS))
    Mommies to 5 fur babies!
    TTC#1 since 2004
    LGBT
    4 cycles @ home with known donor - BFN
    RE un-medicated IUI cycles # 1-7= BFN
    NEW RE Clomid 50mg/ Ovidrel/ IUI #8 BFN
    Took long break
    Nov 2009 - Clomid 50mg/ Ovidrel/IUI #9 = BFP
    Beta 12/4 - 10...Beta #2 12/7- 28 Beta #3 12/9 - 80!
    1st sonogram 12/28 - slow hb and growth
    m/c 1/1/2010 Courtland 8w0d
    Nov 2010 cycle cancelled - polyp removal/hysteroscopy
    April 4 2011 - IUI #10 BFFN
    July 5, 2011 - #11 BFFN AMH .62 Boo
  • I'm so sorry.  It's not fair.  <<<HUGS>>>
    IVF #3 = Feb 2012
    beta#1 3/21 (14dp3dt)=413, beta#2 3/23 (16dp3dt)=785, u/s 4/11
    EDD 11/25/12
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  • I am so, so sorry and so sad for you.

    Sending (((hugs)))

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  • Koyn, I don't know what to say but I'm so frickin' sorry -  this is so unfair and you deserve so much more.  


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  • Oh, Koyn, I am so sorry.  Know that you're not alone no matter how much it feels that way.  We're all here for you.  *big hugs* 
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  • I'm so sorry.  A BFN is never easy, particularly so on a day like today.

    Please PM me if you need to chat.  I understand the feeling of hating yourself and feeling you can't take anymore.

    TTC since 3-08 IVF # 1 Dec 2011 BFP DD born at 31 weeks 6-24-12

    FET #1 Dec 2013 BFN

    FET # 2 Feb 2014 BFN

    No more frosties

    IVF #2. September 2014

    PGD yielded 2 perfect 5d blasts

    SET November 9, 2014
    Nov 23, 2014. Another BFN

    Not sure where to go from here.

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  • I am SO SO sorry hon.  IF sucks so badly.   (((enormous hugs)))
    TTK 9/06 / TTC 10/08 / Twins 12/11 / Life Blog
    5 REs + 3 surgical hysteroscopies for septum/lap + 3 failed IUIs
    IVF w/ICSI/AH & acu = BFP!, unexplained spontaneous m/c @ 8w2d (our little girl),
    FET w/acu = BFP!, B/G twins!, lost MP @19w, dx w/funneling cervix @20w,
    twins nearly lost to IC @21w, saved by rescue cerclage, 17P & 16w of bedrest
    Our twins born @36w4d via CS when A came foot first

    Thankful for every day

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  • So sorry :(

     

    TTC #1 since June 2008 *SAIFW*

    TI, IUIs, IVF = c/ps and BFNs

  • I'm so very sorry.  ((HUGS))

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    ~SAIF/PAIF/Everyone Welcome~ 

    Me= 37 and DH = 41 

    Dx: DOR, Endo, APA+ (really high beta 2 glycoprotein antibody and high everything else tested), heterozygous MTHFR mutation, positive for lupus anticoagulant, high FSH, low AMH and both tubes blocked (per HSG on 3/8/11)

    IVF #1 - long lupron (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 4 retrieved, 3 fertilized; ET 2 blasts and 1 frozen = BFN

    IVF #2 - a version of antagonist with EPP (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 6 retrieved, 4 mature, 3 fertilized, 2 blasts and 1 frozen blast transferred on day 5 = BFN.

    IVF #3 April was postponed to May, May was canceled. June/July was canceled. Had a cyst aspiration and then began IVF #3 in August. ER on 8/22; ET on 8/24 with AH. +HPT on 9/5. Beta #1 (11dpo) = 3; Beta #2 (15dpo) = 29; Beta #3 (17dpo) = 60; Beta #4 (19 dpo) = 118. Heartbeat at 6 weeks 6 days =132.  Lil is here!

    TTC#2:  Trigger + TI = BFN; Clomid + Trigger + IUI = BFN.

    IVF #4:  BCP + MDLF + Lovenox = 7R, 1F = Transferred 1 6-cell embryo on day 3 = BFN

    IVF #5:  MDLF + Lovenox = 4R, 1F = Transferred 1 10-cell compacting embryo on day 3 = BFN

    IVF #6:  (New RE):  Long Antagonist November 2014 (transferred two 8 cell grade 1 embryos and froze one blast) = BFN

    FET#1:  BFN

  • Oh sweetie - I am so, so sorry. It is not fair at all.
    Married 08.06
    Started TTC 05.08
    Me: Stage II endo, borderline high FSH
    DH: perfect
    1 lap, 5 IUIs = 4 BFNs and 1 c/p
    2 IVFs, 2 FETs = 1 BFN, 1 c/p, 1 ectopic and finally a sticky BFP in May 2011!

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    1 FET in Aug 2013 = BFP! 

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  • I'm so sorry.  I wish I could give you a big hug!
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  • I am so so sorry.  IF sucks.  Please know we are here for you.

    ((hugs))

    *P/SAIFW* TTC since 1/08 Clomid, 2 IUIs, 4 IVFs, FET 7 losses Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • Ugh.

    I am heartbroken right along with you.

    I am so sorry.


    After 2 rounds of IVF & 2 rounds of FET, we were blessed with identical twin girls!
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  • Koyn, my heart breaks for you! I am so sorry. Biggest hugs and wishing you lots of strength to get you through this.
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  • I am so sorry for your pain. (((hugs)))
  • Oh goodness, I am truly very sorry.  ::hugs::
    Thank you TTCAL and IF board. "Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: What! You too? I thought I was the only one." C.S. Lewis

    Miscarried December of 2008, Ectopic Pregnancy November of 2009

    IVF #1 = BFN | IVF #2 = BFP: 9dp5dt (399), 14dp5dt (2489)

    Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" Philippians 4:6,7
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  • I am so very sorry.  ((HUGS))
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  • I am so, so sorry hon.

    Sending tons of T&Ps your way.

    (((((hugehugs))))) 

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    Unexplained Infertility

    After two Clomid cycles, three injectable IUI cycles, two IVFs, two miscarriages, and one lap surgery, IVF #2 has brought us our little boy!

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    TTC #2
    After months of being postponed or cancelled, FET #1.3 (Natural FET) brought us twin girls!

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    Surprise! Baby #4 is due in March!
  • I am so so sorry.  ((HUGS))
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    TTC #1 since Oct 2006 with severe MFI.
    Summer/Fall 2011 - DH on clomid. Helped with morphology and motility, but count still under 1 million.
    February 2011 - First RE appointment to discuss options.
    March 2011 - We aren't sure what we are going to do right now. DH isn't sure about DS.
    ~SAIFW~
  • Koyn I am so so sorry.  I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better :-(.  Big (((hugs)))
    TTC since 8/2004
    Me - DX Hashimoto's Disease, Hypothyroid, Rheumatoid Arthritis
    DH - DX Azoospermia - Sertoli Cell Syndrome
    DS-IUI #1-4 BFN IVF #1 - BFP! It's a boy!!!
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  • Oh god, I am so incredibly sorry. I just don't understand. Why, why, why?!?!

    I am thinking of you and sending hugs. I wish I could do more.

    Crohn's resulting in colectomy with J-Pouch surgery in 2000/2001.
    TTC since August 2008
    IVF#1: BFFN; IVF#2: BFN; FET with new RE: BFN
    IVF#3: ER 1/15; ET 1/20; Beta#1 1/29: 339!
    Twins girls born via c/s at 37w/3d!!
    "Let it go, this too shall pass."
  • sending many hugs to you.
  • Oh Koyn - I'm so sorry!!!  Please know that I'm thinking of you...  Take care of yourself... 
    Mr. & Mrs. ~ 09.08.07

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  • ::hugs::

    I am so so sorry.

    TTC #2 since June '08

    ~*DD 10.21.07*~

    dx unexplained

    IUI #1-4 BFN

    IVF#1 June 2011 BFN

    IVF#2 Dec 2011

    Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634

    EDD 8/25

    *PAIFW/SAIFW*

  • I'm so very sorry.  It's just not fair one has to go through so much heartache.  T&Ps coming your way!  ((hugs))
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  • I am so sorry.


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    2 years, 2 surgeries, 2 clomid fails, 2 IUIs, 1 loss, IVF #1 - 10/25/10 = BFP!, DS is now 3.5yrs!
    TTC #2 - 6/12 surgery #3, FET #1 & 1.2 = BFN, 12/2012 FET #2 = BFP! DD is 1.5 yrs!
    Surprise! 12/16/14 BFP, loss #2 12/31/14

    I can't wait for the "im getting a divorce" post in 5 years or so because your husbands were fed up with your disgusting chair asses from playing on the knot all day and getting fired 4-5 times for not doing any work. you guys are all winners!! ~ Laur929

  • I am so, so sorry. We're here for you (((hugs)))
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  • I am so sorry.  (((hugs)))
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  • I'm so so so very sorry, Koyn... so sorry....  I am giving you {{Huge Hugs}} and to know that I'll be thinking about you...
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  • i am so sorry i have no words other than sorry I wish I could give you a big hug. I cannot even imagine what you are going through, but please don't give up.
    Married to the Mr. 8/6/2008- Together 10+ TTC #2 R/X unexplained infertility/premature ovarian failure/diminished ovarian reserve
    FSH (16) AMH (.61) AFC (9)
    Male factor: low sperm count/ low motility
    IVF #1 11/10 brought us DS Stimming for IVF #2 begin 11/5/11 AFC (7) =( Protocol: Lurpon flare (2 days) + Lupron 10ml/Menopur 4 vials (AM) Lupron 10ml/300IU Gonal-F PM (converted to IUI) failed IVF 2.1 1/12 BFP!
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