TTC After a Loss

Trying to heal, then get angry.. ergh.

I am trying to make life as normal as possible again but then I think about things and just get bitter/sad.  I know everything is still so new and all but damnit, I just wish things would go back to the way they used to be.  It just plain sucks and I needed to vent.

Re: Trying to heal, then get angry.. ergh.

  • Ugh I know how you feel, I am so in touch with those same feelings almost EVERYDAY!

     

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  • anger is a healthy part of the grieving process.  Embrace it, recognize it, then try to move past it. ((hugs))
  • Vent away!  Even though I know that my life will be better one day, I still hate that it will never be the way I thought it would, and that Bryce won't be as active of a part as we wanted him to be.  Crying
    BFP #1 - Twin B lost at 5w
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    BFP #2 - Twin B lost at 4w
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    BFP #3 - Lost at 5w
    BFP #4 - Lost at 4w
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  • I understand that completely.  Everyone says that these are the steps of grief but I'm with you, it sucks.  I also find that I prefer bitter and angry over sad, it's so much easier to handle (but sad still sneaks in every now and then).

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  • I'm sorry you are having a rough time. Try to remember that anger is a part of the healing process and that its completely normal to feel that way sometimes. Its hard to adjust to the rollercoaster of emotions, but at some point you do adjust to a new "normal" - you're still healing so don't be too hard on yourself. Some days its a step forward, others you feel like you slide back. Just hang in there and vent it out here as much as you need to! We get the angry part, and I totally agree w/ jertie, I am way better at expressing anger than I am sadness. Besides crying I just don't know how to explain that "Gee, I'm just sad today" without feeling like I need to make some excuse. Mad is easy in comparison. *HUGS*
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  • I am so sorry :( It's still so fresh in your mind.. I feel like I was in a fog for at least 2 months after our loss, and there are still tough days.  Again, I am sorry for your loss.
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  • I hear ya. I have been struggling with the same emotions alot lately. (((HUGS)))
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  • It is so new-give yourself time.  It does get easier, although I think its somethng that will always be with you.

    I'm sorry you are having a hard time!

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    DX with Diminished Ovarian Reserve - AMH of 1.1 - 7/2011; AMH of .42 8/2012
    BFP 9/1/10-M/C confirmed 9/8/10-Methotrexate 10/6/10
    IUI #1 (w/clomid)-9/5/11-BFN ; IUI #2 (w/clomid)-10/5/11 - BFP - 11/1/12-No sac seen; 11/2/11 and 11/9/11-Methotrexate 
    IVF #1- ER 2/2; ET 2/5;-Two 8 cell embryos transfered = BFFN
    Surprise BFP - 5/7/12
    U/S on 6/8/12 - H/B at 128 BPM; U/S on 6/14/12 @ 9wks-No H/B-D&C on 6/17/12
    IVF 2.0- ER 10/17; ET 10/20-One 12 cell, one 10 cell and one 8 cell embryo transfered
    BFP!   11/16/12 U/S- Two nuggets with perfect heartbeats! EDD 7/10/13

     

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