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TTC After a Loss
Izabella22
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What doesn't kill you...
Izabella22
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this is making us stronger right? After spending yestserday with my nephews with the irresponsible parents and today doing wagon rides for elementary school kids, I think I'm ready to take a break from being around kids period. I have been thinking about the post about how bfp's don't give others hope, well looking at other peoples kids and being around them for an entire weekend (or that's how it felt) doesn't either. It really just makes me sad. There were these 2 beautiful girls, all dressed up for the halloween party, and they were asking questions and arguing and they were just the most precious little things... and I just about started crying. It just made me feel so hopeless, like I'm never going to have my own little daughter (or son) to buy a pony for and take to parties and dress up... I left the place in tears because I just feel like it might never happen for me. So far I've lost both my first and second pregnancies... even if I can get pg again am I ever going to take a baby home? Is it ever going to become the dream instead of the nightmare?
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Re: What doesn't kill you...
6/14/10 BFP; 6/30/10 Dx ectopic
11/16/10 BFP #2; DD born 7/26/11
Dx: MFI- 3% morph
IUIs: Gonal-F + Ovidrel + b2b IUI= BFNs
IVF with ICSI= BFP! EDD 11/25/11
3/18- Beta #1 452! 3/20- Beta #2 1,026!! 3/27- First u/s- TWINS!
Our twin boys arrived at 36w5d due to IUGR and a growth discordance
Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.
My DH is the same way, he keeps saying me "I really feel this is going to happen for us" - which of course makes me feel SO much better. I know he's not trying to make me feel like crap but yeah... he's got a grown son, so I feel like he can't possibly understand how disgusted I am with my body and how that just extra makes me feel like a big failure. It would be nice to still have those sort of happy thoughts.
(((HUGS)))
Sounds like we had a similar day. My BFs sister has gorgeous twin boys that she couldnt care less about. So we took them out trick or treating with their cousins and it was so much fun watching them get excited and all dressed up. But I just wanted to lay down and cry at times cause I feel like its not gonna happen for us cause we actually want it.
BFP 1 4/2010 M/C 5/1/2010 8w2d EDD 12/10/10 BFP 2 5/5/2011 C/P?? 5/14/2011 5w2d EDD 01/12/12 BFP 3 3/12/2012 EDD 11/23/12 Ultrasound 4/11/12 H/B 160bpm! It's a GIRL!