I was directed over here from the 3-6 month board.
Forgive me if this has been addressed, I may have missed it.
I am hoping someone can shine some light for me. I have a post-op appointment Friday (for a surgery post c-sec) and so before I go in sounding like a crazy woman to my OB, I wanted to get some other new mom's advice/experience. (this is my first baby after TTC for 3.5 years)
Let me start by saying that I am generally a happy, passive, easy going person...minus the 1st and 3rd Tri's....ha! Well, I feel like all of the sudden I have PPD. The first few weeks after giving birth, I was emotional, but who wasn't? I was never sad though, just sensitive. Now, in the past two weeks, the ONLY thing that makes me happy is my son. And to be honest, I feel like I push to be happy around him b/c I don't want my son to feed off of me. My husband (who is fantastic, btw) is on my last nerve, I am crying all the time, having some really bad thoughts, feeling super sad, very moody and just like if it weren't for my DS, I would love to crawl in a hole and never come out. I have never been depressed before, so I am not even sure if my very STRONG feelings are classified as depression. I should also add that I went back to work on September 27th after being out for 19 weeks and b/w work, the commute and baby I am feeling overwhelmed....so, maybe that's it?
I hope someone can help me, as it's taken a lot of nerve for me to even ask this and write this post (I've tried to every day since Monday!) HA!
Thanks in advance for any help.
Re: Sudden PPD...is that even possible?
You are far from sounding like a crazy woman. I would honestly talk to your OB about it. I'm not going to diagnose you and say you have PPD however, your thoughts sound a lot like my did/do. Being a working mom makes it even harder. You should be proud of yourself for making the connection that there might be something wrong, I'm one of those that it took 7 months for me to finally admit that something was right. The sooner you get help, the sooner you start to feel better.
Good luck.
Yep...gotta say you sound like I did. I had all the feelings and symptoms but still thought I had to diagnose myself first. Talk to your dr. when you go for your appt. It will be ok and they will help, I promise!
It's all overwhelming at first. I think mine was more anxiety than depression, but whatever it was, I feel a LOT better now than I did at 5 months. Your son is precious, too! Good luck!!
Definitely talk to your OB. I know it's hard to talk about. It's overwhelming and scary. Sometimes it makes you feel ashamed or guilty.
The best thing I did was got help. I was so numb inside and now I feel like myself again. Take the help. I have fallen in love with my LO all over again. I only wish I would have asked for help sooner.
Good luck! Take the help. Your LO deserves it and so do you! :-)
Good for you! That's the hardest part, reaching out for help. Hang in there! Be proud of yourself. :-)
I'm glad I read your post because I was about to type the same thing almost verbatum. It started to hit me this weekend when I didn't decorate for Halloween, didn't get DS a costume, canceled lunch plans with a friend and didn't go to an annual Halloween party. I was so far in my hole I didn't even realize there were trick-or-treaters in the neighborhood at all. SO not like me I make sure to always smile and play with DS, but I know DH can tell something's not right. DH and I had our first date night in 3 months and I cried on the way there and slept on the way home. Not exactly romance.
I guess it's time to call my Dr.