I've been seeing a psychologist monthly just to "keep an eye on things" since I have a history of depression and SAD. Today I admitted that I was starting to wear out. The weather is changing, my son is more difficult to get to nap/sleep, and I'm getting less help now that DS has a new job. My psychologist insisted (as he has since I first started seeing him) that I need to have time to myself. This has been very hard since I am a SAHM and EBF. I'm exhausted. DS STTN but for some reason I can't. I need a break. I got home from the appointment today, fed DS, played with him, but he wasn't happy, so we danced and swayed, but he was screaming and I couldn't do anything to make him happy. He cried, and then I cried, and then he stopped crying, but I didn't. He eventually fell asleep and I put him down. I hope today was just an off day, but I'm afraid it's going to be a long winter. Just wanted to write all this down and introduce myself because I have a feeling I'll be here a little more often.
Re: Today I feel sad.
That's the one thing that I was always grateful for with my kids, for some reason when I cried they stopped but thinking back that wasn't until they were 4 or 5 months old.
Cry if you need to cry but do try to take time for yourself, even if it is just to take a nice long shower or bath. If you are anything like me I needed to get out of the house otherwise I would obsess so I started going grocery shopping. Even with DH's shifts I would find that I could go out at 10 at night and have at least one hour (door to door) of peace while still getting something productive done (but I hate sitting still).
Hang in there. My oldest is now 3 and while some days I think about what a little pain he is, I wouldn't trade him for the world when he wraps his arms around me, gives me a big kiss on the cheek and tells me what a great mom I am. It makes all of those difficulties with him as a baby melt away and reminds me that DD will be there one day too.
Near TO. You?
My BFP Chart
I felt sad today too and the weather is not helping at all.
Hang in there. We just have to take it day by day.