RE called me back last night and after telling him about not getting a hb at the u/s he said it could have been the OB's machine and wanted me to come in. His machines are so much more high tech, so it detects much more and is very clear. He said there basically there wasn't a fetus. Does not know if the fetus even started to develop. The really shitty thing is that the placenta is there and doing great, so I have the m/s that already started, am gaining weight and super tired. My body has not figured out that I am not PG. RE said I could go back in for an other u/s Thursday if I want, but there really is not point. So I am going to wait and see what my body does naturally before deciding on a D&C or something.
I can't believe this has happened. I know I can't do IVF again. It is just too much. The emotional toll it takes on me is too extreme. Plus we are all OOP and this is two failed IVFs in a row. So unless we get a surprise BFP, which is not really possible, then Nico will be an only chlid. I somehow have to be okay with this, and am not sure how I am going to get there.
Re: It's Over
I am so terribly sorry for your loss.
(((((hugehugs)))))
Unexplained Infertility
After two Clomid cycles, three injectable IUI cycles, two IVFs, two miscarriages, and one lap surgery, IVF #2 has brought us our little boy!
TTC #2
After months of being postponed or cancelled, FET #1.3 (Natural FET) brought us twin girls!
f u c k.
I'm so terribly sorry, lady. We're here for you if you need us.
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I'm so sorry. I have been through something similar and it's just never easy. It's hard enough to deal with the loss of a baby but then to have to deal with the loss that is knowing you will not have any more children is almost impossible. Don't try to get there just now, just deal with the current loss and decide to think about all the rest later on.
Again, I'm so sorry.
Kelly, Mom to Christopher Shannon 9.27.06, Catherine Quinn 2.24.09, Trey Barton lost on 12.28.09, Therese Barton lost on 6.10.10, Joseph Sullivan 7.23.11, and our latest, Victoria Maren 11.15.12
Secondary infertility success with IVF, then two losses, one at 14 weeks and one at 10 weeks, then success with IUI and then just pure, crazy luck. Expecting our fifth in May as the result of a FET.
This Cluttered Life
Big (((HUGS)))
I'm so sorry.
I'm so very sorry. ((HUGS))
TTC #1 since 2007. Dx: Unexplained infertility. 4 IUIs in 2008 = BFN. IVF #1 07/09. DD #1 born April 2010 (40w5d).
TTC #2 since 2011. Dx: Endometriosis and hypothyroidism. 2 FETs in 2012, BFP 6/12 but m/c @ 7 weeks. IVF #2 06/13. DD #2 born March 2014 (40w1d).
TTC#2=July 2011: Surprise BFP: Chemical Pregnancy
Clomid M/C 8 weeks 2/08 *IVF #1-DD born 3/09
*Surprise BFP-T18 baby lost at 13w 1/10 *FET #1-DS born 2/11
LO #1 - 1 unmedicated/self-monitored IUI w/ donor sperm.
LO #2 - 1 m/c, 2 BFNs, 4th IUI worked (unmedicated/self-monitored with new donor sperm).
Life is beautiful!