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psychmusetls
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Stressed...need to whine
psychmusetls
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Last night my mom called very late to tel me my dad is in the hospital for some sort of cardiac event...so far the tests all look good but I'm still so worried. I need my daddy and Lord knows my mother can't survive without him.
Then this morning my aide (I'm a special Ed teacher) calls to tell me she has breast cancer and she is starting treatments right away.
Then the IVF nurse calls.... We are having a 4dt and we are down to 13 embies. I'm a nervous wreck! Last time they called me in for a 4dt bc my embies started looking funny....now this makes me scared and angry. Could they be stimming me too long? Are they looking at quantity over quality? Ivf 2 and 3 i had 32 and27 eggs and ended up w funny looking embryos. Ivf 1 which was converted from IUI, only had 15 eggs but I ended up with 6 perfect expanded blasts! I feel like this is a disaster and I might as well not even go through it. Ugh! And then im kicking myself because we switched back to an antagonist protocol bc we thought the lupron had something to do with the quality difference and then i went and used a lupron trigger! Ugh! My OHSS is so much better for it, but now i cant help but wonder if that has something to do with it...
Tomorrows my 4th wedding anniversary and our 4th transfer...I'm just hoping that is a good sign.
My OHSS is not terrible but my ovaries do hurt still, Im nauseous, my appetite is all out of whack, I'm terriby dizzy....:sigh: at least I don't feel like my skins going to rip open at any moment like it did last time I had OHSS
I'm also paying the bills and let's say as a teacher in the summer that can be highly stressful!!
Mom just called and her car got keyed from head to toe in the hospital parking lot. What is wrong with people??
I really needed to get all that out so thank you and if you got this far, thanks for your patience! These hormones have got me all screwy...just want to cry.
Then this morning my aide (I'm a special Ed teacher) calls to tell me she has breast cancer and she is starting treatments right away.
Then the IVF nurse calls.... We are having a 4dt and we are down to 13 embies. I'm a nervous wreck! Last time they called me in for a 4dt bc my embies started looking funny....now this makes me scared and angry. Could they be stimming me too long? Are they looking at quantity over quality? Ivf 2 and 3 i had 32 and27 eggs and ended up w funny looking embryos. Ivf 1 which was converted from IUI, only had 15 eggs but I ended up with 6 perfect expanded blasts! I feel like this is a disaster and I might as well not even go through it. Ugh! And then im kicking myself because we switched back to an antagonist protocol bc we thought the lupron had something to do with the quality difference and then i went and used a lupron trigger! Ugh! My OHSS is so much better for it, but now i cant help but wonder if that has something to do with it...
Tomorrows my 4th wedding anniversary and our 4th transfer...I'm just hoping that is a good sign.
My OHSS is not terrible but my ovaries do hurt still, Im nauseous, my appetite is all out of whack, I'm terriby dizzy....:sigh: at least I don't feel like my skins going to rip open at any moment like it did last time I had OHSS
I'm also paying the bills and let's say as a teacher in the summer that can be highly stressful!!
Mom just called and her car got keyed from head to toe in the hospital parking lot. What is wrong with people??
I really needed to get all that out so thank you and if you got this far, thanks for your patience! These hormones have got me all screwy...just want to cry.
S/PAIFW
Tara & Dave - TTC since September 2006
PCOS - dx 1999 (amenorrhea) | freakishly long fallopian tubes
Hypoglycemic | thyroid issues | severely anemic
Multiple Clomid cycles of 50, 100, 150 - absolutely no response
Follistim 50/100 | Follistim 75/125 | Follistim 100/150 IUI - all BFNs
Converted IVF - BFP - m/c | FET - BFN | IVF #2 = BFN
IVF #3
Tara & Dave - TTC since September 2006
PCOS - dx 1999 (amenorrhea) | freakishly long fallopian tubes
Hypoglycemic | thyroid issues | severely anemic
Multiple Clomid cycles of 50, 100, 150 - absolutely no response
Follistim 50/100 | Follistim 75/125 | Follistim 100/150 IUI - all BFNs
Converted IVF - BFP - m/c | FET - BFN | IVF #2 = BFN
IVF #3
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Re: Stressed...need to whine
::hugs:: all around.
TTC #2 since June '08
~*DD 10.21.07*~
dx unexplained
IUI #1-4 BFN
IVF#1 June 2011 BFN
IVF#2 Dec 2011
Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634
EDD 8/25
*PAIFW/SAIFW*
cutie, i'm sending you tons and tons of prayers and ((HUGS))
lots of stress cutie. praying for your dad and mom and aide and for you and embies.
i'm not sure what to say about your clinic and quantity over quality. both of the clinics i'm at strive for 15 good eggs, they don't want huge numbers of eggs.
i hope your embies are perfect and sticky tomorrow for transfer.
Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, It empties today of its strength. ~Corrie ten Boom
Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~Mary Anne Radmacher (thank you beadinglady)
It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
MTHFR A1298C & C677T, Immune Issues and Factor II
That's a lot to handle!
Thinking of you...
TI, IUIs, IVF = c/ps and BFNs
(((hugs)))
You are under a lot of stress and I am sorry it has been so tough.
Try to not beat yourself up over your IVF cycle. You are still not out of it yet and there is still a lot of hope for success. Even if your embryos aren't the highest quality, their is still hope. There are ladies that have gotten pregnant on SAIF with poor quality embryos. Try to keep hope alive.
Me - DX Hashimoto's Disease, Hypothyroid, Rheumatoid Arthritis
DH - DX Azoospermia - Sertoli Cell Syndrome
DS-IUI #1-4 BFN IVF #1 - BFP! It's a boy!!!
I hope your dad gets some good news from the testing and feels better soon. I hope the treatments work for your aide.
I'm sorry you're feeling so overwhelmed. I hope your embryos look great for your transfer. I know it is awful to obsess and worry and not be able to do anything about it.
Happy anniversary and best of luck tomorrow. I really hope things start to look brighter really soon!
It took 5 failed IUIs and a failed IVF, but our FET worked!
My pregnancy after Infertility Blog
Our baby girl was born on April 27, 2011!
beta#1 3/21 (14dp3dt)=413, beta#2 3/23 (16dp3dt)=785, u/s 4/11
EDD 11/25/12
**SAIFW**
Sending tons of T&Ps to your father hon. It's a good sign that all the tests have been normal.
And (((((hugehugs))))) to you. I know it's hard to stay positive during an IVF cycle, but unless the doctors have told you that they are worried about your embies, try not to worry. Good luck with your ET!
Unexplained Infertility
After two Clomid cycles, three injectable IUI cycles, two IVFs, two miscarriages, and one lap surgery, IVF #2 has brought us our little boy!
TTC #2
After months of being postponed or cancelled, FET #1.3 (Natural FET) brought us twin girls!
Oh my gosh, you poor thing, you have a lot going on!!
I'm sorry about your Dad, I hope he's okay!!
I'm sorry about your Aide, Eff cancer!!
I'm sorry about your IVF Cycle, hoping your Embies pull through!!
Hang in there!!!
BIG ((hugs)), that is a lot to take in for one day!
I'm sending all my positive vibes that your embies do great and that the rest keep growing strong! I hope everything is OK with your Dad and your aide.
TTC since August 2008
IVF#1: BFFN; IVF#2: BFN; FET with new RE: BFN
IVF#3: ER 1/15; ET 1/20; Beta#1 1/29: 339!
Twins girls born via c/s at 37w/3d!!
"Let it go, this too shall pass."
I'm so sorry, that is just too much for one person to handle.
I hope your dad turns out to be OK, I'm so sorry about your aid, and I agree about your mom's car - what is wrong w/ people?!
About your embies - 13 embies is awesome - I'm sure they'll have a lot to choose from! Did your RE say they were calling you in for a 4dt b/c they were worried about them? If not, try not to worry yourself (easier said than done, I know). If you're wondering if your clinic is sacrificing quality over quantity you could get a second opinion, but let's hope you don't even need it. Fingers crossed that is one works for you!!
TTC in 2008. Stage II/III endo, Hashimotos hypothyroid, low morph (3%).
2 cycles Clomid/Ovidrel/TI/Crinone=BFN.
IUI #1 - 4 Follistim/Ovidrel/IUI/Crinone = BFN.
IVF #1 - Antagonist w/ ICSI 4/10. 17 retrieved, 5DT of 2, BFN
IVF #2 - Long Lupron w/ ICSI 6/10. 15 retrieved, 3DT of 2, BFFN!!
Lap 7/21/10
IVF #3 - Clomid/Antagonist w/ ICSI 10/10. 14 retreived, 3DT of 3, BFP 10/20 but m/c. No HB 11/15/10 - D&C 11/17/10.
FET - 2 blasts, 1 survived the thaw. Transfer 2/19. Beta #1 3/1 375, Beta #2 3/3 885, Beta #3 3/8 4261, Beta #4 3/11 9005. U/S 3/8 1 sac 1 yolk, U/S 3/16 1 heartbeat 114bpm!
James born Oct. 24th 2011 via c-section at 38 weeks!
Surprise BFP - Jack born April 28, 2013 via VBAC after PTL at 33 1/2 weeks!
Geez, hon - you've had a lot thrown at you today...I wouldn't blame you for a good cry. Lots of good wishes go out to your dad and teacher aide. As for your embies...13 is still great, and yes (I'm going to say it....) you only need one!
Hang in there - I'm thinking about you and praying this is your cycle!