I don't give a fvck anymore if my MIL finds out I'm KU on here. If she does, it's because she's snooping, and I don't think she'd ever say anything about it. The main reason we don't want anyone to know yet is because it's stressful enough without 15 billion questions a day about whether or not I'm still pregnant, so whatever. And yes, it would suck if she found out this news on here, but she did tell DH that she would stay off here.
JHL 12/5/09 - 12/9/09


Re: FFFC
Hey great minds
I guess my second FFFC would be this.. I just received a gift (the soothe & glow seahorse!!) from a girl I went to college with and recently reconnected with over FB of all places.. A girl I was friends with almost 6 years ago and just recently reconnected with sent a lovely and thoughtful gift recognizing this baby... but my own family cant. Yeah, I'll probably never get over that..
Oh I'm fairly certain my friend (who caused all of the drama on TTGP and made people assume she was my AE) is still lurking on here too. And I am so pissed right now at her for dragging me into her mess that I don't care if she's lurking and reading this right now. This is the exact reason I didn't want her posting on TB. Because she is a drama queen and I knew somehow I would get dragged through the mud becuase of something she did. I was right. Big shock.
There are a few people I can't stand. But they don't know it. They're such attention whores and are hurting my friends. Get off your fvcking high horse already. The world does not revolve around you.
Wow. That felt good.
I don't remember when DH and I last had sex. And I don't really care because he won't do what I really want him to do.
So since I go to bed before him if I'm feeling in the mood I just take care of things on my own.
I keep talking to my ex on facebook. I know I probably shouldn't. But we were friends and kinda dated and then more than anything he was my BFF all through high school and a good part of college. We are solely friends though obviously. I would never ruin the good thing I have with dh.
I am a bad person.
SP - if it makes you feel any better, none of that has caused me to think any less of you. Your friend is a bit AWish, but I do think she suffered a loss and don't think she deserved to be raked over the coals the way she was. She more just struck me as someone who was trying too hard to fit in.
I have a good friend who could easily be seen the same way if she posted regularly. Luckily, she sticks to her local board and hasn't posted in forever.
I didn't really care about the lack of O's till this week, when my parts either decided they're deprived or they're rocking that more-sensitive-because-of-blood-flow thing. Wiping after using the bathroom is ridiculous torture half the time.
The logical side of my brain says this is a short, short time to sacrifice my jollies, but my ladybits don't subscribe to logic. Grrr. Multiple personalities FTW.
*voluntary because I've had two sleep/dream O's. I wake up midway through and, um, IT'S NOT MY FAULT!
This is her exactly. She wants to be part of the cool crowd right away and doesn't realize that on an internet message board, you have to start slow. I tried to give her tips on how to make it on TB but she didn't listen. Instead she did her own thing and was a HUGE AW and PW (bigger than me if you believe) and she really rubbed a lot of people the wrong way.
J&T, I'm the same way. I got a UTI while we were trying, so none for a while. Then I started bleeding right away, so I was on pelvic rest. I haven't been told I'm off pelvic rest, but bleeding and spotting has stopped, so I'm guessing it would be okay, but I'm scared. Then I'm out after the cerclage, and then I'll have to wait six weeks after a c-section.
So basically, I'll have sex again in March or April (assuming all goes as planned). But I keep having Os in my sleep. They scare the crap out of me because I don't have the best cervix, but I can't make them stop.
I've always wanted at least two kids. And I've always wanted them relatively close together (within a couple of years apart). I grew up in a big, close, family and I want the same for Jude.
But Mr. J and I have so much that we (he) need to work though, that I don't know if that will happen.
And I resent him for that.
That feels good to say.
My own fffc: Evidence of my degradation.
Often when I get new cases, the children are taken away from the mother to be put in foster care at the conclusion of the emergency hearing. Maybe by the time it actually happens, it is anticlimactic, they know it is coming or are in shock or feel defeated, or they hold it together because the courthouse is busy, or because it would traumatize the child to see their mom cry, but usually the separation is quiet and unremarkable.
I was finished one day but still at the courthouse. When the social worker and the court officers went to take the infant from the mother, she had an all-out break down-wailing, crying, pleading, begging for just a few minutes to hold her infant.
I watched people's reactions and most were mortified just watching; one woman actually cried.
The confession part - To me it was simply refreshing. In a sick way it was nice to see that a mother cared and responded as I imagine I would in a similar circumstance. Commit me now.
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Perhaps we should start a BOTB convent.
(also? Those sleep/dream O's are the WORST. They make me feel so bad, especially because I've started spotting after both.)
I don't post on here much anymore because I feel like I have almost nothing in common anymore with you girls, and it is a little heart-breaking to think that I'll probably never have a pregnancy to discuss with any of you.
I also feel like as a woman who "simply" cannot get pregnant, people "get tired" of hearing about how I feel sad. And that kinda sucks. So I don't hang here for long anymore.
And there are many of you that I miss.
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Here or in general?
This makes me sad.
I miss seeing you here. Like I said to BGG earlier, you are a big part of this family here, whether or not TTC is in the cards right now - or ever.
I can't fix your sadness about never being pregnant - if I could fix that for you or any of the ladies here damn straight I would in a second. But I hope you never, ever feel out of place here because of it.
You are loved and missed.
Yes.
FWIW, I don't think it's that you "simply" can't get pregnant. There is nothing simple about that. And I don't think I would be able to handle it as well or as gracefully as you are. I think that you contributed a lot to this board and you belong here just as much as everyone else. But obviously you need to do what is comfortable for you.
I have a feeling theres lots of paranoia going on now
I've received a few texts already.
I think at some point most people learn that the world does not revolve around them. It just doesn't. You can't be mean to one person who thought was your friend then cry when someone else (who you thought was your friend) is mean to you.
Oh well. I guess that is the glory of the internet. You can be whomever you want to be and act however you want to act.
I have no clue what this is about (the joys of being blissfully unaware and unobservant) but can I be a ninja on the internet? I'd really like to be a ninja. Or maybe a ballerina.
ill be jack hanna
How about a ninja ballerina? That'd be awesome!
Wait, are you trying to tell me you are not a ninja ballerina in real life?
Genius!
::runs off to practice ninja ballerina moves::
Can I be a super-fertile freakishly gorgeous genuis level vetrinarian?
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::dances ninja ballerina moves around FK::
Of course!
This but I'd like to be a billionaire instead of a vet.
Ok, a super-fertile, freakishly gorgeous, genius-level billionaire who also happens to be a veterinarian.
And I won't even bother correcting the misspellings in the last post. LOL.
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I have another.
I have a close girlfriend who is pregnant, due just three weeks before I was.
She had her anatomy scan today, and she's having another boy. She's elated. I'm relieved. Like, so relieved I cried when I read it. It's so wrong but if she was having a girl I would have lost it.
I understand.
::hugs asshat::
My FFFC is that I keep telling myself to back away from the boards and stop wasting time here because I feel like no one notices or cares when I post something - so why waste my time?
Like how I posted that Logan was having surgery last week, and all of 3 people responded, and yet a post right above it about God-knows-what-nothing had like 15 responses. It hurt to think that no one cared about my son having surgery. And yet it makes me realize that although there are a few girls here who I've made deeper friendships with, and would probably continue to without TB, it's sad to me that after 3 years of posting no one cared about something serious to me.
And yet, I still come and lurk, and post occasionally. But don't feel the need to post anything personal to me, because I'm obviously the only one that cares. Which is the reason I never did a follow up on his surgery, because it's not like anyone would have cared!
Okay, that felt good to get out. Time to move on now!
I feel like I'm here so often, and I'm ashamed because I know I didn't post. I am glad he's okay though.
You are cared about.