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Infertility
IVF #1 = Epic Fail :(
I had my beta today and it was negative. I started spotting yesterday and AF came in full force this morning so, I was not surprised. Still felt like someone kicked me in the gut. I just don't understand why this cycle didn't work. To say I am devastated and crushed does not even begin to describe the anguish I feel.
There was so much at stake this cycle. After 4.5 years of TTC, 7 miscarriages (including 3 d&c's), tons of meds and tons of testing, my DH and I decided that we would do one cycle of IVF w/ PGD. Although we ended up transferring one perfect embie, for whatever reason it didn't take.
We are definitely at the end of the road. I simply can't continue to TTC anymore. I simply can't handle anymore disappointment; the emotional stress is really taking it's toll on me. With the call we got today, this chapter of my life is closing. I don't how I'm going to deal with giving up my dream of becoming a mother; all I know is I can't do this any longer. I'm so, so sad and my heart feels very heavy 
I would like to say that I could have never come this far in my IF struggle without the support of the fantastic women on this board. Although I need to leave this board for my sanity, I want you to know I'll be thinking about all of you and hoping you all make it to SAIF.
You are an amazing and strong group of women. Thank you for all your support over the last few years.
Marisa
TTC #1 w/ endo since Sept 2005. After many losses, a lap, tons of meds and tons of testing and, one failed IVF cycle, we were blown away with a surprise, sticky BFP...it's a girl!!!
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Re: IVF #1 = Epic Fail :(
PCOS diagnosis~can't remember how many years ago
Several cycles of Clomid with OBGYn ~BFNs
11-09 Initial Consult with RE
12-09 Changed to a different RE
1-2010 CCT-BFN
2-2010 Rest Cycle, Waiting for AF..where are yOU?
3.5.2010 RE found a cyst....Rest another month
3.12.10 AF
3.13.10 Cyst still there....on BCP until next month
4.10.10 Starting Lupron/Gonal-F/Luveris
April 2010 IVF #1 ~ BFP
5.5.10 Beta #1~150
5.7.19 Beta #2~300
5.19.10 1st u/s 2 sacs~~
5.25.10 2nd u/s 2 heartbeats~twins
EDD 1.12.11
Delivered on 11.28.10 due to HELLP syndrome at 33w 4days
myblog
TTC since October 2007 DX: MFI
#1 & #2: Fall 2009 - 2 rounds of Clomid - BFN's
#3: April 2010: IVF w/ ICSI - BFP but then....blighted ovum, D&C 5/26/10
#4: 8/27/10 - FET = BFN
#5: FET #2 - 10/28/10, 2 embryos... BFN
#6: IVF w/ ICSI & AH ER 3/5/2011; 6-day trx 2 blasts 3/11 BFP!!! HB @ 6weeks but it was gone a few days later. D&C 4/8/11
#7: IVF w/ ICSI & AH ER 8/29/11; 6 day trx 2 blasts, BFP!! (3 totsicles too) HB seen at 7 weeks, but was gone at 8.5 weeks. D&C 10/14/11 HEARTBROKEN!!
#8 FET - 4/6/12, 1 embryo.....
**** SAIFW ****
TTC since March 2007 - currently on hold
No! No! No!!!!!!!!! Marisa I'm so sorry honey - I hate this for you. I'm so sorry that you're going through this and I know that there isn't anything that I can say or do to comfort you, but please know that you're in my thoughts and close to my heart. I'm so sorry honey. ((hugs))
I'm here for you if you need me.
12/99 - Miscarriage at 12w - 6/08 - BFP - Miscarriage at 8w, 9/08 - BFP - Miscarriage at 8w2d, 12/08 - Found out I am a carrier of a Balanced Translocation between Chromosomes 8 & 16, 8/2010 - DE IVF = FAIL. 12/18/10 - Surprise BFP! Awaiting our Sticky Miracle! 12/20 - Beta #1-1208 * 12/27 Beta #2 - 6002 1/3/11 Beta #3 - 17,146. Beautiful little heart beating away! Stick little one, stick!
♥ Brielle Skye born August 17th, 2011 ♥
Oh Marisa, I am so terribly sorry. I hope that you will find a way to fulfill your dream of becoming a mother. I wish I could say something to make this better for you and wish you the best of luck.
I hope you know that if you need us, we're here.
C/P- at 6 weeks
5 IUI's= BFN
Dx: Endo stage 1 : evevated FSH (11.3)
IVF#1: 3dt 2 8 cell, grade 1 embyos :bfn
*(P)SAIFW*
~A lotus springs from mud~ Chinese proverb
M., I'm so sorry again. You are such an amazing woman and it makes me so angry that this did not work for you as I know you'd be the mother of all mothers!
Though I'm going away in a few days as you know, call or email me anytime if you need anything. And let's definitely meet up when I'm back.
hugs
j.
Oh, hon...I'm so sorry! I wish I had words to comfort you...just know that we are all still here for you no matter what. Take the time you need to heal emotionally...and please don't hesitate to come back here to chat with us! I hope that you find a path that will work for you to make you happy. I don't know what that might be, but I just hope you can find your way.
Take care,
Marrisa
SAIFW
IVF #1-4=BFN IVF #5=BFP! U/S on 5/3 revealed TWINS!
multiple failed cycles, multiple IUIs, lap with ovarian drilling 4/2008
Finally BFP on 11/23/09 beta#1=36 beta#2 =62 beta#3=139
Liliana was born on March 27,2010 at 21w5d due to infection and pre-term labor
BFP #2 on 6/20/10 after Gonal-F and TI First u/s showed Twins!
TTC#2 since 02/2012 with out RE...
Back to RE 08/2016----- Cycle #1 10/2016 Femara 7.5mg=???
Oh sweetie, I am so very very sorry that it has come to this. Sending tons of HUGE ((((HUGS)))) and healing thoughts your way.
You are a strong, wonderful woman and I wish you peace.
TTC Since Dec 2006
*IVF #1 cancelled at ET*
*IVF #2 OHSS, transfer cancelled*
*FET #1 2 frosties, c/p*
*Lap April 2010, removed endometrioma/endo implants*
*Surprise BFP June 2010*
*Beautiful daughter born 2/14/11!!*
Thoughts from an Overwrought Mind
SAIFW
Sweetie- I'm so sorry, my heart is saddened for you and your husband. I hope you guys find peace in time with your decision. I wish you guys nothing but the best, and I hope you do stop by from time to time eventually when you feel you are able to be on this board again. If not, I understand.
I agree- the best part is all of the wonderful women on this board and support/friendships forged along the way.
We will be thinking of you hon. I know it's a sad decision, but it must feel good to at least know that you can move on. ((hugs))
Me: PCOS/Amenorrhea DH: Azoospermia due to Y Chromosome Micro Deletion IVF w/ ICSI on hold until further notice
Hope
Thank you IVF for our little miracles!!
Dx: PCOS, Anovulatory, Amenorrhea 2006
TTC: Sept 2008
IVF#1 Cancelled due to breast biopsy.05/01/20
IVF#1.2- 9/2010 - Cancelled Oversurpressed
IVF#2 Microdose Lupron 10/2010 Beta 11/09=BFN
IVF#3 2/2011 - 2 blasts(2/25) Beta 03/11 =BFN
IVF#4 Lupron 01/02 =2 blasts, beta's 1-4 198,234,398,3100!!BFP
FET 3/2014 2 blasts BETA 3/20=BFP TWINS EDD 11/27 TEAM PINK!!!
TI, IUIs, IVF = c/ps and BFNs
I am so sorry.
I'm so sorry. I know the absolute despair that IF brings. I wish there was something I could say to make it better.
Big hugs.
Oh, cutie I am so sorry for you and DH. I am crying for you, this is so unfair. I wish I had more than words. Please know I admire your strength and courage and feel honored to have gotten to know you the last couple of years.
(((HUGS)))
Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, It empties today of its strength. ~Corrie ten Boom
Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~Mary Anne Radmacher (thank you beadinglady)
It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
MTHFR A1298C & C677T, Immune Issues and Factor II
I am so very very sorry. I wish I could take the pain away for you
(((hugs)))