I posted a few days ago about how I was only 7 dpo and my temp was still high but I was spotting. I was afraid it was implantation bleeding (we have been using condoms/charting but had one pull n pray on the day I ovulated. Oops.) The spotting looked textbook implantation spotting- brown with a very tiny bit of pink, only there when I wiped, went away after a day, started at 7 dpo. I told DH that I was going to test and he was kinda freaked out. I kept telling him, "don't worry, I'm sure the spotting was a fluke and I'm not pregnant," but in the back of my mind, I guess I was sure I was.
This morning (10 dpo) I took one of those First Response hpts that tells you 6 days before your missed period.
...BFN.
I should have felt relieved. I wasn't. I was crushed. I came out and told my husband that it was BFN and he said "well that's a relief". I was silent for a second and he looked at me and asked "Are you sad?" I started bawling. We plan to wait until she's probably a year old to TTC and I don't think DH wants to budge on that one. I'm just so down right now, and I really didn't think I would be.
Re: HPT made me cry.