I am only recently able to look at my babies extra thumb. For the frist two weeks I couldn't even look at it with out crying. I didn't hold her little hand. I wrapped up her arm in her swaddle blanket. I would just get freaked out by it and get sad. I feel bad for treating my baby like some sort of freak. And cue the tears.....
*HUG* i can't even imagine what you must be going through, but i will say that when DS was born he had two big skin tags on the side of his face and i cried and got freaked out by THAT more than his prematurity. i would only take pics of the other side of his face and worried all the time about why i felt that my own son was anything less than beautiful. it's a totally normal reaction, even though it feels awful. huge HUGE hugs!
When I was a kid my favorite book was "Oscar's Book", a Sesame Street Little Golden Book. I dug it out of storage and DS is now obsessed with it. But he just wants to madly flip pages, and since it's not a board book he was making little tears and creases. I was tired of stressing about it so yesterday I bought another copy on Ebay. Maybe down the road he can have the "real" copy back.
DS1 born June 2008 | m/c at 9w March 2011 | DS2 born April 2012
I have really strong feelings for H's best friend. Backstory: I knew the friend first, and tried to date him 12 yrs ago in high school, he wasn't interested. A year later met H through him, we've been together ever since. I've always been attracted to the friend, but have really noticed the feelings over the past couple years. We are all SUPER close, so close that friend will give me a kiss goodbye on cheek, but in Oct. he smooched me on the lips (we were all drunk at a beer festival). So I needed to get that off my chest. Oh and this guy is not somebody I would want a relationship with, he refuses to marry his gf of 6 yrs or have children before 35, etc. Total Peter Pan Syndrome (doesn't want to grow up).
I have another. Everything DH does pisses me off, I am irrationally annoyed by him. Even just thinking about him makes me angry and I will start imaginary fights in my head (weird I know). Sometimes I really don't want to be w/ him and other times I couldn't imagine not being w/ him. I am such a super biitch to him and I hate how I sound, it's so embarrassing.
I hate it when people get their kids picture taken with the Easter bunny. Especially if it's a creep bunny (which it almost always is). I love Easter, but for some reason that really, really bothers me.
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I hate my body. I am completely grossed out by myself. I know that this is a huge contributor to my general unhappiness these days, but yet I have done nothing about it. Every week I plan to work out but then I make excuses.
What it comes down to is that I really don't want to have to get up at 5 am to work out then get myself ready, get DD ready, take DD to daycare, go to work, come home, make dinner, feed DD, give her a bath, put her to bed and then clean up. I hate that every minute seems to be scheduled and there never seems like enough time in the day. I want to sleep until 7 and then take DD to the park or for a run. I want excersize to be an enjoyable part of my day, not something I have to squeeze into my early morning schedule. Just another reason why I hate being a working mom this week. Vent over...
i could've written this word for word. Down to the crazy schedule. Every morning I set my alarm for 5a., but hardly ever make it to the gym. Then i get mad when I see pictures of myself.
I want to just be able to enjoy my day, not run around like a chicken with my head cut off.
Today I started a Testosterone treatment. I'm nervous, but I'm giving it a try for DH. I have zero sex drive (always been that way) and after finally talking to my doc about it and doing some blood work to check my levels, we decided to do this and see if it helps.
I hate it when people get their kids picture taken with the Easter bunny. Especially if it's a creep bunny (which it almost always is). I love Easter, but for some reason that really, really bothers me.
When I see other's pics of them, I'll lie and say how cute the photo is.....but in my head, I'm thinking....CREEPY BUNNY!! I can't see their adorable children because I get caught up in how scary the bunnies are.
Along the lines of VVs confession. I have an IRL friends that makes fun of me for running. That's right, he makes fun of me like its pointless or something. Everytime I train for a race, he tells me how pointless the 6 or 7 mile run I just did was. I know the ahole is just jealous and he can suck it.
WHOA! that's crazytalk! running is a-freaking-mazing. he's just sad you could beat him in a race
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My trainer is leasing a new farm that is 20 acres larger, has both indoor and outdoor arenas, and is 5 miles closer to my house. The board fee will increase horse spending by about 300.00 a month. While I feel guilty about adding to our household expenses, I am SOOOO looking forward to a spring and summer of NOT BFing, NOT BFPing, and DH watching DD while I ride. I want this summer all to myself! ME, ME, ME!!!
My trainer is leasing a new farm that is 20 acres larger, has both indoor and outdoor arenas, and is 5 miles closer to my house. The board fee will increase horse spending by about 300.00 a month. While I feel guilty about adding to our household expenses, I am SOOOO looking forward to a spring and summer of NOT BFing, NOT BFPing, and DH watching DD while I ride. I want this summer all to myself! ME, ME, ME!!!
That sounds like HEAVEN! I've got a friend with a farm near by and she's due in June and I'm going to help keep her horses fit for her this summer. Can't wait!!!
I get irrationally irritated by people who have screen names like "So-and-So'sMommy" or "Husband'sGirl", etc. Seriously? Do you not have your own identity?
I came up with mine when I was super excited about being a newlywed. I would like to change it but I'll be damned if I'm giving up my silver status now!
I have really strong feelings for H's best friend. Backstory: I knew the friend first, and tried to date him 12 yrs ago in high school, he wasn't interested. A year later met H through him, we've been together ever since. I've always been attracted to the friend, but have really noticed the feelings over the past couple years. We are all SUPER close, so close that friend will give me a kiss goodbye on cheek, but in Oct. he smooched me on the lips (we were all drunk at a beer festival). So I needed to get that off my chest. Oh and this guy is not somebody I would want a relationship with, he refuses to marry his gf of 6 yrs or have children before 35, etc. Total Peter Pan Syndrome (doesn't want to grow up).
I have another. Everything DH does pisses me off, I am irrationally annoyed by him. Even just thinking about him makes me angry and I will start imaginary fights in my head (weird I know). Sometimes I really don't want to be w/ him and other times I couldn't imagine not being w/ him. I am such a super biitch to him and I hate how I sound, it's so embarrassing.
Did you ever consider that these 2 confessions are related? That's a sticky situation girl. I hope you are able to work it out. I'm sure it's difficult.
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Good for you! Hopefully, you scared him enough that he won't be late anymore.
Our final hearing is April 13, and we are requesting payments be made via direct deposit, or via the courts (with a 5% fee he will have to pay). Did I also mention our judge is female and has 6 year old twin girls? This, my dears, is a sign of karma or some other cosmic mumbo jumbo.
I've been sleeping at night with my newborn snuggled up on my chest. We could be trying harder to get her to go into the PnP on her own, but I secretly love it and for these first couple of weeks, I just want to enjoy the snuggly-babiness. And she's doing 3-4 hour stretches that way, and both DH and I are way more inclined this time around to do whatever we need to, to get sleep. :P
Also, it's soooo much easier to feel like a good mama to a newborn. She sleeps a lot, she BFs so I don't have to cook for her, and she's generally pretty easily satisfied. It's not the constant, active management that goes on with my toddler, or the emotional up-and-downs, testing boundaries, figuring out appropriate reactions and discipline, etc.
I'm really nervous about handling both of them when my mom leaves and my DH goes back to work, especially since I don't feel anywhere near 100% yet after having a c/s.
Ditto everything. DH and I have been taking 4 hour shifts at night and DH is really trying to get him used to the moses basket, even if that means every 45 min - 1 hour, he's fussing and needs attention. I keep caving when I have him and letting him sleep on my chest with me. I do it partly because I want to sleep and partly because I love that cuddly little bundle all warm on my chest. DH asks every morning how he did in the basket and I am like "He was really fussy. He wouldn't sleep unless he was on my chest"...which isn't 100% true.
My mom leaves on Sunday and I have next week with DH since he took the week off but then it's just me, a newborn and a toddler for 11 hours a day. Yikes!
I hate it when people get their kids picture taken with the Easter bunny. Especially if it's a creep bunny (which it almost always is). I love Easter, but for some reason that really, really bothers me.
When I see other's pics of them, I'll lie and say how cute the photo is.....but in my head, I'm thinking....CREEPY BUNNY!! I can't see their adorable children because I get caught up in how scary the bunnies are.
This is cracking me up that you guys thing they are creepy. I just saw the easter bunny at the mall the other day and thought "hmmm, looks fun, we should do that" but now I'm totally rethinking this, lol.
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I hate it when people get their kids picture taken with the Easter bunny. Especially if it's a creep bunny (which it almost always is). I love Easter, but for some reason that really, really bothers me.
When I see other's pics of them, I'll lie and say how cute the photo is.....but in my head, I'm thinking....CREEPY BUNNY!! I can't see their adorable children because I get caught up in how scary the bunnies are.
LOL. I think Easter Bunny pictures are hilarious and I am hoping I can get DS's picture done this weekend.
DD #1 passed away in January 2011 at 14 days old due to congenital heart disease
DD#2 lost in January 2012 at 23 weeks due to anhydramnios caused by a placental abruption
Quick backstory-my parents are our neighbors. DH and I love them but they are pushy, clingy, insanely bossy and negative. They tend to drive me BSC every other day. But DD looooooves her grandparents and they really do have their good points so DH and I just deal with it. Now my ILs are the opposite. They barely even noticed they had a son until our daughter was born but now they seem to really want to step up and be more family oriented. DH is over the moon about it and I am 100% beyond this new leaf they turned over.
His parents still live in Switzerland. They do not speak any English and have no desire to ever visit the States. Fair enough. However, they want to meet K so badly his dad bought me a plane ticket to bring her to Zurich in two weeks. Score! DH will already be over there as he has some work to do in Germany. For three days of our trip he will be in Germany so K and I have to stay with his parents with hardly any way to talk to them. So my FCCC? I am so sick of my parent's and their meddling that I am actually looking forward to those three days because I speak such little German that there is pretty much no way to communicate with the ILs. It will be heaven not hearing all the negativity about how we chose to raise our child.
My DH says he would be completely content with not having any more kids ... although he doesn't mind having more because he knows how important it is to me, and more little Tottys can only be a good thing (because the one we have is so awesome).
Really, I think he just loves the toddler phase and is dreading another newborn phase ... and I don't care. He's going to have to suck it up.
This is my DH, too. When I ask, he says he does want one more baby, but I really have a feeling that if I were to say to him, "You know what? I think I'm good with just DS", he would breathe a huge sigh of relief. I think he's terrified of the newborn thing - I had PPD and the first 4 months of DS' life were just hellish for DH and me.
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Yesterday I ate 15 peanut butter girl scout cookies - in about 20 minutes. I then read the box and it said 2 cookeis were a serving and was 150 calories! I got so disgusted, When DH looked for them last night, I told him DD got into them.
Eh, don't worry about it, I could easily eat a whole box in one sitting.
My FFFC's: DH works seasonally and he recently went back to work, (he's laid off during the winter months). Anyway, he now makes what he did with his unemployment check and my check, (I work overnight on the weekends), so I've been not so subtly hinting to him that I want to quit my job. I know I shouldn't and we'll need the extra income when the next winter comes. I just want my summer weekends free to do fun stuff with my family, not just work and sleep.
2) When I gave DS a bath this morning, I got in with him because lately he's been hating bathtime and I thought getting in with him might make him calm down. He still cried throughout the whole bath, but he kept giving me these really long hugs, which I loved.
Proud mom to Jeremy (10/24/08) and Gabriel (4/25/11)
My DH says he would be completely content with not having any more kids ... although he doesn't mind having more because he knows how important it is to me, and more little Tottys can only be a good thing (because the one we have is so awesome).
Really, I think he just loves the toddler phase and is dreading another newborn phase ... and I don't care. He's going to have to suck it up.
This is my DH, too. When I ask, he says he does want one more baby, but I really have a feeling that if I were to say to him, "You know what? I think I'm good with just DS", he would breathe a huge sigh of relief. I think he's terrified of the newborn thing - I had PPD and the first 4 months of DS' life were just hellish for DH and me.
DH hates the newborn stage. He's so afraid of breaking them, lol. He is great with Michael and will hold Joseph in small increments, but he does all the other stuff so I am free to handle Joseph most of the time. This is fine by me and I know in a couple of more months he'll relax and enjoy Joseph as much as he enjoys Michael.
I on the other hand, love having a newborn, much easier to deal with than a toddler, imo. (of course neither of mine had colic)
I never thought this would be a confession, but we still use the infant tub. Yep, DD is almost 2 and we still bathe her in the sink in the infant tub. DD has no fear of the big tub. We keep using the infant tub as a convenience.
It takes less than 5 minutes to fill it up, bathe DD, and rinse it out. The sink has a spray nozzle that makes it easy to rinse her off and wash her hair.
-I dread holidays now that we have DS. I wish we could stay home and enjoy the holiday as a family instead of running around to both sides of extended family. It is exhausting and not enjoyable in my opinion.
DH's mother lives an hour away (which is not that far I realize). We always end up going to her house first and I can never get DH to leave so we can visit my family before DS starts to get crabby. I was furious at Christmas b/c we spent so much time with his family that by the time we got to my parents it was getting late and DS pretty much whined/cried the whole time. So we had to tear open gifts and be like"thx for the stuff, see you later!" I was pi$$ed.
Now Easter is coming and the whole cycle repeats-
Uggh yes i totally feel you on this one, i am already dreading mothers day b/c i know that dh's mom, grandma, great-grandma all EXPECT us to be there with them..umm hello mothers day is for me as a mom, and as much "fun" as it sounds to spent 10 straight hours w/ dh's ENTIRE family i'd much rather spend the day quietly with my children. I hate how every holiday is this big forced event, the idea of me, dh & kids
Also i plan on getting a mirena put in soon b/c i know we don't need/can't afford anymore kids right now and yet i'm sorta having baby fever and secretly hoping i get pregnant next month before the mirena.
I never thought this would be a confession, but we still use the infant tub. Yep, DD is almost 2 and we still bathe her in the sink in the infant tub. DD has no fear of the big tub. We keep using the infant tub as a convenience.
It takes less than 5 minutes to fill it up, bathe DD, and rinse it out. The sink has a spray nozzle that makes it easy to rinse her off and wash her hair.
We're keeping the infant tub as long as we can!
Exactly. I think we may have a toddler tub because DD still has lots of room to move about. I love that it's so easy to clean out and that we use way less water than we would if we used the actual bathtub. I can't see us graduating to the big bathtub anytime soon.
in fact, I do this on a regular basis. All those people who got up in arms about putting LO in daycare while the mom stays home would probably really hate me, lol.
hey when i choose to WFH or randomly stay home from work my nanny still comes over to watch dd, take her to music class and story time.
i think people that really get all up in arms about this are hilarious and probably trying to make themselves feel like better mothers. ::shrug::
One of the reasons besides cost for us to switch DD to a daycare closer to home was so I could do this. If I'm sick she can still go to DC. If I get the day off because my office closes she goes to DC. Last week we had a bad storm here in Jersey & our building lost water so I was called & told not to come in. DD was already at daycare. My mother, DH & MIL all yelled, DON'T PICK HER UP. lol They said go do something alone! So I did. I went to Target & spent more than I should, than picked up lunch for my mom & me than I took a nap. It was nice.
Yesterday I ate 15 peanut butter girl scout cookies - in about 20 minutes. I then read the box and it said 2 cookeis were a serving and was 150 calories! I got so disgusted, When DH looked for them last night, I told him DD got into them.
Eh, don't worry about it, I could easily eat a whole box in one sitting.
I can almost guarantee that I've eaten more GS cookies in the last week than anyone else here . My sister got me a freaking case of Samoas, and there is a pitiful amount left after only a couple of weeks. I had some friends over yesterday and I will probably tell DH that I sent some home with them if he asks where they went
My FFFC: I think we're all self-righteous, judgy, beeyotches when it comes to our parenting and lifestyle choices. The people that really grind my gears are the ones who 'call people out' for being judgmental, which is pretty much the most hypocritical behavior possible, and reeks of insecurity. I also roll my eyes at the following phrases: "happy mommy happy baby", "the best thing for *our* family", and "all that matters is a healthy baby".
Re: FFFC!!
*HUG* i can't even imagine what you must be going through, but i will say that when DS was born he had two big skin tags on the side of his face and i cried and got freaked out by THAT more than his prematurity. i would only take pics of the other side of his face and worried all the time about why i felt that my own son was anything less than beautiful. it's a totally normal reaction, even though it feels awful. huge HUGE hugs!
DS1 born June 2008 | m/c at 9w March 2011 | DS2 born April 2012
Whew, here's mine
I have really strong feelings for H's best friend. Backstory: I knew the friend first, and tried to date him 12 yrs ago in high school, he wasn't interested. A year later met H through him, we've been together ever since. I've always been attracted to the friend, but have really noticed the feelings over the past couple years. We are all SUPER close, so close that friend will give me a kiss goodbye on cheek, but in Oct. he smooched me on the lips (we were all drunk at a beer festival). So I needed to get that off my chest. Oh and this guy is not somebody I would want a relationship with, he refuses to marry his gf of 6 yrs or have children before 35, etc. Total Peter Pan Syndrome (doesn't want to grow up).
I have another. Everything DH does pisses me off, I am irrationally annoyed by him. Even just thinking about him makes me angry and I will start imaginary fights in my head (weird I know). Sometimes I really don't want to be w/ him and other times I couldn't imagine not being w/ him. I am such a super biitch to him and I hate how I sound, it's so embarrassing.
i could've written this word for word. Down to the crazy schedule. Every morning I set my alarm for 5a., but hardly ever make it to the gym. Then i get mad when I see pictures of myself.
I want to just be able to enjoy my day, not run around like a chicken with my head cut off.
When I see other's pics of them, I'll lie and say how cute the photo is.....but in my head, I'm thinking....CREEPY BUNNY!! I can't see their adorable children because I get caught up in how scary the bunnies are.
WHOA! that's crazytalk! running is a-freaking-mazing. he's just sad you could beat him in a race
That sounds like HEAVEN! I've got a friend with a farm near by and she's due in June and I'm going to help keep her horses fit for her this summer. Can't wait!!!
I came up with mine when I was super excited about being a newlywed. I would like to change it but I'll be damned if I'm giving up my silver status now!
Did you ever consider that these 2 confessions are related? That's a sticky situation girl. I hope you are able to work it out. I'm sure it's difficult.
This is entirely fantastic.
Ditto everything. DH and I have been taking 4 hour shifts at night and DH is really trying to get him used to the moses basket, even if that means every 45 min - 1 hour, he's fussing and needs attention. I keep caving when I have him and letting him sleep on my chest with me. I do it partly because I want to sleep and partly because I love that cuddly little bundle all warm on my chest. DH asks every morning how he did in the basket and I am like "He was really fussy. He wouldn't sleep unless he was on my chest"...which isn't 100% true.
My mom leaves on Sunday and I have next week with DH since he took the week off but then it's just me, a newborn and a toddler for 11 hours a day. Yikes!
I take Jack 2 days a week as well and I think it's wonderful!
This is cracking me up that you guys thing they are creepy. I just saw the easter bunny at the mall the other day and thought "hmmm, looks fun, we should do that" but now I'm totally rethinking this, lol.
LOL. I think Easter Bunny pictures are hilarious and I am hoping I can get DS's picture done this weekend.
DD #1 passed away in January 2011 at 14 days old due to congenital heart disease
DD#2 lost in January 2012 at 23 weeks due to anhydramnios caused by a placental abruption
Ok here is mine:
Quick backstory-my parents are our neighbors. DH and I love them but they are pushy, clingy, insanely bossy and negative. They tend to drive me BSC every other day. But DD looooooves her grandparents and they really do have their good points so DH and I just deal with it. Now my ILs are the opposite. They barely even noticed they had a son until our daughter was born but now they seem to really want to step up and be more family oriented. DH is over the moon about it and I am 100% beyond this new leaf they turned over.
His parents still live in Switzerland. They do not speak any English and have no desire to ever visit the States. Fair enough. However, they want to meet K so badly his dad bought me a plane ticket to bring her to Zurich in two weeks. Score! DH will already be over there as he has some work to do in Germany. For three days of our trip he will be in Germany so K and I have to stay with his parents with hardly any way to talk to them. So my FCCC? I am so sick of my parent's and their meddling that I am actually looking forward to those three days because I speak such little German that there is pretty much no way to communicate with the ILs. It will be heaven not hearing all the negativity about how we chose to raise our child.
This is my DH, too. When I ask, he says he does want one more baby, but I really have a feeling that if I were to say to him, "You know what? I think I'm good with just DS", he would breathe a huge sigh of relief. I think he's terrified of the newborn thing - I had PPD and the first 4 months of DS' life were just hellish for DH and me.
Eh, don't worry about it, I could easily eat a whole box in one sitting.
My FFFC's: DH works seasonally and he recently went back to work, (he's laid off during the winter months). Anyway, he now makes what he did with his unemployment check and my check, (I work overnight on the weekends), so I've been not so subtly hinting to him that I want to quit my job. I know I shouldn't and we'll need the extra income when the next winter comes. I just want my summer weekends free to do fun stuff with my family, not just work and sleep.
2) When I gave DS a bath this morning, I got in with him because lately he's been hating bathtime and I thought getting in with him might make him calm down. He still cried throughout the whole bath, but he kept giving me these really long hugs, which I loved.
DH hates the newborn stage. He's so afraid of breaking them, lol. He is great with Michael and will hold Joseph in small increments, but he does all the other stuff so I am free to handle Joseph most of the time. This is fine by me and I know in a couple of more months he'll relax and enjoy Joseph as much as he enjoys Michael.
I on the other hand, love having a newborn, much easier to deal with than a toddler, imo. (of course neither of mine had colic)
I never thought this would be a confession, but we still use the infant tub. Yep, DD is almost 2 and we still bathe her in the sink in the infant tub. DD has no fear of the big tub. We keep using the infant tub as a convenience.
It takes less than 5 minutes to fill it up, bathe DD, and rinse it out. The sink has a spray nozzle that makes it easy to rinse her off and wash her hair.
We're keeping the infant tub as long as we can!
-I dread holidays now that we have DS. I wish we could stay home and enjoy the holiday as a family instead of running around to both sides of extended family. It is exhausting and not enjoyable in my opinion.
DH's mother lives an hour away (which is not that far I realize). We always end up going to her house first and I can never get DH to leave so we can visit my family before DS starts to get crabby. I was furious at Christmas b/c we spent so much time with his family that by the time we got to my parents it was getting late and DS pretty much whined/cried the whole time. So we had to tear open gifts and be like"thx for the stuff, see you later!" I was pi$$ed.
Now Easter is coming and the whole cycle repeats-
Uggh yes i totally feel you on this one, i am already dreading mothers day b/c i know that dh's mom, grandma, great-grandma all EXPECT us to be there with them..umm hello mothers day is for me as a mom, and as much "fun" as it sounds to spent 10 straight hours w/ dh's ENTIRE family i'd much rather spend the day quietly with my children. I hate how every holiday is this big forced event, the idea of me, dh & kids
Also i plan on getting a mirena put in soon b/c i know we don't need/can't afford anymore kids right now and yet i'm sorta having baby fever and secretly hoping i get pregnant next month before the mirena.
Exactly. I think we may have a toddler tub because DD still has lots of room to move about. I love that it's so easy to clean out and that we use way less water than we would if we used the actual bathtub. I can't see us graduating to the big bathtub anytime soon.
One of the reasons besides cost for us to switch DD to a daycare closer to home was so I could do this. If I'm sick she can still go to DC. If I get the day off because my office closes she goes to DC. Last week we had a bad storm here in Jersey & our building lost water so I was called & told not to come in. DD was already at daycare. My mother, DH & MIL all yelled, DON'T PICK HER UP. lol They said go do something alone! So I did. I went to Target & spent more than I should, than picked up lunch for my mom & me than I took a nap. It was nice.
I can almost guarantee that I've eaten more GS cookies in the last week than anyone else here
. My sister got me a freaking case of Samoas, and there is a pitiful amount left after only a couple of weeks. I had some friends over yesterday and I will probably tell DH that I sent some home with them if he asks where they went 
My FFFC: I think we're all self-righteous, judgy, beeyotches when it comes to our parenting and lifestyle choices. The people that really grind my gears are the ones who 'call people out' for being judgmental, which is pretty much the most hypocritical behavior possible, and reeks of insecurity. I also roll my eyes at the following phrases: "happy mommy happy baby", "the best thing for *our* family", and "all that matters is a healthy baby".