New to this board - Intro

aliwolly · March 2010

I'm new to this board and wanted to introduce myself. I'm sure I'll lurk more than comment because I'm pretty shy online (weird because I'm more shy online than I am in real life, but I'm trying to get over that). My husband and I were pretty lucky with getting pregnant the first time around - "hit gold" our second month trying - but unfortunately we found out at our 12 week ultrasound the first week of January that we had a MMC - baby measured around 7 weeks. I underwent a D&C and am still waiting for my hCG levels to get to zero - were still at 10 this past Tuesday, which was 9 weeks post D&C. I've got another blood draw scheduled for next Tuesday and I expect my numbers to be at least under 5 then - I hope!! AF returned for me 6 weeks post D&C and I had a pretty regular cycle this first cycle, so I'm happy about that. My doc had told me that we could start TTC after my first period, but unfortunately we weren't successful this cycle. I'm trying not to be crushed, but our timing was excellent and I was really hoping that it would happen right away because my husband just got hired for his "dream job" as a professional firefighter and just left for the Academy last week. Fortunately, I still get to have him home on weekends. Unfortunately, the way my cycles are looking it means we really only have one more shot (this new cycle!) where the timing will work out that we'll have a chance at being successful at TTC. After that, we're out until he graduates in June.

I'm trying to stay positive and overall I have many more good days than bad days. Today is a bad day - I think it's the rainy weather here in Upstate NY (and the fact that I won't see Alex until Friday!). It seems like I vacillate between being positive that it will happen again soon for us and all will be well next time and thinking that it will take us forever and we'll go through this again and again. I'm sure that's kind of how most girls here feel, though.

Anyway, just wanted to say "hi" and "good luck" to all the ladies on this board!