Why?

PrncssShan03 · March 2010

Just as soon as we found out, it was over. Finally got my BFP on Friday, March 19th. Hubs and I were elated. We cried and cried with happiness and never felt closer. We started talking about all things baby. Where the furniture would go, the plans for when he deployed after the baby was born, etc. We had a plan. A solid, awesome, exciting plan.

Then, Sunday AM...I woke up with severe cramping. I knew what was coming. My PCOS just couldn't leave us alone. I went to the bathroom, and bled. We rushed to the ER and they did tons of bloodwork. Doc said my cervix was open and my level was at a 4, signs that point to a spontaneous miscarriage. Why?

Tomorrow I turn 25 and on my birthday, I get to go to the Labor & Delivery floor where moms get their miracles...and I get blood work that tells me mine is gone. What a fantastic birthday present.

I'm angry. I'm hurt. I can't stop crying. I want the whole world to stop turning, to feel sorry for me. I'm devestated.

boulderbabe · March 2010

I am so sorry for your loss

PrncssShan03 · March 2010

Thanks. You also.

magdalina.h · March 2010

I'm so sorry for your loss.

bgarson · March 2010

I am so sorry. I struggle with PCOS and now the loss of my first baby, so I know how you are feeling. It's devastating. Struggling to get pregnant was difficult, but loosing a baby is heartbreaking. I'll be thinking about you.